i went to someone's blog .
and i saw (insert name here)'s msn .
kay seriously now i wonder what he told others bout what happened .
last time , he told this 2 people what happened when i actually broke up with him the first time .
and now ?
why must i get to find out things which will actually make me soooo .. angry , sad , frustrated ?
the picture may be small but i can recognize (insert name here)'s msn nick .
its so obvious .
what the heck ?


kay , i don't wanna say much bout what i found out ..
i find out tooo much things ..
me and baby are alr okay . so i just don't wanna make a big fuss ..
tlg lah , control kay mira .
whatever he told her , i don't know whether i wanna know or not ..
if i know , i'll get hurt .. if i don't know , i'll get frustrated . fuck .
baby wanna date me on this friday to make up for the previous friday which he was supposed to ... uhm , go out with me .
i hope things won't go wrong before the day again .
he promised anyway ...

i've not been sleeping quite well lately .
my condition is .. so-so ..
god knows how is it .
each night , when i listened to Edward's Lullaby , my mind was so peaceful .. like nothing had happened ..
eventually , i cried after that , for i-don't-know-why ..
it has been a very suffering week for me .. how am i able to forget everything in just a snap ? ..

today , woke up in the morning , cleaned up the house and went out around 2 plus to woodlands .
met up with cik zai , mama's friend .
went jalan2 .
stopped at aussini as mama got me a 6 piece set of towel .
then i head to action city and bought a bag tag .
then went to x-craft to buy another friendship band .
just couldn't get enough of it eh ;D
and got a lanyard coz i find it leceh to always open and close my bag to reply msgs .
i don't put it in my pocket coz it bludges .


2 weeks 4 more days till i meet my oh-so-long-never-see cousins/nieces/nephews/aunty/uncle .
i bet all my anak sedare dah besar dah skrng .
hani will be there too ! ;D AHAKS !
hani and her uhm , idk whether she got a lil brother or sister . born last year . didn't get to visit the family .
but i'll get to meet them sooon !;D

tomorrow school -.-
oh yeah , santhi called me . i knew she'll ask why i didn't come to school .
haha .
i can read her mindddd . and she told me to revise for the poa test .
i said " i'll try ;D "
will be reporting to school at 8.30 am .
i really really hope nthg will happen to me tmr .. pls pls pls .
and good luck to me for the poa test , siul .


& yeah .

to Ayiid : Thanks yeah for the help {: and thanks for texting me to ask how i am .
appreciate much {:
thank god , me and your bro is finally okay .. {:




" i knew love will find the way .. "