well , i've finally cut my hair .
my head feels so much lighter now . if wondering why . coz i have super thick hair .
so i cut my hair today together with mother .
i'm satisfied with my hair . only that i don't have any long ponytails to sch anymore coz the hairdresser layered my hair .
mother say i look different .
i love it lah .


today is monday and there's little subject .
maths , eng , malay and poa .
poa was fun , i tell you .
i was so attentive and paticipative .
then si cbong tu kasik alasan pening kepale andd he took a nap .
and there was one part when i was doing my work , he suddenly terjerk kat table .
HAHAHAHHA !
funny sial !
i asked him what happened . and he said die mimpi kene langgar krete !
but its trua ya'll know . when you sleep in class and have those kinda drems such as ; fall down the stairs , kene pukol , kene langgar , etc , you'll somehow jerk from your table .
tapi niy cbong jerk kelakar lah !

tmr there'll be physics test and poa test . budoh .
=.=
stresss sial . test tk abes2 . bila mauuu stoppppp ?????!!
someone's birthday is coming and we're planning well for it .
i hope he realise and change his attitude towards the rest .
hopefully .
god bless you and

HAPPY ADVANCED 16TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! ;D

me and you have been through equally as a friend since sec 2 .
i know you well .
{:

wednesday will be going to penni to buy die pey present .
i ask him to promise me to wear it whenever he's out with us .
and he promised .
aku ingat eh janji kau .

all the best to me for my test tmr ! ;D





GOOD NIGHT , SWEEET DREAMS PEOPLE ! {L}








buah hatiku , Muhammad Nabil ♥

he's back finally . it was ytd , actually .
i was at arab street with my mum and her two friends when he msged me that he's alr in s'pore .
you wouldn't know how fucking delighted i was .
somehow i felt like screaming out loud . hahaha !
so , ytd at 10 plus i went out and headed to bugis with my mum and waited for cik zai at bugis mrt inter .
she came and we proceed to raffles hospital nye banquet to have our late breakfast .
i ate grilled dory with rice .
i swear it makes my perot damn senak till i don't wanna eat till 9 pm .
so we walk kat arab street .
went kampong glam .
i can say i really like going to kampong glam .
lots of traditional stuffs which i'm actualy interested in .
then around 3 plus gituk , we headed to zam zam to rest .
they eat but i didn't / my stomach was still full of the grilled dory .
around 3 plus to 4 , we made a move to golden landmark .
the mothers beli baju kat sane . the salesperson was so friendly that i felt so comfortable in their shop .
after , we went to bugis junction .
shopping kat sane and took taxi to penni .
mother bought me a new sling bag since she said my crumpler can't put much things .
i admit my crumpler is small .
limited edition , limited space . mcm siak .
so she bought me this bag which is 3 times much more spacious than my crumpler .
gerek dok kene bahasekan dari mak .
hahahahah !
but okay luh . nice jugak luh .
alah , aslkan lei letak bnyk barang sua .
then me and mom have to go leaving cik zai and kak manisah at penni coz we had to rush down to kk hospital .
2 of my aunts were admitted but when we reached there , my cousin told me one of my aunt dah discharged earlier in the afternoon .
so left only 1 in the hospital .
left the ward around 8 plus going to 9 .
then headed to macd to have my dinner .
ate mc spicy , cm biase and a cup of sweet corn .
took taxi home since both of us were dead tired .
brother cam home ytd night . menyebok !

today , clean up the house and maybe i go teman ffe to bishan first than go meet baby .
i wanna see him asap !
;D




1 more week to 11 months ! ;DDDDDD
ily {L}

kay my blog is nuts .
i didn't managed to view my blog since ytd night at about 11 plus like that .
now than okay .

today was the skill workshop day .
its opposite of what i thought it'll be .
as i've said in the previous post , i thought it'll be darn boring but it was the opposite .
*thumbs up !*
my class got 2 wonderful coaches who was with us throughout the 4 1/2 hours .
they were Coach Chris & Emma .
Emma likes to aim on raffe and she keep on walking beside us looking what we're doing .
but there were time i felt sleepy too .
had recess at 10 .
ate and went back to class to continue the course .
it finished before 12.30 coz we're much more faster than the rest .
the sec 2's are back from camp and now we're just waiting for the sec 3's to return .
i'm seriously happy that baby's coming home tmr .

"baby , have a pleasant and safe journey home ! ;D "

tmr maybe i'm going penny with mother .
shop shop .
and yes , i'm cutting my hair !
i'll prolly cut my fringe like the one below .



i'm getting so irritated with my long fringe which i've kept since May 22 2008 .
okay luh , i've got mothing much to say bout today .
just a usual day without baby .







