Those who actually found my phone but didn't give it to me , i tell you , I'M SERIOUSLY CURSING YOU THAT YOU'LL DIE IN A HORRIBLE WAY !
YOUR WHOLE FAMILY WILL BE ROBBED !

FUCK YOU , BITCH/BASTARD !

Sup All ! ;D


At last ! i got to meet baby ! he put up his sweet/cute smile when he reached under zan's block to meet me .
Like what we always do every morning , Hug , and exchange kisses .
those kisses makes me feel hyper once i enter the school .
it kept me hyperventilate coz his kisses makes me breathe deeper than i normally breathe . his kisses are special ! ;D
well , school as per normal . just that i was much more hyper today .
reason ? i swear idk . hahhaha !
there's one incident where i SUMPAH i didn't do it on purpse .
it happened during maths lessons .
ffe sat behind me and ffa . he was concentrating on his work when i've alr finished mine . so i turned around and slammed the table hard . and he jerked .
and his pencil went other directions . and he said " Eh mirawr , aku terkejot tau ! "
his face expression was so dumb lah ! tk bleh angssz siol . we laughed all the way .
including ffe , himself . he laughed at himself . how funny .
mother tongue lagy i hyper , i tell you .
eh i realise kan , my malay makin terok seh .
i kept on asking Mdm Yati how to translate this english word to malay . even as simple as "COMPANY" also i forget how to say it in malay .
ape maciam ah niy ?!
nk kene brush up uh ! nk kene beat mai in malay ! tk bleh kalah !
hahahah ! i had fun during malay .
mai talked to me bout stuffs and enquire some private things which i actually shared with her with advise .
i will take care of her like my lil sister . i won't let anything bad happen to her . i swear .
kay back to story .
after MT , we had to continue our lesson with our maths lsp .
tiring seh ..
maths lsp was so so luh .
after lsp , jumpe the peeps jap .
smoke , then met baby ouside school . he gave me his cute face with his tongue sticking out .
step cute skit uh gituk . hahahahah !
mati aku lau baby nmpk niy . HAHAHAHHA !
so we headed to bishan playground near to the usual place we usually go .
then we talk stuffs , laugh , shout , giggle alot .
( you know i know ^^ *kening naik2* )
nearing to 5 like that , we started to make a move .
the last part bile nk g bus stop tu ade mepek skit .
Bby went giler , i tell you .
(*CLAP HANDS!*)
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ = Solid .
thats what he meant . sape2 yang tau itu equation , know what is the missing word .
hahahha ! took 159 and slept during the journey .
tired siolzsz .
reach home , mother still not at home . so rang her .
told her my phone da gone case tk ley receive/make calls/msgs .
then she ask to meet at macs . ate mcspicy and twister fries .
then had to go to ntuc coz mother ask me to buy french breads .
met them at thet axi stand and waited till cik zai took her cab . after crossing the second traffic light stop , told mother bout the bills .
told her that at least pay bit by bit luh . nnty tk pasal kene penalty . lagy susah oi !
so mother gave her atm and the bill to pay at S.A.M.
after , i had to call the customer sevice to inform them i've paid the full amount .
so they'll re-activate my line in few hours time and now i can use it alr ;D
*jump jump!*
so now baby won't needa moan coz no one msg him at night , morning , afternooon .
heh ! so tonight , i'll keep him company as usual .

i think i've said enough . i don't wanna this post to be too wordy . nnty korang mate steam kodok . ahhah !








okay lah , GOOD NIGHT , SWEETHEARTS {♥}

Thats the new msn live messenger . quite complicated to use luh .

i re-installed imesh again to get songs . but haiyo ! imesh , problem lah !
when i re-installed , i c an see the things i search for . and when i download , it's supposed to appear in the download box , but it didn't .
wtf !
so i un-installed it .
susah lah ini maciam ..

Hey all ! ;D


Currently i'm at Sarah's house now . Just reached her house few mins ago .
I'll update sooon bout today's outing when i get back home .
tmr baby ajak go out . but i don't now whether can or not luh .
ticky is here also .
We had lunch at Javanese Kitchen Restaurant .
and goodness , vivo is so packed with Bangalas man !
@#$% !


okay lah . will keep you guys suspend on what happened today .
will update soon !



ciao !

Picture of the day (: That's my new friend , EERA .

