many thanks to ajan . thanks for the good lecture .
as what nabil wrote at his pm , 'slowly but surely .' .
thanks eh , ajan .

well , perhaps most of you people know we patched back on the very same day ..
and i'm trying to forget what he said to me ..
i still have those msgs ..
i always have the urge to read it over and over again till i cry with no tears left for the night ..
i know i have to start afresh ..
i have to .
die die must forget those words .
baby if you're reading this , get this in ya mind too . :


i seriously don't intend to say all those words to you .
i was just so hurt and angry with you that my mind went haywire .
i love you , and i really do .
i know i've said those things for the second time but i seriously didn't mean it .
i cried all night till i couldn't cry anymore that night .
those tears were for you .
i'm glad we together again now .
and i hope history won't repeat itself again .
i don't wish to encounter this kinda situation again . it's damn hurting .
god knows how i feel .
you can say you're much more hurt than me but sigh .. god knows my heart the best .
hopefully things'll get better from time to time .
slowly but surely , as you said .
perhaps our love is just too strong and we don't wish to leave one another .
and bout my friends, they're not at fault okay .
i'm not siding them nor you . but i'm just saying the truth that i was the one at fault . not them .
i chose to be with them .
i learnt from my mistakes .
sigh .
well , it's a new beginning and hopefully it'll last this time .
ily , Muhammad Nabil Bin Jailani ♥