blogger still can't get pictures uploaded . what the shitzszsz .
okay whatever -.-
but i hope it'll be okay soon .

today was the second day of semester 2 .
the time-table for this new semester seems too pressurizing .
for one thing i'm glad is that , there's no more POA lesson as the last period of the day .
if not , we'll always be jailed in the classroom by santhi and we'll start to curse her and all kinda stuffs .
today , i slept halfway during english . i couldn't stand my eyes .
tanny ho woke me up during geog .
muke masai habes .
then , efa told me something and it made my blood boil alot .
i asked zan whether i'm in the wrong for all this shitzs .
and he said no . even i think i'm not .
i mean , i didn't even do anything wrong till he always wanna find fault with me .
like what the fucksszs man ?
aubrey and i talked alot more today than to yesterday .
today morning was so hilarious , i tell you .
mai and i got stalked early in the morning .
HAHAHAA !
it all started when i was at bradd mrt , lining up to withdraw some cash when that 2 matzsszs came .
satu mcm lidi , satu mcm bantal . hahaha !

and so , mai is supposed to meet sham today at tpy .
and jo was supposed to meet me outside school but inthe end tak jadi .
gadoh kejap nan die over the phone when i was at the library .
geram aku , tau tk .
but aku keep cool coz si zan tu buat lawak bodoh sal reproductive system nye topic in the hman body book .
nak marah pun tak jadi .

in the end , i went home first before going out .
told jo to meet me at 3.30 and had alr warned him not to be late .
in the end , aku yang late ;DD
tak selalu sia b , aku lambat ;DDDDD
he wore long sleeve and he complained panas . ape saje je lah dektu . haha !
sap rokok outside while waiting for sham .

da bes , we u-turn back to mrt station and after few minutes , panjang pun umur die .
made a move yo sky garen as we had no where else to go .
terserempak aida and anaa .
went up to sky garden and i started to kacau jo .
standard . ahahha ! i will always win ;DDD
then around 5 plus , mai nan sham angkat kaki . and left me and jo aje .
we lepak till 7 . we shared our life stories and the shitszs thats happening to me and him . and then headed to ock since we're hungry .
he disturbed me all the way to ock .
i swear hs hands are so icy cold when he touched my cheeks .
tsk . senang take in temperature siak .

at first , i wanna take bus home . but pikir2 balik , take train in the end .
was in the same train as him .
he keep on pestering me to do center parting . hahaha !
siak eh !
alighted at amk and home sweet home .


was early today as i'm tired and sleepy .







before i end , i wanna say something to all those who're damning me for what had happened between me and 'him' .


Seriously , who are you guys to say such things about me ?
who are you guys to stop me from what i wanna do ?
who are you guys to blame me for what had happened when you guys don't even know the true story ?
Eh sial ah , aku brani sumpah ah eh aku tkd nak carik hal nan tu budak ah .
aku nak damai nan die walaupun dah break , die nk perah minyak .
kirekan aku jugak ah yang salah ?
kimak ..
Korang sebok sal hidop aku asal ?
so what lau sekarang aku attached ?
nape die break promises die boleh , aku tk boleh ?
pls ah , aku da penat ah asik nak kasi muke kat orang . Semuer naek kepala !
nak kate ade otak , tak gune .
pikir ah sial .
korang nak damn aku , bobal blakang aku , pikir dulu ah .
aku memang tak pasal ah kay .
sebab , ape yang korang ckp smuer aku bo layan .
yang penting , aku enjoy hidop nan ape yang aku ade sekarang ah kay .
suke hati korang uh siul .
aku pun malas nak layan niy merepek smuer .
aku tau , aku tak uat pape .
(:









" i don't know whether i could forgive for what you've cursed me .. "

blogger is making me crazy .
not sure why i couldn't upload pictures . okay , whatever -.-


ytd , my cliques and i were having such a good semangat to go to school .
we planned to meet at 7 since school starts at 8.30 am .
woke brother up to fetch mai .
brother sped like as if he's a racer and i think mai was freaked out .
at elast , she's sitting behind whereas i'm in front .
i had butterflies in my stomach .

reached brad mac at 7 .
me ate breakfast there and so does the 2 badakszsz .
we made a move at 8 i think .
waited for zan under his block and there was a surprise !
zan punye rammmbooottttt .. fuhh ! hahahhaa ! you know i know lah kan .
went in school with such enthusiasm .

sadly , tanny ho isn't our co-form anymore .
i'm sad . i love her as our co-form tho she can me very annoying at times .
i was booked for my skirt during spot check .
fucker -.-
so tmr i have to ask efa to help me exchange skirt for a while .