SUP ! ;D


So ytd , i went out with mother and her friend+her daughter . at first i felt awkward coz i was seriously shy to make friends .
but i managed to break the ice .
we toook a cab down to holland v.
then we shopped there . mostly it's not my type of place to buy my stuffs . totally a "NO" .
first stop was the Lim's art and crafts shop .
the place was very beautiful and has lots of interesting stuffs . i mean , the souvenirs .
i bought 2 bracelet and 1 anklet .
and i love it to the core . eera bought it too .
oh anw eera is just 1 year away from me and we both have the same interest i can say .
then we bought yoghurt at frolicks .
delicious, i tell you ! should try .
after the mothers dah puas shopping kat sane , we cabbed down to compasspoint .
we went in metro first .
then me and erra went to the dickies section .
okay luh , the design tk bnyk colourful . so she insist we look out for the bag at 77th street .
so headed to 77th street and hunt for the bag .
look and look , still haven;t decide . so we went banquet to eat first then .
i ate chicken rice .
then finsh eating , the mums wanna go to the flower shop to wrap the thing they bought there before we go for dinner .
so , the girls nk separated from the mums to search for our bags .
at first i had doubts mother would let me buy a new bag .
but she surprisingly handed me 50 bucks and told me to buy the bag i wanted .
i tell you , i felt like jumping around the shopping centre . but i control one . hahahhaha !
me and eera headed to 77th street . i picked the dickies with colourful stars .
cost round 40 bucks . then i also signed up for 1 year membership . so sape2 nk shopping kat 77th street , tell me , i can go with you then get discounts (:
i'll get the real card in two-three weeks time .
*jumps around!*
now i can buy things at a cheap price at 77th street , like finally !
kay then eera had problems deciding for her bag but she end up choosing the billabong one .
quite nice luh .
the mothers met us there .
after , went to top up my ezlink card and headed to the bus inter .
took 159 home .



and then , baby called me and we talked cock . HAHAHAH !
*i know , he knows* (raise eyebrowsx3)



anw , tmr will be going out , AGAIN . i thought i wanna go out with baby to the beach or smth or meet the people lah . but aunty ajak go makan at some Javanese Restaurant .
so terpakse ikot .
but i think it'll be fun . coz cousins will be around i suppose . hopefully . if not , i just tell mother i wanna go somewhere else if no cousins are not there .
baby ajak kluar on tuesday . but tk tau luh boleh ke tk ...
see first lah kay (:



i'll be hearing him son in few mins time ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDD



So , Good Night , Darlings {♥}


&

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL !

it always has to be my fault .
well , idk why .
when he said that , he makes me feel useless . or maybe i am ?
not sure .
he's always picking on "him" when he did nothing wrong . why ? seriously , why ?
i don't see the reason why he wants to hate "him" .
for no reason ?
thats sooo , immature . gosh . i don't know how long i could stand this thing .
i just feel like piercing a knife through my body and die .


tears are rolling down my cheeks non stop . why ? coz i'm seriously confused .
i tried to make everything right . but he reacted this way .
it really aches alot .

ayiid , perhaps , my r/s with him will have tears non-stop .
well , you know your brother the best ...

SUP , ALL MY DEAREST READERS ! ;D




like usual , i'm on the computer while watching Isteri Untuk Suamiku .
gosh , can cry sia watch that show .
i adore Alya and Dimas to be together . Amel cute bangat ! Very bubbly (:
such a touching drama lah , omg .

kay cut that and lets get back to my daily happenings .

today is the day i had alot of lessons going on .
my mind is really very tired , of course .
had geog for start off . Mrs Ho is alr on leave for 1 month . so Mr Chat (i think thats how he's name is spelled) is teaching us for the time being .
he's very fun , i tell you .
then had a period of chem .
this time round i didn't get my mind to focus that much .
next was physics ! DOUBLE HOOORAY ! now i love physics damn bloody much .
maybe coz the topic is simple .
*smiles widely*
then reccess . ate burger again with one pack of nutrisoy milk .
POA was next . as usual , didn't pay close attention as i had to flip through my thick thick book to find phrases for english hmwk .
luckily i did it or i'll have to write 100 lines saying " i pledge to write 5 phrases every monday "
that'll be very tiring siol , korang .
L!ve lessons was a bad one for me .
i had NO MOOD at all to talk to people , no mood to do good work , etc .
i don't know why .
aubrey wanted me to layan him but instead i show mody face at him and he say , "not easy to see you happy one you know . It's once in a blur moon to see you smile one . why ah ? "
bt i just nodded my head and stare at my classroom .
end lessons at 2 . continued with my POA lsp for those who failed the previous test .
well , at first i didn't wanna go as i was soooo mooody .
but in the end i went for it . ffe went for it too . so at least i have someone to talk to if i'm bored .
i'm glad i made the right chice to stay back as i've understoood the whole hing bout Trading , profit and loss acc & balance sheet .
at last !
then after lsp , when to meet baby at bishan as usual .
he prangai-ed for a while .
but soon , i managed to make him have a smile at least .
"aku ade tactic okeh ! *kening naik2*"
then we talked bout some stuffs .
after, he sent me to the bus stop .
i was half way talking to him and my bus came . i nearly forgot to gave him a goodbye kiss and he said " thats all ?"
he can't live without kisses eh . ahahah !
he told me to miss call him when reached home . and i did what he said .
reached home , bathed , sleep !
damn tiring .
baby just went offline . but will be hearing from him soon at 11 .