" it seems diffrerent when you're not around . "

{edit}
anw , i've just reached home a couple of minutes ago .
after school , we slacked at braddell mac to eat hot fudge sundae .
argh , sedapnyeeee .
its so indulging . *lick lips*
then around 2 plus going to three , we decided to go home . but ffe left first before us .
so the girl walked to apple house sane .
on the way , we saw 2 police cars and a tent nearby the dragon .
fucck , somebody committed suicide i supposed .
rmai aunnty pat bwh block dgn muke terkejot .
i walked past the tent and i saw the body .
i swear i feel like fainting after seeing the body tho its alr covered with white plastic .
but tkp , we continue our walk to the apple house .
i missed my bus and mai boarded her bus sooner after i missed my bus .
then efa tean me till my bus came .
my eyes felt soooo damn fucking sleeepy so i slept for while in the bus .
i was way tooo tired .
&& i'm such a good girl today .
in school , i tucked in my shirt , pinned up my fringe , push up my tie and didn't even took out my tie after school .
good girl lah kan . HAHAHHA!
tmr is friday and i have workshop to attend in school .
i know its gonna be boring =.=
but what to do . somemore need to pay 22 bucks just for that bloody 4 1/2 hours workshop .
after tmr will be saturday and will be impantiently waiting for baby's return ;DD
i really swear i missed him alot .
every night , i hugged the bear he gave me on our 1st monthsary .
my favourite among all .
she's sso soft and cuddly . i hugged her at night so it'll be as if i'm hugging baby . HAHA !

i pray you have a safe journey home baby .. {:


I LOVE YOU{L} !

i bet he's alr at malaysia now having fun i guess .
things were so different today .
i sacrificed my sleep to get his msgs and to reply him .
but in the end , i received only a few .
not the same as when he went hong kong .
it's so driving me crazy trying to figure out what is actually in his mind , ya'll know .
the only msg he send me was , " b , i'm alr going to school taw . " , " b , take care taw . ilove you . jgn nottyy2 . " and " i dah nk kat smpai 2nd link " .
thats all you know ..
i send him this one long msg , die tk rreply .
wah , sedih giler sial ..
i don't wish to think negatively but the way you are now makes me think even worse .
sigh .

Woke up around 9 plus . itu pun coz ade org kacau my sleep .
an unknown number msged and called me .
but at last i got to find out the person was my old friend .
"pandai eh . skrng aru nk carik mira . tsk ! smack aru tawu !"
then actually nk jumpe coz dah lame tk nmpk .
sroh die tron amk tapi die tknk .
then i say lain hari uh jumpe coz i malas to go out anywhere .
tkd moooood nk kluar .

today there's no school coz the little sec 2 juniors and sec 3 ade camp .
so the school tutop for the rest of the levels .
i miss camps ..
seriously .. sec 4 mcm tkd fun sial . peh boring , tk bley angszs .
those yang sec 1, 2 , 3 boleh uh ckp yang sec 4 niy gerek or whatsoever .
but wait till you reach the level than you know whats the feeling .
4 more months to my N level prelims .
*dead*
5 weeks plus till i go m'sia . yes , i can't wait for it .
oh and yeah , my relatives from m;sia didnt managed to get the resort we wanted for family day .
so my dad rang them and suggest cameron highlands .
and they all agreed . so family day 09 is still on .
dah lame tk jumpe anak sedare and sedare smuer .
gonna brangkat on thurs night and will vvvvvroooooooooom to kuala lumpur .
then shhhhhoooooo to cameron higlands.
jadi jgn tk jadi !
lau tk jadi confirm sot punye .
perhaps , i chose the right choice for me and the rest .
as for me , i know the place is relaxing and romantic and cold .
maybe , thats where i can find some peace and to relax my mind from anything .
and fyi , i'm oing when 'm having my bloooody damn mid year exam .
gerek pe sia .
but idc , i'll enjoy gile babs there . haha .

ffe , me and mai actually plan to go swmming together actually .
but things got cocked up coz got heavy flow .
and my stomach is killing me .
next time yer .

aku belom mandi niy . jap lagik nk mandi then do homework at ace-learning .
leceehh bodoh .
kay lah , have a nice day people .







" is it you or is it me ? "

i jut feel so different ..
my thinkings are worse than the time he went h.k ..
aku mmg tknk pikir buruk tapi .. :|
tah lah yer ?
all ican do is just wait .
baby will be calling me tonight . die kate nk ton tapi tah lah yer .
:'{








i love you , baby .