aubrey is my partner again after such a long time .
gerek lah sit with him .
we talk bout some people lah kan , aub .
i was so bloody sleepy as i slept late ytd .
coz jo called me .
talk cock till late and finally we put down and i went "zZzZzzZZzZz" .

in school , damn boring .
slept all the way during live lesson and finally woke up during english .
mai went home first as we are dismissed at 2.30pm . babi siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal .
after school , went out with that 2 lelaki's .
planned with them alr to go jogging at b.p around 5 plus .
but the weather seems bad so we cancelled it .
we decided to postponed to tomorrow .
today , i went home with hetesh .
i miss going home with him .
we talk alot .
we laugh alot .
hahahaha ! what you expect , he'd been my classmate for 10 years !
kawan sejati namenya tuuu . hahaha !

tmr i think the N3's will be dismissed later than N2's .
jo called me few mins ago .
he said he'll meet me tmr .
after schoool :S
paiseh sia dgn muke masai , lepas skola !
eleh , pedulik ape aku ;DD
hahaha !





currently chatting with mai , sham and bear .
had webcam convo with iskandar . a friend of mine at tagged .
he's so funneh .
when bloger is okay with the uploading of pictures , i'll load it here kay .
;D






kay , i wanna do my surat kiriman ;D

ciaos !

seriously ah , ape salah aku kat kau sial ?
kau asik nak carik pasal nan aku ape kes ?

aku tahan je biler kau maki aku smuer eh .
tapi kau naek kepale ah , sial .

aku mmg mls nk lyn and gado nan kau ah .
waste energy , waste saliva lyn kau pey nonsense .
aku tak carik pasal nan kau , kau diam2 boleh tak ?
kau nak carik gado nan aku , BILANG AH KAY .


kay , since kau nk sgt barang HAPRAK kau tu , tgok uh cmne eh .
whether aku nk kasi ke tk .
you'll be SURPRISED to see the outcome of it , jerk .


kau nak tgok aku evil kan .
you'll see .








you called me a worthless bitch . HA ! you think you're someone worth it ?
more worst than a WORTHLESS JERK ade lah (:





i play fair and square , asshole .

ytd's pictures can be viewed in mai's profile .




i'm damn blardy tired now .
just reached home few minutes ago .
went to tampines ikea , then to courts , then to giant .
was there till 9.30 plus .

saw a chinese actor with his wife and kids .
i didn't know he was an actor not until i offered his wife and kids my seat .
his kids are awesome .
polite indeed .
they said thank you to me and i just smiled and said welcome .

bought alot of things .
i swear 'm not going to tampines ikea anymore .
its damn fucking tiring okay .

we had lunch at century square , food culture .
i ate fried chicken with spaghetti .
after that , dad and mom went seahorse while i wonder around .
in the end , i met them back at seahorse .
bought my bed sheet quilt cover set .
like at last eh . if not asik mencari2 je .

okay ppl , i'm really tired .
sheeeeeessshhh .










'some' ppl made my mood spoiled today ..
great ah ! -.-




&& when we're together , i didn't even asked you for gifts (:







" Ko ckp sroh aku anggap smuer brg tu as brg haram ? haha ! ku tk psl . since ko ckp gitu , aku buang ah . same cam kau . kau main buang je brg yang aku bagi . nape aku tk lei ?
Sampai eh hati kau .. at least , aku masih nk treasure brg2 kau . and kau ckp kau haramkan ape yang kau bagi aku ? .. woahh .. hebat ah kau ..
i want fair and square .. full stop .
too bad , but i'm sorry .. "

the reason why i unabled my status is because , ..... well , i have my own reasons okay .
you guys don't know the story .
so i don't want any rumors saying meeera this and that .
it'll drive me crazy .






jo always call me at the wrong timing . shhhessh !
he'll always call me either when i'm about to sleep , alr sleeping or bathing .
cb kan ?
didn't talk much coz i was in the toilet bathing when he called .
bathed and got ready .
heading out with parents .
i feel like as if i'm their only child as brother has left to KL with his mates .
until now , we still haven't yet received his call to inform us that he'd alr reach there safely .
confirm tmr when he come back , get super duper long lectures form momma .

yesterday slept at 2 plus as momma and i watch some comedy dramas on youtube .
damn funny .
and the comp made my blood boil . damn irritating .
needa get new optical mouse .
or either get the cpu repaired .
blooody hell .

heading to tampines ikea and perhaps to beach road also .
gonna do some shopping today .

update later .
ciaos .

gosh , it's surprising that i TOO could move on with my life now .

with my wonderful friends , family and my love .

kay i'm at mai's crib now .

having a blast , standard ! hahah !

sorry b , aku tk jumpe kau D:

sorry bnyk2 .

promise one day okay i'll meet you .

k ciao .

i'mma going outzsz .



will update later .




ciao .