anw , latest news ! : DIMAS MOM ANYHOW SAY DIMAS WANNA MARRY WITH REVA SIOL ! tak tnye dimas dulu main hembus jek . nasib reva susah nk letak hati kat Dimas .
(dimas handsome taooo ^,^)



GOOD NIGHT , DARLINGS ♥
(with much love)

& so , i don't understand / get what you're tryna say .
"Sometimes your actions affect others .. hai .. "
What was that supposed to mean ?




OH SUP ALL !;D

school as usual . only that i was so sleepy and slept for while during poa . not until Zan slapped my hand all of a sudden and my body jerked up due to shock .
NABU siak !
anw , i'm sick . like AGAIN ! asik sakit tk abes2 .
back to story .
today is monday so we report at 8.40 .
sui sui siol dtg 8.35+ to 8.40 .
then singh catch baby . he was so degil then he walked off when singh asked him to stop .
so i walked off . mins later , he joined me at the stairs there .
irritating nuisance seh tu singh .
assembly as usual . some gests from india eh ? i think visited our school .
first lesson was maths . gosh ! tk bley angz lah lessons with mdm soh .
tried hard to concentrate though .
next was english . did comprehension bout slavery . boring , i know .
next , reccess . ate burger ajer . coz nasi adang nye stall long queue .
mother tongue was next . walked past baby's class but he was doing his work .
then zai came out and talked to me .
i asked him " hey zai ! masih ingat tk niy sape ? "
he replied " mesti luh . beh u still rmb me ah ? "
i replied " of course i rmb you lah ! lau tk ii won't know your name . "
both of us laughed . funny lah he .
then i was waiting for cikgu to come so i kept on fidgeting .
then there's this boy name Alam was shouting opposite of me .
he shouted " ZAI MANE ZAI ?! "
he said that a few times and i obviously got irritated that noone answered .
so i turned and look at him .
he shouted again asking where zai is .
then i shouted " are you talking to me ?! "
and he nodded his head .
aiyo that guy uh . bobal sorang man for the past few seconds .
tsktsktsk .
had malay surprise test .
kefahaman was like *TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT* .
next was POA .
learnt new topic . quite easy luh .
end school at 1.45 pm . then walked slowly with the peeps .
received a msg from baby that he's not waiting for me .
so , i don't mind at all coz i don't wanna ask so much from him to wait for me for 2 hours .
checked in at 1.50 .
dismissed at 3.50 .
there was some commosions in the detention room at the end .
shan't elaborate .
for the very first time , i enjoy serving detentions .
but only if Rishi , Guhan , Eugenia , Thana and Huz around .
damn gerek lah the detention tadik .
i talk alot with rishi .
so long never talk to him . the last time i talked to him was last year . HAH !
after detention , went to the shop and bought chips more . felt so hungry .
Huz sent me to the bus stop .
reached home , read my book , then sleep .


gosh , tmr ade POA again . what the furkkkkk .





" eh ! bile mau game siol ! asik2 ade prob jek . "

Zan , Nabil , Ffe , Mira , Mai , Efa .



Firstly , i'm sorry that this post with be in malay language mostly .
not tryna be racist luh .
sorry once again .




Alamak korang , smpai bile mau gini mcm seh ? aku ingat incident kat vivo tu dah sedarkan diri ktrng yang we can't afford to loose anyone .
isn't it ?
as for nabil , aku stilll trying to figure out how to solve it okay .
sal nabil korang tkya risau .
and please , i apologize for the accusation he made on you guys .
it's not korang nye fault but it was MY fault .
now, we've gotta concentrate on mai and zan nye kes okeh .
aku SAYANG korang smuer .
i bet you guys received ffe long msg today right .
i nearly cried with the words he said in the msg .
idk whether you guys feel the pain he's suffering .