4 blooddy fucking days . 4 days tawu ! :@
i had to wait .
wait and wait again for his return .
time hols jumpe skali .
monday tueday jumpe tapi tk lame .
its like considered cume 2 hari je jumpe and tomorrow he's leaving , and i have to wait another 4 more bloody days so as to meet him again .
what the fuck shit okay .
that sucks pretty much .
but nvm lah , i will try to bersabar ..
if i can ..
when he comes back from perak , i go cameron .
ape siaaaaaa ... :(
suay bodoh . tk suke very much .
i wonder how i could handle the feeling when baby was away to hong kong eh ?
*think*
i actually need a long kiss from baby , a long hug , a long time to cuddle with each other and to be together for some time . that can make me handle those unbearable feelings which i will have when he's away .
but sadly , i didn't have all that .
smuer short . time sengket .
hhhhaaaaiii ... :'(
but i promise i will spend more time than what me and baby had today before i go cameron coz i'll be back sooner to our 11th monthsary .
lau boleh , mau ajak die siol g cameron skali !!
boleh tgok muke cute die depan mate aku hari2 .
tapi for sure tkkn jelak one .
coz , i love him truly (:








" B , don't get into trouble kay when you're there ? promise me .
i won't say don't be naughty coz i know you will .
you know my likes and dislikes so i hope you don't do what i dislike .
Please don't forget me coz i won't forget you ..
i'll miss you .. :(
take care alright pat sane ..
i'll be here waiting for your return ..
Selamat pergi , slamat pulang kay sayang ..
i love you .. {L} "

Term 2 has started . Monday was pretty .... awesome for me ?
i mean , in school .
i had a reeeeeaaaalllllyyyyy great time with my peeps today .
i went nuts during lessons .
hecking care all the heartpains , sadness that i have .
replaced it with a huge smile and laughters .
crack jokes though its it sometimes stupid .
just to make myself forget what i am feeling .

surprisingly , i enjoyed poa lesson today . i had to keep that Hippo awake during poa as he was sleepy .
bile aku attentive , die tk . camne nie ? pelik ah lu , hippo .
after school , went library to borrow books .
after that g belik air blueberry tea kat canteen and headed out .
ask him whether he wants to meet or not and he said anything .
my mood turned sour again for idk what the reason is , i swear .
i had to walk to bishan study corner . the most unfavourable thing is that i had to take the overhead bridge .
that can make me lelah for sure .
then nmpk die with jufri .
muke masam nmpk dorang =.=
then jufri tanye where is mai and i answer him mcm kurang ajar gituk luh .
sorry eh juff . tkd mood lah bebbbb .
then juffri went off and he walked beside me .
muke still masam .
in the end we still go to bishan playground , mcm biase .
we didn't ttalk like about 1/2 hr ? i think .
i kept on crashing and pressing the empty blueberry tea bottle to control my anger .
but in the end , tu blooody boy g uat klakar . he go disturb me and there i was laughing .
then time balek plak die g spoil agik my mood .
he mintak kiss , i never give . dah geram sgt .
i went home myself . i went to the bus stop myself . he tk hantar .
nvm , tk hantar pun tkp . tk pasal lahhhhh .
ingat i manje sgt per sroh org antar stakat g bus stop .
went home , surprised to see brother at home .
then mother plak alek . then we discussed where to go if family day 09 tk jadi .
eventhough is family day tk jadi , my family still going for holiday .
3 places we actually planned to go .
Cameron Highlands , Genting Highlands and Sunway Lagoon .
gerek kan . haha !
itu pun lau family day tk jadi lah .
but if lau tk jadi , HAPPY HAPPY !
boleh g tige3 tempat tu ;D

2 more days and he'll be away for his camp ..
aiyah ..
saturday aru die alek s'pore ..
i will try not to be naughty when you're away kay ?
take care when you're there , slenge !






anw , this picture is dedicated to RAFFE .
HAHAHAH !







GOOD NIGHT , LOVES !






& yeah , to all those who had been there for me , thanks for your great concern .
A big thank you to you guys .
{L} !

ade matae cam tkd sial . msg pun tk , ape pun tk .
i'm like so fucking fed up with whats happening and i seriously had enough , ya'll know .
how am i ? didn't you even bother to ask ?
where were you when you know i'm so fucking down ?
why weren't you there but instead , my friends and even strangers are even more concern .
ape nie ? ..
sigh ..


nak kluar nari pun tkd smangat . cam buang mase je kluar .
smuer dgn hal2 sendiri .
tmr schol reopens . but will still be reporting at 8.30 am .
i'm not going for any moving mondays' .
ffe , mai and efa have to report early to school since tu tige badot nk g cca .
surprisingly of course to hear ffe tibe2 nk g ncc eh ! HUAHUAHUA !
i still considering whether i should at least go for ncd .
monday morning tk tawu luh nak meet matae aku ke tidak .
nnty muke satu2 masam .
lagy2 skrng dah tengah perang .
gerek gituk =.=
suke hati kau lahhhhhh .




i'm off .






