my day was great by right . but not until i hear someone's name whom i truly , sincerely HATE .
but oh well , what can i do anw ?
nothing that i can do right . -.-
but i'm glad at least there is someone who could actually entertain me .


while i let him enjoy , i let someone else entertain me .
i just hate to disturb his enjoyments with that asshole .
i couldn't care much though .
as long as boyf knows whats right and whats wrong , i shall shut my mouth .
i may not know what he's doing behind me but i have my ways .
don't try me .


so , princess diaries had just ended .
it shows what love really is . and love can't be forced .
its hard to find a true love , yes i agree .
i'm still young , and yes i know . at my age , i should be enjoying right ?
but it's just that what happened in the past stopped me from enjoying and being 100% socialized with both guys and girls .
further more , i'm currently attached to Nabil .
and yes , he's a one hard thing to handle but still himself and i managed to tolerate with each others nonsense .
he made me cry many times .
i feel like strangling him for that . i wish i could .
but i love him . and i don't wish to do things that'll hurt him .

well , he msged me few mins ago asking me whether wanna talk2 at night .
once bitten twice shy , i didn't really put too much hope on it .
and yes baby , i missed you calling me late at night ..
but the feeling of missing it , i just have to hide it coz you're always tired ..
and i don't wish to trouble you at all .
but then , you told me that i could've told you that i missed our late night calls as at times you're free .
so , i'm sorry for not telling ya .


well , i'm in such a so-so mood now .
this few nights , i've been smoking alot . when i read the histories of my msgs , i felt sad .
i'm not sure why .
but , will he be there when i need him ?


the answer is still unsure ..