GUYS ! WE HAVE NO TIME FOR ANYMORE CONFLICTS !

bear that in mind , tolong lah .

i will do anything just to save this friendship we're having .
please please please , we really have to work together .
bout ffe's request for his birthday , i'm sure we CAN do it !
WE WILL FULFILL HIS WISHES !
if we were to go on our separate ways like dulu , it's so wasted ..
after all the things we've gone through together as one .
we cry , we laugh , we have fun together .
i seriously don't wanna see us breaking apart .
nothing can buy the friendship we had .

lets solve this tgether with perseverance okey (:

had a chat with baby and he pleaded me to on my web cam .
naughty sak die bobal pat msn .
HAHAHAH !
you know i know .
perhaps , some may understand what the convo is about .
@#$%^&!

basically , all the question he ask me , i'll either nod or shake my head .
mcm bobal bisu gituk .
hahahah !
i like it when i can make faces when i on the webcam and let him see .
he'll get irritated , i tell you .
funny luh .

i bought chocolate chip cookies for myself to much while reading later at night .
with 2 boxes of soya milk drink .
oh my !
how delicious can that be !
i'm controlling myself not to munch the cookies before 10 pm .
too tempting . but still can control ;D


night time is gonna replace the afternoon in few mins time .
i love night time .
i love to look out the window in my room and look at the beautiful shining stars .
♥



anw , i miss baby !

Sup All ! ;D



It's finally saturday . mother's not working overtime today and that sucks a hell out of time .
she's watching ratatouille now .
i rang baby few mins a go .
he sound so moody lah . idk why .
hmmm .
ytd ffe rang me and he told me that efa have not reach home yet .
that time he rang me around 12 plus .

"EH MIRA , FFA LOM ALEK SIOL ! FROM 9.30 UNTIL NOW TAKKAN DIE LOM ALEK AGIK ? MANE DIE G SEH ?! "

he was super worried and he end up knowing efa reached home long time alr .
efa was busy watching Hindustan and was lazy to answer/reply calls/msgs .
si froggy niy eh uat org suspend jek !

so after we put down , i read the book i borrowed from the library .
i borrowed 4 thick books to occupy my time during the weekends .
(:

my voice has change since after i woke up at 9.35pm ytd .
and my throat is itchy .
i always feel very cold though the weather is hot .
):
currently chatting with baby and asyraf .
omfg lah ! he's posted to ite simei .
what if i go ite next year and posted to the same school as him ?!!
walande ! {pulls long face}
he took Chemical Process course .
how cool .
learning bout chemical and all . gerek siol .
but whatever .
hopefully i get promoted to sec 5 and go to poly instead .
make baby and family proud !
i'll try my best .
i really will .





anw , note to nicole : Thanks for the help eh , nicole (:




yeah , nicole helped me to change my detention date which i was supposed to go ytd .
but my stomach was cramp like hell and i didn't wanna go for detention .
so she changed the date for me .
actually i wanted to find ms fauziah and tell her i can't go .
but on the way there , nicole saw me and informed me that the date will be changed for me .
was glad luh of course .

a BIG THANK YOU to her .

beatty is such a nonsensical school man !
what the fuck lah .
mr singh made me sing the national anthem together with my classmate , melinda .
and he expect us to look at his FUCKNG ROTTEN face and sing .
i didn't look at him of course . i looked at other directions and gave him faces .
i kept on giggling coz he thinks he's so handsome that he wants me to concentrate on his face .

dah lah muke mcm kene spread nan taik anjing !

siak pey OM .
okay luh . i think i've posted enough .
supposed to go out with baby but couldn't coz mother not working + i'm sick .

sorry baby ♥

SUP PEOPLE ! ;D



i love today's lessons except for MATHS ! i find it so boring now . i mean , mdm soh is like so rushing through the 3B textbook just to finish is up quickly and i can't catch up .
like what the heck !
but still i try my best to catch up .
Had english essay test . i bet not all managed to finish their 3-4 points .
i managed to finish up at the very last minute . NASIB !

physics was fun . i enjoy my physiics lessons very much .
chem was the best ! learning bout Reactivity .
have to memorize all those long long equations .
While going down the stairs to go for mother tongue , saw baby at the second floor outside boys toilet .
he smiled , i smiled (:
we RARELY talk in school , i tell you . weird eh .
mother tongue was like usual , FUN ! ;D
then it was maths .
shan't elaborate more bout maths .
after , it was assembly for all Upper Secs .
assembly for upper secs , i can see baby very clearly .
we we kept on peeping at each other . ^,^
baby and ajan giler giler , sot sot skit time assembly . ajan pey ketawe skit pey "pelan" .
were dismissed at 1.30 plus .
baby went out first mcm org KIASU with ajan .
then at 2.20 like that met baby at bishan study corner .
i tell you , he was having funn IRRITATING me .
tkp , meeera penyabar (:
then we proceed to the void deck near the bishan bus stop .
slack for while .
at 5 pm i went off .
mcm biase , baby send me to the bus stop .



