the rain makes my day even more sour .
to that person : sorry i couldn't make it today . but anw , thanks for asking me whether i need an accompany . you're concern is highly appreciated .
i'm supposed to go to the beach with my friend . but my head was spinning like hell and its raining .
so i think i wanna cancel the plan to go to the beach .
i've msged her alr saying sorry that i couldn't make it today .
i feel a lil bit cooled after talking somethings out with my friend .
at least , there's someone who is there for me .
i cried while expressing out my whole feelings .
i was so emotional , i tell you . i can hardly control the tears from flowing down my cheeks .
at night after i went offline , i smoked 5 sticks in less then 10 minutes .
that really shows how tense and frustrated i am .
just couldn't control .
after finish smoking , i tried to relaxed myself by playing my psp .
and believe it or not , i just feel like trashing/throwing my psp on the wall i tell you .
the anger in me makes me think so wild .
i hate that .
it sucks .
i tred to control my anger , so i switch off my psp and just stare at my ceiling .
it felt so quiet . no sound at all .
i on some songs and tried to sing along .
but it seems everything is so not right for me .
i even forgot all the lyrics of my fav song . isn't that so frustrating ? it is okay .
i didn't get to sleep till late morning .
i slept around 4 going to 5 ..
i talked to my friend on the phone till 4 . but i didn't sleep after that .
in the morn , he didn't even msged me saying " sorry i've nt been a man of his words . " or either at least , " hey , i'm really sorry i can't call you for the last two days or so . "
but nah , i didn't even receive any of it .
how grreat .

but haha , you know , aku tak kesah niy smuer luh kan .
org nk sakitkan hati aku , suke hati lah eh .
aku kuat ssgt untuk go through bende niy very often .
mira strong luh kan -.-
buat lah .
tak pasal .
ttp rase kasih sayang tu akan ade di hati .






Muhammad Nabil Bin Jailani , kau always dlm hati aku kay , baby .