- b , aku insya'allah jumpe ko nari kay , gile .

yesterday's pictures .
seriously , once again , we had a blast ! ;D
- lala ! senang2 , join ktrng lagik ah ! ;D -

some secrets of my life now wll be revealed as soon as i'm ready for it .
not sure when but soon .





today stayed at home since whole fam is at home .
i'm supposed to call jo back but i'm busy with family .
we watch Jangan Tegur at youtube.com
fucking hell , scary sial .

played word games after that .
brother is going on a vacation tmr .
perhaps , tmr i wanna meet jo . before school reopens .

ala , i want more hols man .
half of the hols are wasted on some FUCKING SHITS [ you know , i know (: ]

had breakfast and dinner with family today .
me love to have family dinner .
i disturb brother alot today . heheh !


jo called around 2 or 3 plus gituk when i was sleeping in the afternoon .
talked to him for while .
then he had to put down .
he msged me but i can't reply him .
-kau nak jumpe aku ? aku pun nak jumpe kau lah , b . hahaha !-


anw , transformers movie outing soon kay , cliques !
-if can , kau pun ikot lah , b ! boleh aku kacau kau ! ;DDD-







MIMPI MANIS !












MAI , GET WELL SOON !
LOVE YOU !

reached home around 10.30 plus .
we've sucha blast today !


accompanied mai to cut her fringe .
then went to buy her long awaited polo tee .
met ffe , ffa and lala at he bus inter .
waited for zan skali . he was the last this time round .
bused to mai's crib .
singgah econ minimart to get some stuffs .
asked lala to help me buy my ciggies .
gua tak lokek rokok punya .
supplied lala .


we ended up not studying . susah ah lau nk ade smangat blaja lau smuer cliques jumpe .
so instead , we watched The Excorcist 1 .
kiter tutop smuer lampu and pintu .
ape lagi , jerit sini sane ah siul !
hahaha !


ffe suke tekejotkan org .
sedap sia kene tempeleng nan lala . hahaha !
after the movie , slacked kat pondok .
sap rokok smuer .
we had our own mini BREAK shisha . hahaha !
its damn mrepek , i know .


now i feel so noneng coz we tarik the asap from a bottle .
kekek giler .


then we made a move .
they accompanied me to ntuc to buy some things and we exchanged goodbyes .


now chatting with aidil .
and mai .







anw , THANKS FOR THE ROTI PRATA HOT DOG , ZUL !
sodap sungguh !
gini mcm lei buat jualan sia !
;DDD











- B , kau kan , mcm mintak kene taplek lagi siak nan aku . kate nak call beh tk call .
siak . HAHAH !
tendang kang ~ ;D











i'll upload picas tmr {:








MIMPI MANIS !

currently at mai's crib .

lala(efa's cousin) is here too .

having a blast !

to jo , b yang sungguh mira rindu : i'm sorry i couldn't meet you today . perhaps we'll meet soon kay ? i promise .

AKU PUN RINDU KAU LAH , B !

cb . hahahah !

wanted to update yesterday after i reached home .
but comp buat hal .
so i just off the comp and go to my bed to rest .


went outaround 6 plus .
trained to outram .
light up a cigg while walking .
forgotten that sgh is near cantonment .
nasib tk kene ape2 .

so momma was retained for 8 hours in the hospital .
was supposed to be discharged at 8pm but in the end discharged at 10.30pm .
mcm sial kan ?
her hand which has the needle in it was swollen .
so i approached the nurse to take off the needle coz momma's hand was so swollen .
gedek sia jari !
the nurse told me to wait .
so i waited . half an hour , mash lagik tk bukak .
wah , blood hot you know .
then i sound them a lil , baru dorang bukak .
geram !