& home sweet home .






I couldn't hold my tears when we talk about what had happened recently . I tried not to cry but , i just can't hold it :'(
i just hope , the word "over" wouldn't be said again by me/you .
ily ♥

OH OH OH PEOPLE ! if you guys are just wondering how umai looks like , below there's a photo of her when she was at H.K (:


I know you guys will agree she looks super SWEEEEEEETTT ;D

Sup all ! ;D


changed my blogskin again . ahaha ! ok lah , quite satisfied though my cbox mcm siak .
i just love the background ♥
basically , i love today's lessons pretty much coz no POA ;D yeay !
fake. heh . actually coz today we have 2 periods of chem and i'm lovin it baybehh .
after chem was p.e . torturing seh , i tell you .
mr chan made us run 2 rounds . then do 20 push ups . then do 5 wide push ups . then do 5 narrow push ups . then do bridge for 1 min .
though its only for 1 min , don't think its easy okeh , people .
my body vibrated vigorously when i was doing the bridge .
my arms , back , chest , stomach aches alot ):
but its quite fun luh .
after p.e was physics .
i was supposed to go to ms lydia's class but i don't care , i went to mr amos goh class .
i'm so used to his standard of teaching though i didn't do really well for physics paper .
but i promise myself that i will pass every test coz thats his standard .
last year i never even once fail my test when i got in to his class .
only when it comes to exam , i get confused and i forgot everything and fail .
how sad is that man !

after , it was recess . mcm biase , eat , talk , go back class .
it was english by then .
i tend to get irritated with english lesson this few days .
coz of the topic we're learning . mcm siak tau tk !
"How will you make school a better place ?"
its an N level dicussion topic .
it seems so easy but haiyoh ! confusing !
tmr will be having essay test bout that topic . -.-
after english was maths .
i fell asleep while waiting for ms soh .
everyone was so tired after doing p.e . see lah mr chan's fault ! hahah !
maths couldn't concentrate well coz my whole body was weak and my brain was like as if it was taking a nap .
2 periods of maths and it was MT .
we sang at the last min of the period .
gerek giler ! memekak kat class . HAHAHAH !
yes MT was the last period of the day .. BUT ! we still got maths lsp .
@#$%^& !
so went up to our class and wait for ms soh again .
she said those who come at 2 will be dismissed at 3 and those who come at 2.30 will be dismissed at 3.30 .
so me , efa , ffe went up at 2 .
but the teacher wasn't there . rahhh !
she came like about 2.25 like that .
after finish lsp , talk with the people jap .
ade debate between zan and mai .
then went off to meet baby at bishan .
YES YES YES , I MADE HIM WAIT AGAIN !
SORRY baby .
when i came , i kissed him on the cheeks as greeting and he went bad mood and hardened his body .
i was tired and he reacted like that . so i got my happy mood to be a bad one .
we were late to fetch umai .
but because of our fast pace , we managed to reach there on time .


I GOT TO HOLD HANDS WITH UMAI ! ;DDDDDD

yes , i was happy ! hahahahhaha !
this time round we didn't ring her to the shop . next time okeh .
then she said her sweet goodbye and baby kissed goodbye to me .







& home sweet home (:

HELLO PEOPLE ! ;D

today very the streesssss . why ? coz we had to rush rush and study last minute for the fucking poa test at 2 o'clock .
wahhh ! damn fucking rushing lah sial ! otak nk pecah !
i don't like poa lessons !
:@

actually no lah , i love poa lesson you know .
it's just that the way she conduct the class is so damn boring lah .
i always get sleepy after 45 mins of poa lessons , i tell you .
i tried not to get sleepy but i just can't . ):
but for other subs , esp malay and live lessons , 'm totally FRESH giler !
i love live lessons today !
all the odd register numbers were to follow mrs tanny ho and the evens follow mrs santhi .
luckily i was the odd one !
so i was with tanny .
raffe actually had no damn mood and was so sleepy . but when the live lessons starts , he was laughing like hell !
mcm die amek laughing gas gituk . he suddenly went giler i tell you .
Vincent got bullied .
HAHAHAHAH ! seriously damn funny lah !
Darling Ho ( students who went for the viet trip called tanny ho that ) sang us song as we played lily pad game .
very fun .
4 ppl in one sheet of news paper .
then when Darling Ho start to sing , we have to move around and when she stop , we have to go to any newspaper available .
i was lucky , i always got a place ;D
there's one part i nearly had no place and i saw hamizan and ffe was on one paper . so i rush to them .
i nearly fell but i didn't .
during the game , someone pushed me so hard i nearly flew off .
someone pushed delano and delano pushed me .
impact skit pey kuat !
my right shoulder hurts alot . but nvm .
this is the first time i had so much fun with the class this year (:

4N2 ♥

didn't meet baby afer school today. he's stomach cramp .
so after poa , went mam with zan and ffe .
i blanja them ice cream .
then ffe plak blanja ice cream .
then 3.45 plus like that we made a move .
took 159 home as usual .

& home sweet home (:

i had this convo with baby . it reminds me bout the sweet past before i was with him .
this second post is jsut a shrt post .
new skin .
but cbox mcm cocked up gituk .
sheeeessshhh .
i still needa hang baju .
needa iron somemore .
tmr school starts at 8.40 . how gerek but confirm sit kat parade square panas giler babs nye !
and then from there , nnty my hair lei nmpk colour .
i didn't dye my hair black .
i just let my hair stay as the colour now .
from red tros jadi dark blonde .
it turns very bright under sunlight . harap2 tk kene tangkap .
thats the reason why i like to sit behind .
heh !


kay lah . i;ve been on the comp for more than 5 hours siol .




ciao !

Korang still rmb tk that gmbar we took ? the moments we had ?
hai .
i don't want because of what had happened recently , affect our friendship .




to mai : dah luh , i know kau mrh kat die but perhaps it wasn't his fault but my fault . i didn't balance myself with you guys and nabil . i'll try to solve things out before we sit for our N's peacefully alright .
i know he shouldn't blame you guys for nthg .
and he shouldn't not cared bout you coz you were the one who helped out with everything .
you're the one who gave him advise bout me and etc .
don't worry , we;ll sort things out and hopefully you guys pey friendship tk hancur .
i can't bear to see that ..
pls ..



to ffe : don't always think negatively that each time he pulls a long face like how he did during the escape , he is angry with you . No , he's not .
so don't needa worry much okay .



to zan : idk whether you're changing for the better or what but i hope you won't repeat the history .
Nabil is not seriously mad at you .
he's just disappointed i guess .
just pls don't do it again for goodness sake ..
we've got no time to have conflicts this year ..

It's Saturday and i' lefft alone at home .
will be going to mak abah's house later with mother . haiyah .
i had a very disturbing night ytd .
i kept on waking up from my sleep . idk why .
baby called me ytd night.
i think its been ages since we last talked on the phone ? uhm ..
well , our convo went smoothly .
i'm glad , i should say ...
sigh .

short post eh nari . so boring lah .
just finish chatting with ayiid santos few mins ago .
thanks yeah , ayiid (:
things'll get better from time to time yeah .







♥Muhammad Nabil Bin Jailani

many thanks to ajan . thanks for the good lecture .
as what nabil wrote at his pm , 'slowly but surely .' .
thanks eh , ajan .

well , perhaps most of you people know we patched back on the very same day ..
and i'm trying to forget what he said to me ..
i still have those msgs ..
i always have the urge to read it over and over again till i cry with no tears left for the night ..
i know i have to start afresh ..
i have to .
die die must forget those words .
baby if you're reading this , get this in ya mind too . :


i seriously don't intend to say all those words to you .
i was just so hurt and angry with you that my mind went haywire .
i love you , and i really do .
i know i've said those things for the second time but i seriously didn't mean it .
i cried all night till i couldn't cry anymore that night .
those tears were for you .
i'm glad we together again now .
and i hope history won't repeat itself again .
i don't wish to encounter this kinda situation again . it's damn hurting .
god knows how i feel .
you can say you're much more hurt than me but sigh .. god knows my heart the best .
hopefully things'll get better from time to time .
slowly but surely , as you said .
perhaps our love is just too strong and we don't wish to leave one another .
and bout my friends, they're not at fault okay .
i'm not siding them nor you . but i'm just saying the truth that i was the one at fault . not them .
i chose to be with them .
i learnt from my mistakes .
sigh .
well , it's a new beginning and hopefully it'll last this time .
ily , Muhammad Nabil Bin Jailani ♥

all just memories now ..
ily & imy always .
tc ..





everything has ended . i really meant everything ... all the times we had together , all over .

no more Nabil & Meeera alr ..