" kite dua dah drifting apart . jgn smpai kite dua tros terpisah . you want that ? "

i miss that blooody boy so much .
nak die skrng laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !
*cries*

3rd post for the day . well , that really shows how fucking bored i am .
baby didn't even msg me at all .
i don't even know his where abouts .
haiyah .
i miss that bloody boy so much .
:{
*cries*

text me soon kay , bloody .
imy .
ily .


tmr is sunday . sigh . matae SEBOK . kawan ade hal sendiri . family malas nk kluar .
mendak eh ? tahu takpe sia .
pe nk uat .
monday i don't think i can meet him for long . i needa go home early .
i just have to bear with his absence .
i needa go wild as not to be hurt .
i feel like drinking . i feel like going outta my mind . seriously .
i know he told me not to drink anymore since after that day .
but nw , i feel so fucked up man .

:{

the rain makes my day even more sour .
to that person : sorry i couldn't make it today . but anw , thanks for asking me whether i need an accompany . you're concern is highly appreciated .
i'm supposed to go to the beach with my friend . but my head was spinning like hell and its raining .
so i think i wanna cancel the plan to go to the beach .
i've msged her alr saying sorry that i couldn't make it today .
i feel a lil bit cooled after talking somethings out with my friend .
at least , there's someone who is there for me .
i cried while expressing out my whole feelings .
i was so emotional , i tell you . i can hardly control the tears from flowing down my cheeks .
at night after i went offline , i smoked 5 sticks in less then 10 minutes .
that really shows how tense and frustrated i am .
just couldn't control .
after finish smoking , i tried to relaxed myself by playing my psp .
and believe it or not , i just feel like trashing/throwing my psp on the wall i tell you .
the anger in me makes me think so wild .
i hate that .
it sucks .
i tred to control my anger , so i switch off my psp and just stare at my ceiling .
it felt so quiet . no sound at all .
i on some songs and tried to sing along .
but it seems everything is so not right for me .
i even forgot all the lyrics of my fav song . isn't that so frustrating ? it is okay .
i didn't get to sleep till late morning .
i slept around 4 going to 5 ..
i talked to my friend on the phone till 4 . but i didn't sleep after that .
in the morn , he didn't even msged me saying " sorry i've nt been a man of his words . " or either at least , " hey , i'm really sorry i can't call you for the last two days or so . "
but nah , i didn't even receive any of it .
how grreat .

but haha , you know , aku tak kesah niy smuer luh kan .
org nk sakitkan hati aku , suke hati lah eh .
aku kuat ssgt untuk go through bende niy very often .
mira strong luh kan -.-
buat lah .
tak pasal .
ttp rase kasih sayang tu akan ade di hati .






Muhammad Nabil Bin Jailani , kau always dlm hati aku kay , baby .

I slept quite fucking late last night .
msg2 baby and he didn't reply me half way through .
most probably he was asleep .
i am like officially his personal alarm clock now eh . i woke him up for the past 2 days .
today i woke him up at 6 am in the morning with my eyes still close . but i still managed to wake him up .
i slept back peacefully after waking him up and woke up around 11 plus and i received a msg from baby .
i was still feeling quite sleepy actually at that point of time . like what do you expect seh . i slept around 3 plus going to 4 siol .
i don't know why i couldn't sleep ytd night and i played my psp all the way .
so i slept back for a little while more and i finally woke up , feeling fresh at around 12 plus .
bathed , ate breakfast cum lunch . makan nutella and bread ;D
then eat pringles while waiting for brother to go for friday prayers .
brother said to meet him at the psp shop next to banquet at 2 .
so i played the comp to fill up my time .
listened to songs , charged my psp for while then around 1.50 like that i made my way out and headed to the psp shop .
we bought games .
i bought Avatar game since baby wanted that game so much . why not i give the game a try on my own right ? {:
we downloaded Avatar , Silent Hill , Swat and Brothers in Arms Days .
smuer game ade bunuh2 . hahahahah !
esp silent hill , damn violent i tell you .
but quite fun though . i admit i love violent games . it just gives me a kick .
i've just finish sending baby his Avatar game .
he better thank me ! ;D

brother is out again and i'm waiting for mother's return from tampines .
tmr i wanna go sentosa but feeling quite lazy to go out eh .
see how luh .




Have a nice day ahead , people ! ;D

HELLO READERS !




at last mai and ffe turon to support me .
sad luh baby didn't even attend any of my competition .
but i have to understand that he has to fetch nyai from hospital coz today nyai discharged .
alhamdulillah ..
so i had to report at funan by 12 . but my game starts at 12.30 .
register in first . then lek2 pat mac jap .
after then my game starts .
believe it or not , was the one and only and last secondary school in the competition .
gerek kapeeee . hahahaha !
so i was the youngest and i had to compete with 2 polytechnic students .
i like competing with my opponent from ngee ann poly . he;s very friendly .
his face reminds me of kuncheng though . hahaha !
he defeated me . so i was in the 4th position at last .
then go toilet , change baju . off to lau pa sat again .
i ate meat ball soup noodle . TAPI ! the meat ball basi !
nabeyh cibai sial ! nasib mee aku da lesapkan .
lau belom , at least boleh refund/tukar .
dah bes mkn noodle , kite tk beli air . kite beli ice kacang/ice jelly cocktail .
my all time fav is of coz , ice jelly cocktail ;D
then kite jalan g raffles mrt , smoke2 .
then go home ;D






though i got the 4th placing , i'm still proud that i could still make it to this far {:
what you expect , i'm like competing with giants and i;m the dwarfs .
hahaha !
nice playing with you guys .
my opponents are from ; Temasek Poly , Nanyang Poly & Ngee Ann Poly .
my brother will laugh his ass off if he knows i loose to his school .
fuck ah . hahah !




okay lah , wanna go have my dinner !



