well , as i've expected , i will have GREAT DISAPPOINTMENTS with my bloody mid year results .
so far , i've passed english and mother tongue .
for science , sial ah , i pass chem but failed by few marks for physics .
but amos goh is trying to help me .

alot of things happened in school today ..
firstly , me , mai and ffe were late . so we had to sit at the white area .
then , i nearly wanted to vomit . for idk why .
so i tahan-ed . soon , the feeling washed away .
8 am , went back class . fauziah caught me for skirt . oh well ! whatever .

sat beside aubrey today since after i saw him ytd .
talk talk alot .
then p.e , didn't change coz wasn't having mood and most of my classmates tknk tukar .
so jiwe nan dorang . but kene uat 20 push ups . so do luh .
did nothing during p.e but just talk2 nan my classmates .
ffe made me cry .
he scolded me like never scold anyone before .
so i rushed to the toilet .
then kluar toilet , nmpk boyf's classmates . irsyad tegor-ed me . eventho i was truly down , i gave him a big smile because of some reasons and i owe him alot for his honesty ...

go back class , takd mood . then ffe say mai wanna talk to me .
so walk out of class , mai approached me . headed to toilet and talked to her in the cubicle ..
told her what i was feeling and haiyah , started to cry again ..
idk why , but what is happening now just hurts me alot ..
i get to know very unpleasant info's from different people ..
i'm so hurt luh ..

then wanna go back class , got paisey gak luh coz my eyes were red .
classmates comfort me .
thanks yeah {: you guys are sweet ..

i only had my mood back during MT .
tried to be happy .
dismissed at 2 , slacked . went bishan .
went home around 3.40 pm .

then when i was in the bus , an old man was sitting beside me . a chinese .
then he go rub2 my hand mcm pukimak die tol .
eee , geli siall ..




after , received a msg from boyf .
he made me cry again ..
i wonder when my tears will dry up .. i'm so tired of crying every night and day ..
why is this happening to me ..




Where is the old me who used to be so strong ? who could face anything that hits her ? ..