he even put his blog to private . so yeah , i wasn't invited ..
nvm , meeera phm .
he's hurt and so do i .
but i never thought things would go out this way .. i seriosly didn't intend to do it .
i know its our second time having to bear this kinda situation .
but the way he fought back was so hurting ..
it was so diferent from how he fought back the ffirst time we had this kinda situation .
nvm luhh .
sabar jek luh ..




i'm so down ..

so basically , i just reached home . ;DDD
i really had fun .
met ffe , fa ,zan around 5 plus at 77th street . with my mom .
then we separated from my mum and went hunting for mai's bdae present and cake .
we bought cake first . then present .
i tell you , nk cari the present pey kecohhhhhh !
"amek mickey niy mai suke mickey kan . " "amek eeyore niy ! die cute ! " "amek tigger niy ! mai suke tigger !! "
haiyoh , rabak siolzszzs .
then we moved off from amk hub to mai's house at around 6plus . reached there at 7 .
then we go bwh block smoke first .
then stuffed the eeeyore in zan's hoodie .
then ffe got an idea . he said he's gonna prank mai that me and efa last min cnnt make it .
so mai was damnly down luh .
then ktrng pey smangat , we run run to her house .
then me and efa crawled to the door .
then we squatted infront of her door .
when she open the door , all of us shout " HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAI !!! "
zomg ! she cried !
then we went in , she hugged me and cried .
of course , i started tearing too .
then all of us hugged together . mcm one big family .
then the celebration goes on .
we threw water baloons at her , we spread cream on her face , ffe poured curry sauce on her hair , ffe stuff shilli sauce in one of her ear , her brother threw egg at her , etc !
hahahahha ! very funny .
and there's one part where mai started to spread cream on efa and there we go .. they started spreading cream on each other .
i hid under the table and zan pauto yang i was under the table .
so i kena attack . i was having my lens on and they "tenyeh" cream on my face .
how great !
then me ,efa , ffe went in the toilet to wash our faces .
while ffe was washing his hair , i was nasty and i turned on the shower and made him wet .
HUAHUAHUAHUA !
then we got tired and decided to take fresh air outside at the staircase .
me , ffe , mai had a talk bout what happened .
then they like mcm cheer me up luh
i nearly teared .
then efa and zan joined .
talked again .
i tried my best to hold my tears .
they all gave me a bug hug tgether .
seriously , its damn touchy .
then we went in as ffe wanna go to the loo .
then mai say she wanna pur water on ffe .
so i join in lor .
i toook a small cup when mai tooko a blender and filled in with water .
when ffe dah bukak pintu , "SPLASH !"
ffe basah !
then ffe blasa dendam .
ffe amek the blender and chase us outside .
lucky me , zan and mai got to escape .
efa kene terok .
hahaha . but at last i kena jugak .
I WAS THE WORST ! THE WORST ! kene simbah countless times !
beh kene cream agik !
baek kape .
hahaha .
then i had to make a move as fatehr wants me to meet him at ntuc .
so i went first while the rest stayed .
but ffe , zan , fa sent me to the bus stop .
when the bus came , i said thank you to them all for today ...


"THANK YOU GUYS . I REALLY APPRECIATE IT (:"

HELLO PRETTY HEADS / HANDSOME-HEADS !



today's mai bdae . i'm at her house now .
my gosh , we;re having a blast .
i think she bathed for more than 4 times coz of our sabos .
my whole face was spread with cream .
how great !


i gtg . we have more to sabo !
pichas will be uploaded soon !

Kak Haizan(bro's gf) & Me (:






So HELLLLLLOOOO SWEEETHEARTS ! ;D



i so called had "fun" ytd . since kak aizan brought her nephew along .
i don't wanna elaborate more bout ytd .

today in school , we had at least 5 assembly talks in the morning from 7.45 to 9 .
"gerek" kape !
obviously it was so fucking bored uh and my legs were so numb .
i can't sit still . so does everyone .
i purposely came late to school coz i don't wanna sit infront . kental seh .
hahahahah !


i decided to delete what i wrote after the 2nd paragraph . of course , i felt bad .
(:







Happy 8 Months Anni , Muhammad Nabil (:
ILY ♥

OH HELLO READERS ! ;D

kay , today will be sending brother off to changi airport Terminal 1 .
he'll be flying off to bangkok .
i'll miss him of course though i said to him " it's sooooo nice when you're not around . so noone will fight for the comp ;D "
obviously i don't mean that lah .
he'll be away for 3 weeks okay . then after that go taiwan .
he'll finish his overseas trip in 2010 .
by then i'm alr in sec 5 or ite siolzszszzs .
cannot spend much time with him luh like that .
So he asked me what i want from thailand .
told him i want 2 fucking bags from there . Nice ones of course .
ketok duit die rabak tol aku niyh ;D
but sadly he can't buy much of chewing gums for some reason . kay nvm luh .
will be leaving home at 5 .
brother left earlier to meet his friend somewhere .
kak haizan (his gf) will be with us at the airport ^,^
at least there's someone whom i can talk to luh .