GOOD NIGHT ! ;D

see my name there ? ;D woooohhooo !






HELLO READERS !



today i had the quater finals match . huhu , I WON to a LITTLE SEC 1 BOY who cried after the match !
what the fuck ? hahaha .
tu lah , kerek nan aku kan time first 3 games . padan muke kauuu !
you know he won me 3 games out of 5 whereas i won 2 .
then after that i lost count of how many winnings i had and tibe2 the facilitator said i'm in the lead of 4-3 .
i was shocked ! hahaha . then i wrongly heard the facilitator saying host to loose .
so i thought i lost and i sadly get up from my seat and the facilitator asked me " where you going ? "
then i say uh " you say i loose what . "
he replied , " no lah ! you're leading lei . what i said was , you host the game . "
i was so paiseh lah .
beattyians was behind me supporting me . thank you , people .
so i get back to my seat and i saw the boy crying !
i was like , " eh , why he cry ? "
the facilatator wanted to answer but didnt finish up his sentence . so he ask me to continue hosting the game .
so i host lor . but i kept on laughing and looking at the facilatator . HE LAUGHED TOOO OKAY !
hahahahah ! kekek lah .
then i think the boy pleaded for another round so i was like " okay go ! "
at last , he lost . i won .
so , i'll be ahving my semi finals . and if i win again , continue to finals !
huhu , happy giler .
tapi kesian and geram lah gak nan budak kecik tuu .
he gave me an evil smirk when he was on the lead . nabeyh .
like looking down on me just because imma girl .
buto , don't underestimate lah sial !
then finish somewhere around night time .
makan at lau pa sat with them .
eat alr , walk to raffles mrt there . smoke first then trained back home .
reach home , bathed and onlined .
chat with baby for a while only ... haiyah .
i sense smthg is so wwrong luh but tak luh ape .


okay luh , i'm tired . tmr is the last day of the event .
GOOD LUCK TO ME OKAY PEOPLE !





GOOD NIGHT !

taken at raffles place area .


HELLO , READERS !



i just came back from my interschool competition .
guess what ?! i managed to go into the quater finals .
i nearly gave up when i lost 2 times .
but my classmates & school mates ssupported me .
with that support , i managed to win 5 times straight and that makde me qualify to the quater finals !

but anw , today i had poa lsp . i could concentrate well on my lesson .
ended at 10 am .
i went home straight . play psp . then bathe , pack bag , get ready , go online jap , chat with bby .
then bby went offline , i went offline too and went out to meet him at bishan platform .
mcm biase juga ! MIRA sampai dulu ;D
tunggu baby then train-ed to novena . headed to tan tock seng .
visit nyai kat IMCU ward . ward for special care punya .
bobal skit nan nyai ..
i realised , i always look at nyai for a very long time and i nearly teared when i stared at her face ..
seriously , she resemble my late grandmother ..
i seriously wanted to cry but i hold back my tears ..
mcm nk lari g toilet nagis puas2 seh ..
:'{

kesian tgok nyai . mcm nk pelok die pun ade ...
sometimes i like tersasul panggil die tok mak {what i called my grandmother} .
but luckily i didn't salah panggil nyai .
lau tk paiseh ..
then baby's relatives dtg .
many tanye , " abil , tu saper { reffering to me . } "
then nyai/baby will answer , " kawan skolah ."
hahah .
i spend time accompanying baby kat hospital from 12 plus to 4 .
bgos kan mira teman bby ;D
hahaha !
then at 4 i left novena and headed to city hall .
met the beattyians there .
start my game at 5 . sial betol dorang delay time .
was at city hall till night . then me and the beattyians walk to raffles mrt .
smoke2 . then met father at raffles mrt .
trained to amk . after , went to ntuc to buy some kitchen stuffs .
termengah2 aku bawak brg2 .
then dad gave me some allowance .
sikit jer ! hmpfh ! at least better than nothing .
went home , niy belom mandi agik . jap lagik nk mandi .




kay lah , nak off comp alr .



