perhaps , i'm gonan continue with my love story here which i feel so sad about ..
ladies and gentleman , try to read those msgs he used to send me ..
read and think how should i feel bout the way he is to me now ..





" But a relationship without having any fighting , there's something wrong with it . I love you very much that sometimes i cepat jealous . I'm DAMN SCARED to LOOSE YOU MIRA ! "

"I'm so down . I seriously rase mcm i dah beribu tahun tak jumpe u . hai .. "
- this was during the march hols when we didn't get to meet each other so often .. we missed each other so much that we felt as if it's been years since we last met ..
don't you miss me anymore now .. ?

"U takmu sedih can ? i feel like crying if babygirl sedih .. I know its hard , but we both must hold on . Kalau baby love me , tlg tkmu sedih .. "

" Ilyvmt . tkmu luh leave me b . "

"No matter how hot/pretty other girls are , you're still thte girl that attracts my eyes , heart and feelings ! No other girl can replace you . you are very very different from them . seriously baby !
There;s something in you , that makes me love you . "

" Itu hanya tuhan saje yang tahu baby . One day , we both may have our ups&downs , but no matter what , kite tetap will pull through all that . "

" Don't leave me bby , i promise to love u , no matter what . "

" I'm always loving you no matter what situation we're in . [:
o5o5o8((: "

" Every single night of the camp , i can't sleep . Thinking of you every single minture . Hoping that the camp will be over quickly ..
Imyvvm ..
At one time , i nearly cried , thinking what are you gonna do without me , will you listen to whatever i told you or not .. "
- this was when you came back from you're camp at m'sia ..
you knew how bad i'd missed you when you're away ..
we had so little time for each toher before you went ..
i still rmb where i was when u reached s'pore safely ..
i felt like screaming my lungs out and jump everywhere as i was so happy that you're back ..
but , don't you miss me anymore when we don't meet for such a long time ? ..

" Baby , kalau i tk syg you anymore , i won't be bothered if you're with 'him' .
Maybe you thought i nye prangai brubah je , my feelings pun jugak . But turthfully speaking , my love for you is still the same . I'm still living my life for you . "
- this was when we're fighting bout him ..
i thought you don't love me anymore coz you're attitude started to change during the march hols ..
so i thought your feelings changed too ..
but you said you're still living your life for me ..
but now , since after our 1 year .. , you've changed alot ..
so , are you still living your life for me ? ..

" A 11 months is coming , I'm here to tell you how greatful i am to have you . I know i'm not the greatest , sweetest bf . But i'm trying very hard to be one . You're always my priority , no matter where i am . you're still in my heart . I love you baby (:
Hope you're always happy whenever you're with me (: "

" Ohh . anw , ily . Thanks for being with me for this past few months ! "

" You're my sun on a cloudy day , you're my umbrella on a rainy day .
You're my everything , what can i say .
I think bout you when i lay down to bed , i think bout you when 'm taking a test .
You're my number one and you're the best .
You're like a tattoo in my mind that can't be erased , i'll love you forever coz this isn't a phrase .
Its just that i love you in my unique ways (:
Stages after stages , our love grow .
Months after months , our love lasts .
Happy 11 Months Anniversary :-* "
- you wrote me a letter for our 1 year . just like the same as this poem ..
i still have ALL the letters you gave to me which is full of lovely poems that i fall in love with ..
but now , isn't there anymore poems for me ? ..

" Although kiterorang in bad terms , you're still my number 1 .. "

" Tlg , take care of your health . IIloveyou very very much . "
- this is when i got seriously ill when we fought ..
i was so stress and i was so scared to loose you till i didn't eat and sleep .
all i do was smoke till i got sick ..
i got sick because of you , but never had i mind getting sick for you ..
but now , if i get sick because of you , would you still care like how u used to ? ..

" Tanye je . Tak lama lagy i sleeping . Baby , love you taw . Rmb . Always my babylove , always my girl (: "

" *mwaaaaaaaaah!*
Nothing boleh lepaskan kiterorang , seriously . "

" Gi tido luh b , hai .. U making me damn worried sey . Tak mkn beh isap rkk & tk tido .. "

" No ! Pls mira ! iloveyou very much ! pls ! jgn tid lmbat ! gi mkn ! pls ! "

" Argument after argument we had , not a single one of them can break us apart . the love we had for each other , is so great that no words can describe .
Each night i think , why we are together ? every single night , i couldn't get an answer .
I love you like i never love someone before .
You're the most treasure thing . If i were given a chance to live 100 times , i still won't find someone like you .
You will always be a special lady to me now & forever .
I'm dead serious , mira . "

"Ily , sweetheart . "

" Baby , i promise myself never to leave you but to love you & treasure you .
I don't wish to see you with other guys .
I want you to be mine forever , baby .
I want to have a good & happy future with you .
Pls, don't ever leave me baby ..
Iloveyouverymuch .
I would give up anything to be with you baby !
*mwaaaaaahh!* "

" i will love you , b . You know love you kan ? i boleh nangis sia sekarang "

" Good .. i feel like kissing you right now .. i need you right now b .. "

" idk why luh baby . i tgok the guys that add you pat friendster&tagged , semua yang flirt2 . anytime they can just step over my boundary .. "

" B , i takot to loose you sia ... hai :( "
- you said you're scared to loose me ..
but are you scared now ? since you've changed so much ..