idk why but i can't wait for school on monday ! i know its crazy uh but i just can't wait !
baby dah BOTAK . wahahahahhahhaha !
but its very cute luh .
he sent me a multimedia msg of his picture .
my brother saw it and he laughed .
i admit i laughed tooo . ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MONDAY IS MY BIG DAY WITH BABY !
8 MONTHS ANNI !
YEAY !
;D

god bless us (:






HAPPY 8 MONTHS , BABY . i love you always (:

before

AFTER





spot the diffs ? terok right ? i know ..
i woke up in the morn and this is what made me nearly drop on the floor .
so swollen gituk .
the pain is much more unbearable .
:C
today's plan was to go mak and abah's house to pay a visit .
but tgok lah my eye ...
how to visit like that .
confirm they'll say " nape sakit2 masih nk visit .. dok uma jek luhh .. "
so i've not yet to ring my mum to tell her i can't go .
but brother will still go pay a visit since tmr he's going thailand alr .
hmm.

hope he'lll have a safe trip to and fro . all the best , bro :D

Wwwwweeeelllll , as ya know , today was the first day of school .
and i tell you , it was sucha waste of time going and fuck !
the assembly sitting arrangement was STUPPID !
we had to sit in a single row .
wtf .
and yeah , met the people in the morning .
went up to zan's house to wait for ffa and baby .
baby look awesomely nice today .
i'm serious .
he looks so smart .
;D
then as i've said , we had our usual stupid boring briefing .
ended around 8.50 like that .
then my class was on the 4th level .
Graduating class pey level luh katekan . heheheheh !
end of the year lei kurus siol gitu mcm .
settled down in class and suddenly tanny hoe came in our class .
i was like " oh oh , don't tell me she's our form teacher man ! "
sencond thought was that she was on charge for my class for spot check .
but hah ! we had a huge surprise then .
she is our CO-FORM TEACHER .
how 'lucky' my class is to have her (:
and first i was like " walao , mati lah like this . "
but in the end , i started to like her as my co-form .
my skirt IS short though i wear it hipster .
so she was being so nice .
she checked my attire and all .
the skirt part i was a lil shaky coz i don't want to be booked .
first she said i'm booked for skirt .
then she lifted my blouse and i she saw that i was wearing hipster .
so she measured again and she said my skirt is okay .
my heart was like soooo relief ah .
she's nice luh . but she's fierce mcm harimau .
heh .
after school went up to zan's house take puffs .
ask baby to come but he don't want .
around 3.30 , everyone made a move .
the 5 of us really had a great talk luh .

Monday is my 8th month with baby ;D yeay !
and monday , lessons starts -.-
wish me luck for this year ehhh (:









idk why but i feel that you're keeping some feelings from me . 8 months is coming and i don't wanna it be sour . but if you still refuse to let me know what you 're hiding , then i can't say anything luh right ... the way you msg me now is so different .. why ? ..

oh well , i had a 'tembel' . not sure how to pronounce it in english .
my eyes felt so hot , so painful , so itchy .



idk what's wrong lah with baby . tibe2 nk prangai . on the new year plak tu die uat prangai .
i asked him " eh u tk online ? "
he replied " tak . malas . penat . "
kay he reply like that tkp .
since i felt somthing is not right , i asked him " asal niy bie ? .. "
he replied " ltr u msg me , i nk rest "
wah , he's never like his before taoooo . ape entah msok sampai die cm gini .
padehal aru ckp sorry on new year's eve . beh prangai gini mcm .
yes i know i replied your latest msg lmbat . it's bcoz i was asleep . my eyes was killing me so i took a nap .
tak caye i'm sick ? the gmbar is the proof okay .
sigh ..



anw , ytd i didn't feel hyper at all duing the countdown show .
i didn't even smile when it striked midnight .
instead , i cried .
2008 has been a memorable year for me and my friends .
had a talk with ffe and mai ytd night .
i told them luh , " no matter what happens or how bad the conflict is , we must stay strong and make sure it doesn't affect our friendship .. "
i'm trying to reconcile back with zan .
i was thinking bout talking with him privately tmr and ask for his explanations .
see how luh .
tmr sch alr , -.-
hopefully the newbies(sec 1's) are nice and cute this year ;D