GOOD NIGHT !






i love you , MUHAMMAD NABIL ♥

Evening , readers .



as i've said in my previous post , i had POA lsp today .
i woke up damn fucking late and i had to rush to zan's block so fast that my ankle hurt even more now .
sorry eh korang .
sui sui kol 8.10 msok school . but okay lah , not bad uh the lsp .
in a twinkle of an eye , da kol 10 . cepat giler .
i made jokes all the way .
there's one part when my classmate {chinese} said this , " Ah teacher ! the answer is one seven zheellooo zheelooo ! "
kekek giler babi sial . then i kept on imitating his voice till the end of lesson and cbong was irritated . but he laugh jugak . cb . hahaha !
during lsp , msg baby .
he didn't managed to meet me today as nyai msok hospital :{
but of course i was sad luh . boleh cry siol .
tapi he ajak me to go hopital to visit nyai but i said i can't . i'm tired and i told him i'll make it another day .
so reach home , miss call bby then play comp . went online and tibe2 {insert name here} bomb me all of a sudden .
i tknk gadoh bbut i termaki her lah . it wasn't intentionally .
haiyah .
smuer misunderstandings luh . but now me and her okay alr . she said sorry .
i wasn't having any good mood since the minute i reached home .
but bby cheered me up a little .
i told him how much i missed him though we've been aparted for just 2 days ..
it seems like it's been 1000 years since we last met .
rindu die .
tmr will be having lsp again . then after that go home , pack brg untuk competition esok , then jumpe baby , g tan tock seng visit nyai , then g funan it mall .
pathetically , my parents are not coming to support ... :{
haiyah , they busy with work and mother is not so well ..
takp luh , i understanding .
itu pun tk tawu ffe , mai , zan , efa dtg ke tk .
lau tk dtg pun tkp luh .
and i don't think baby can make it though .
tkp , i understanding .

so tmr in the late after noon till 9 + , i'll be alone all the way ? tah lah .

currently chatting with bby now .
it's been so long sice he last online .
i get bored so easily when he's not online . and i will off the comp and tuck in into bed early .
he's calling me tonight and i'm happy bout it of course .

kay luh , wish me luck for tmr kay , people {:





& i love you baby .






GOOD NIGHT , EVERYONE ! {L}

Congratz Rishi , David and , idk whose the third person is !
wait for my competiton okay , guys !
i'll try my best to win !
woooohhhhhoooo !
{click to view have a btter view ;D }




Today was supposed to go woodlands to celeb Illya's birthday but haiyah , smuer tired kemas uma , so tk larat nak kluar .
i cleaned up my room , my wardrobe , everything uh .
tmr ade lsp .. walande .
then itu pun tak tawu baby amek ke tk .
lau tk pun , i understand . he needs to take care of his nyai for some reasons .
baby and me like , ... aiyah , tk tawu uh pe nak ckp .
idk whether its because of my cramp stomach which i think my red flag will be coming soon or other stuffs .
it's frustrating when you fight over a small little thing .
and you know its hard for me to be angry and scold someone . so i'll get myself burnt by keeping those angers .
well , syg punye pasal , i will bear any pain ..
i miss him alot , i swear .
i'm hoping to meet him tmr but its still on consideration .

sok kene angon awal !!!
=.=

brother da alek camp ;DD
baby still lom angon , haii .
lau die tk call , maen psp jek luh aku .
pe nak uat .

k lah .


GOOD NIGHT READERS !

thats my current M.F theme . i was bored and i downloaded some of the themes from mozilla .
gerek .
nari baby go teban for rewang . and i'm here not knowing what to do .
sambil maen comp , tgah tgok hindustan skali . haha .
the story like nice onlyyyy . tgok ajer lah since tkd pape nk uat .
ytd , my brother , mother and i went to amk hub macdonalds to meet cik sharifah , my mom's insurance agent .
then we went to amk hub to search for Illya's birthday present .
dah 2 tahun tu budak . hahhaa . i can't seem to fnd her picture uh .
nnty sunday i go her house , i take picture of her ah {:
baby not going home today . die ton :{
sok aru die alek .
walau , mendak sia gini mcm .
ytd , me and bro belik psp nye metallic casing . actually i wanted to costomized the psp cover to mettalic green .
dah dpt colour . skali the casing longgar . NABEYH .
at last , i bought the mettalic casing yang untuk orang protective over their psp .
smuer brother blanje .
game pun dah tukar . now i'm playing and finishing Medal Of Hounour and Juice {racing game} .
semalam pun lawan abg untuk medal of honour . pkai ad hoc .
die mcm siak asik attack org darii blakang . but nt fun uh maen 2 org . nk kene ade rmai2 aru gerek .
now i'm patiently waiting for baby to be free since he's busy rewang-ing .
hai .

brother kluar tah g ane . my leg maseh recovering . the swollen da tk terok sgt .
but still can't walk that fast -.- !
monday i'll be having lsp in school for poa . monday&tuesday . MACAM SIALLLLLLL !
then wed free , thurs ade geog lsp . LAGY MACAM SIALLLLLL !
then friday free . sat tk tawu free . sun mungkin freee .
i've to find one day to go out with baby and whoever .
can't go zoo lah bby ! I BANKRUPT !
hahahaha !
next time olrite b {:
sorry . perhaps , i needa save some money for contribution during family day in may and for my exam fees eh .
perhaps , after mid year ? after my prelims ? or better , after my N level ! ;D
sorry eh b .. {:
ily !




k lah , baby just msged me and i wanna go attend to him and layan him ;D




BYE !