" You too ! i won't ever leave you . Trust me on this .. "
- you said this to me .. i won't ever delete this msg ..
but do you mean it ?


"As long as i'm still breathing , you're still mine ! apeape kite gone thru hot or cold , i'm still loveing you ! Mwaaaaahhh ! Nights ! "

" Hehehe ! you know , i'm glad that i have you b ..
Kalau i takde you .. i taktawu ape jadi nan hidup i .. "
- you said you're glad .
but are you still now ? ..

" B , hari berganti hari , ku cinta pada mu ! :-* "
- hah , i rmb this msg ..
i was on thte way to school in the morn and you gave me this sweet msg ..
it made me smile so much throughout the school hours ..
but isn't there anymore morning msgs from you now for me ? ..

" I'm sorry that i simpan .. But b , i just can't control my jealousy .. "

" I said i'm sorry . its just that i tgok tagged you , hati boleh jatoh , boleh terbakar . blh mcm2 .. "

" B.. tlg jangan tinggalkan i b .. :'( "

" I know you're jealous , i'm sry . but i had a really bad nightmare b .. i takleh stop air mate from flowing .. :'( "
- this is when we fought bout , F _ _ _ h .
you knew i was jealous . and you did everything as not to make me sad and jealous ..
but soon after i created back my tagged account , you betrayed me ..
don't you care bout my feelings anymore ? ..

" Baby , i'm here to say that i'm so sorry for the words that i used to you just now . i really didn't mean it . i didn't get jealous for fun . i got jealous coz i'm scared to loose someone that i deeply , madly , seriously love ..
i can't bear to see us both apart or to see anyone stealing you away from me..
i'm sorry for those words i used , i really didn't mean it ..
you're the women of my life , my pillar of strength ..
my heart and desire ..
i just love you so very much .. "

" B , i sumpah i taknak berpisa dgn u .. i want this r/s to last .. "

" Nuramirabinte*****
pls be home quickly , i'm missing you .. i need you .
i want your hug , kisses and iwant to hold your warm tender hand .
Iloveyoubie! "

" I hope , when you wake up and you see this msg , there will be a smile on your face .
Months of waiting , and at last i got you baby .
another 3 days will be our big day .
i remember every words i told you , the promises i made .
all of it is still intact in my mind .
i'm very b;essed to have be given a chance to love & treasure you . i won't ever ruin my chance because i know once i ruin it , it won't be the same anymore .
i hope that our love will always be strong and i will pray hard that our relationship could last forever (:
you're always an angel in my eyes , you're priceless .
no one could steal you away from me .
Once my property , always mine (:
Nabl&Mira , since o5o5o8!
Ily:-* "

" 12 plus . bie , i'm sorry that i have hurt you ..): "

" I'm sorry .. really baby .. "

" Ohhh . bby , no matter what happends between us , i still love you :-)
good or bad , you're still my gf :-) "

" Don't think too much luh baby . ingat that i always love you no matter what . "

" then don't fight anymore . ilyvm , u know that right ? i tak sanggup tinggalkan you .. ''

" i really really love you .. (: "

" haha ! of course me ! go to sleep taw . bace doa .
and lastly . . . I love you .
Since 5 may 2008 . :-) "

" ily , pls do take care of yourself when i'm not around .. "

" Bie . i love you . seriosuly . "

" i only want the best for you :-)
jgn lupe i taw . "




the last line was the last that cheered me . and that was on the 21st may ..
long enough for me to miss those kind of msgs to appear in my inbox ..

for what i have realised ..
since after he created tagged account during march .
23rd march to be exact .
since after , he got so wild ..
he was a favourite for the girls he added ..
despite scolding me when guys asked me for intro's and for my msn , he himself asked those girls of his for intro's and asked them for email adds .

just what should i feel ?

he's like a full time PIMP in tagged .
let me repeatt hat , a PIMP .
what should i feel again ?
he said his heart can burn whenever he sees my tagged . but what about me ???
my heart burns 10000 times more than him ..
but he just seem not to care ..

before we had our biggggg biggggg arguments since after our 1 year , everything was sooo fine ..
so normal though we fought a lil ..
sweet poems and msgs always appear on my screen , day and night ..
oh god , if he only knows how much i missed it ..
every morning , when he'd alr woke up from his beauty sleep , he'll always msg me asking me " b ! da angon ? " . you know with the sense of being in a happy mood like that ..
oh god , if he only knows how much i missed it ..

now ?
day and night , nothing ..
no sweet poems and msgs ..
not much of "iloveyou"(s) ..

just what should i think bout this r/s ?

when i told him the way we msg now is diffrent , he didn't wanna reply me .

sometimes i just feel like swearing him any words i could find in my mind .
feel like killing him , stranggling him , etc .
but why didn't i do it ?

coz i love that heartbreaker asshole so much .

yes , the setans are tempting me to get my old self back so that i could teach him a lesson .
but thank god , alhamdulillah , i could resist the temptation .
but i know , my resistance is not for long coz my patience is getting thinner every day with his attitude ..




don't blame me .



REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE .

WHERE YOU COME FROM .

JUST LIKE WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS TOLD ME ,

" THINK OF OUR RELATIONSHIP BEFORE

DOING ANYTHING . "

BE A MAN OF YOUR WORDS .





Is this a love or a pretend ?