Today was the last day of schhoool ..
NO HOORAYS .
coz , my holidays are only 2 fucking days excluding weekends .
baek kape ?
i had to go back school on mon,tues and thurs .
mcm pukimak arhs . malas sial .
then either tmr , sunday or monday , i have interschool e-gaming competition at city hall .
i'll be competing sushido game .
ala , prize die pun tk menarik sgt .
1st prize ; 500 Capitaland shopping vouchers
2nd prize : 300{i think} Capitaland shopping vouchers
3rd prize ; 150 Capitaland shopping vouchers
tak best kan ? lau cash tkp gak siol !
shopping voucher step lei beli bnyk brg jer . -.-
maybe baby can't go coz he's going teban . ade rewang .
i'm sad to say i can't really go out with baby during the march hols .
i've just received my report slip and its not up to my satisfactory .
another 7 more marks , i could have passed POA .
sedih giler seh .
but nvm , this s just only term 1 . just as what baby said . still ade chance to improve .
after school , tk lepak nan gerek peeps coz baby say jumpe die straight after school .
then we headed to playground .
he carried my book and my bag .
die yang offer untuk angkat since die kesian tgok i tempang due to my swollen&sprained ankle .
pathetic bodoh !



kay lah , i'll update more tonight {;





BYE !

today mcm fuck , i tell you .
i wasn't hyper at all . but still managed to concentrate in class .
my ankle now is swollen , for goodness sake !
babi buddooohhh .
it suffers me alot to climb up the stairs .
but thanks to Lay for helping me when i was going down the stairs after school .
he helped me carefully .
thanks alot eh Lay {:

had chem test . helped tu cbong skit2 .
then had assembly . the video Glen Lim showed was so touching .
i teared a lil while watching .
its irritating that i had to stretch out my legs quite often coz of my ankle .
leceh !
didn't see baby . wanted to turn but smthg stopped me .. tah eh ?
after school , baby got course .
so i go lepak with the peeps excluding mai as she didn't come to school .
talk2 , smoke2 .
play with the little spider . nice giler . i was freak out at first when zan played with the spider .
then i dared myself to hold the spider and i did it ! huhu !
wanted to go home around 2 plus . but smthg just make me don't wanna go home .
so headed to kedai .
tgah talk2 , skali nmpk baby .
at first ragu2 luh nk panggil die . tapi at last panggil jugak .
i can't stop laughing .
^^ !
then he went off to don't know where lah .
blablabla .. -.-



aku tknk continue agik uh . haiyoh .





GOOD NIGHT , LOVES ! {L}






" i pretend i didn't see anything at her blog . though she's att , idfc yeah ? but i can't say what i feel to you coz i'm always with 'him' since he's in the same class as me . i gotta play fair and square .. "

" It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had. "

- Elizabeth Kubler-Ross






school was as usual . had p.e today and we practiced shuttle run .
i love to challenge with neveon for that .
*evil grins*
But there was one part she wanted to run back first and she pushed me .
obviously i couldn't catch her back .
instead , i made a wrong turn and sprained my ankle .
the pain was excruciating at first but it get a lil bit better luh .
for now the pain is averagely okay . still bearable .
thanks to zan for carrying my bag . itu pun lepas Mrs Tanny Ho sroh angkatkan .
after reccess they help me out to climb the stairs .
i owe you guys . thanks alot .
sebab KEDEGILAN aku tknk tukar balek uniform , aku kene marah nan Ms Fauziah .
so went toilet and changed back to uniform .
mother tongue , cikgu yati tk dtg coz anak dier sakit .
then after school i had a lil bit of tiff with baby .
now then baru dah okay .
i had so no fucking mood after school . i went back early and didn't went for maths lsp due to my ankle .
reach home , bathe , and took a nap .

then baby msged me .
nk kate happy , mmg happy . nak kate geram , mmg geram . tapi tk sgt laa .
so i decided to make him a lil happy by sending msgs like ,
" don't do it again okay ? " , " I don't scold you for nothing okay , b . ily ((: " , etc .
somehow , i'll think of smthg which can lighten the tiff we're having .
i want the happy faces/moments/laughters we had for the past few days ..
i want it back .




GOOD NIGHT , LOVES {L} !





" what more do i want ? i want you to be truthful to me . "

ALOHA ! ;D


supposingly , i seriously have nothing to post about .
but since i'm so fucking bored and baby nye internet still rosak , i update at least somethings .
today school was as usual .
i failed my social studies test . wah sial . mcm siakkk .
but nvm , next test ade confident sket uh nk pass .
i've been having such a wonderful time with baby .
i hope this goes on forever siol .
confirm aku hapy giler babi peh !
;DDDD


k lah , i've run out of words alr .

GOOD NIGHT , LOVES ! {L}







" i'm always thinking bout you . every single second , i miss you lke i've never met you for 1000 years . perhaps , you ARE the one i've been looking for , baby ..
ily . "

Not all pictures are up . This pictures are taken after coming back from my flag day .
baby fetched me at tpy inter and headed over to my crib to slack .
reach my crib , baby play comp , i go sleep for awhile since i was so fucking tired .
then few mins later he slept beside me .
after 1 hour gituk , he woke me up and we started playing pillow fight .
we played pillow fight giler rabak siols .
smpai his eyes da red-red .
my nose sakit kene penyek .
rabak eh . hahahahah ! buuutttt , fun tawu main pillow fight nan die .
lagik, lau ade bantal2 besar . FUHHH ! best tros .
flag day was so-so .
my tin was the heaviest among the gerek peeps .
must apply my skiills . APPROACH , ASK , GIVE WIDE SMILE , SAY THANK YOU {:
wahahha , kesian aku tgok yang lain .
pitty them lah coz they didn't earn a star whereas i earned a star . so pathetic .
must earn star for the CIP . mcm boooddddoooh !
penat2 dri 4 jam mintak org donate , nk kene earn star .
1 star - half tin . 2 stars - full tin .
meypek siolszsz .
but nvm lah .
then baby and i slack2 . tgok movie kat internet .
then i bathed for while and got ready to go out to meet mother at lavender .
so baby went out with me too .
we took the same train but baby alighted at bishan and i alighted at dhoby ghout to meet ira first .
then train together to lavender .
went beach road . panas giler babs .
then around 7 plus gituk , went back home .
took train again .
this time round , the train was so fucking packed .
and got this one fat indian guy rabe pantat aku . MCM LAKI SIALAN .
hrp2 die mati sial . rabe pantat aku , shiok sendiri pey jantan !
then told baby bout it and he was so like angry with the man .
hahahahha !
i promise i will be more careful kay baby .

anw , my r/s with baby has becoming more closer . since after what he said to me which made me cried .
i won't forget that day ..
thanks baby for those words .
i promise i won't be like the girl i used to be {;
in addition , YOU DON'T PLAY BEHIND MY BACK {;



ily .

i'll update picture tmr . blogger cm siak tk leh upload gmbar .





good night ;D

Amcm ? cm gerek gituk eh gmbar .
gerek sekali , oih .


HELLO PEOPLE ! ;D



I apologize for late updates . i didn't touch the computer ever since baby had probs with his comp .
jiwe baby uh siol . die tk touch comp , aku tk touch .
lagypun . it's boring if baby weren't to be online .
cm tkd org nk bobal gituk . tkd mood nk online pun !

Today gerek . got assembly in the afternoon and that two badots plus me kept on laughing at the conductors for both , C.O & M.B .
smangat giler babs sial .
beh got malay dance performance also . boleh tahan luh .
then actually wanna go for geog lsp but in the end satu2 cabot .
of course , inclding me ;D .
i was toooo happy and excited to go for any lsp's .
nari kan 05 MARCH ! 10 months aku nan baby siol !!
cpt eh da 10 months ? tau tkp .

kay lah , tmr i update this blog kay . promise .
&& skok ade sports day .
pas tu kene uat community work . mcm siakkkkkkk !
budoh nye skola . nb -.-





GOOD NIGHT , EVERYONE ! {L}

Some people are just so immature man .
umur dah 15/16 pun ade prangai gitu mcm .
bubdoooh sak kau .
pukimak kau lah , jantan .



tmr school alr . meeting baby for sure . rindu dyer giler babi tawu .
bnyk hmwk actually kene uat but aku bo layan nan hmwk aku .
kepale tibe2 pening bile tgok hmwk .
so tkya uat sua .
lau cikgu tnye , ckp sakit .
its true whuuuaaaat .
abg balik camp nari . so means i have a good time with the comp tuuuuday .
4 more days and its ggonna be my 10 months with baby .
cepat giler to tha max punya .
dah tinggal 2 bulan lebih ke 1 year . WOW gituk !

kay lah , tak kuase nk blog panjang2 . penat !






* Kau , jage mulut . Once you cut off my line , YOU are fucking dead shit .
Ko jantan , SO ? pikir jantan , aku lemah smangat untuk fight for my rights ?
kepale hotak kau .
dari kecik tk ajar untuk pikir betol2 pe !
patot lah dah besar gini mcm gian nk mampos !
ko g jual/beli jubo sua pat geylang uh !
3 words for you .
YOU . ARE . LAME .

loser fuck .