10.15 , doctor explained to mom that its just a typical heart attack . so its not really serious .
but , still momma has to go for check-ups at the Heart Centre on the 6th Aug to seriously confirm that she's not suffering from any heart problems like what the doctors had suspected .
so momma has 6 days leave .

the hospital was damn bloody eerie at night .
cabbed home .

ytd he didn't call me .
again , luckily i didn't wait as i was damn bloody tired .
slept right after mai put down the phone around 2 plus .


today , mother didn't wake me up early in the morning with her screams .
coz she knew i was tired bout ytd .
woke up at 10 plus coz he called me .
die suke tau call bile org tgah tido .
*Suke eh kau kacau org tgah tido , b ! :@ !
then tibe2 he tengking2 at me .
wah , blood naek sial .
mcm nak letak je tu phone , tapi tak letak lah .
i was fucking angry luh . nak tengking balik kat die , nnty lagy terok .

but in the end , around 11am gituk , he msged me saying sorry .
he was too stressed out .
haiyer , me tak pasal .
vent lah your anger banyak2 at me . coz i understand you're having a major problem now .
and i'm the one who will lend my ears to listen to your probs and try to help you solve it out .
dekni tsunami uh kdg2 .
aiyoooo .
takp , understanding .


went ntuc with momma to buy some groceries .
told her i feel like eating mee pok dry .
so bought the ingredients and some salads , fruits and fruit juices .
headed to mac for a cup of cappuccino , fries and hot fudge .
i only drank a cup of cappuccino while mum ate fries , hot fudge and medium cappuccino .
had a great talk with momma .
stopped at OCK to buy some food for dad and one On-stick sotong .
after that , homed .


talk talk with dad and mom .


tmr , will be heading to mai's crib to finish up our holiday assignments .



currently chatting with yan and downloading videos into my psp .
i can't wait for tmr !
i miss my girlfy !
huhu !





B , bile kau nak jumpe aku sia !
cb .
ahaha !









" you know , you're just a great liar . your words are vanished into thin air alr . have you forgotten EVERYTHING ? "

momma is in the hospital now and i'm at home to rest for a while .
she has to stay 8 hours at the hospital first so that doc can confirm whether or not she's suffering from that illness .
i'm going back to SGH at about 5 plus , alone .
so if momma has to be admitted , i'll be staying overnight there .
no point stying home coz , NO ONE IS AT HOME .
how great .
called brother to inform him and he told me to call him if there's anything .

reached home around 12 plus with dad .
he played the comp while i knocked off on my bed .
i was damn bloody tired and sleepy due to the late night call .
woke up at 7.30 today and went out at 8 .
maunye tk ngantok .
slept till 3 plus and jo called me .
he say he wanna meet me but i told him i can't .
he whined . mati2 nak jumpe . but still i say i can't .
sanggup plak tu nak turon SGH lepas keje . ish !
we'll meet some other day wokey .

last night convo was funny .
he used this languange to me ,


HIM : B , aku nak jumpe kau la / B , kau dah kenape ? / B , kau nak taplek aku ? and etc .


i found it kinda funny and irritatiing , i tell you . hahha !
ade ke bobal nan aku kasar gini mcm .
ish !



we talked alot and laughed alot .
mai called me ytd , i think ?
eh noo .
she didn't .
ade appointment nan SHAM lah tuuuu . ahah !




i miss ffeeeeeeeee :{
i miss mai toooo :{
efa punnnnnn :{

i miss ffe and mai coz they're the ones yang slalu aku dpt interact well with .
i miss efa , my donkey coz cam dah lame tk bully die ;p
meet up soon kay .
tgok keadaan .
pape lau aku kene stay kat hospital , korang turon sane laaaaa kay .


father's sleeping and i'm alone . chatting with raihan currently .

the guy who's been wanting to know me kept on calling me since yesterday and it damn fucking irritating .
he called me when i was at the hospital , busy talking to the nurse about my mom's condition and he called .

ME : HELLO .
HIM : HELLO . NIY MIRA EH ?
ME: UH , NIY MIRA .
HIM : NIY SAPE ? (bodoh kan tanye lagik ?)
ME : MIRA LAH !
HIM : OHKAY . INI BUDAK SMLM UH . CAMNE U ? BOLEH KENAL2 TK ?
ME : HAIYO . TGOK LAH CAM MANE . CAN YOU LIKE PLEASE STOP CALLING ME ?
HIM : OH WHY CAN'T I CALL YOU ? (with that tak-bersalahnye-voice)
ME : LOOK , I'M DAMN FUCKING BUSY NOW AT THTE HOSPITAL OKAY .
HIM : ABEH ?
ME : SO CAN YOU PLEASE STOP CALLING ME ! YOU SEE , I'M BUSY OKAY . I'M SORRY .
HIM : ALA , OKAY LUH .


wah . irriTETEK siak aku .
then i think he felt bad and he msged me around 2 plus saying ,

" Hey . i noe u irritated psl i kol2 . sry . tdi i nak add u pt friendster tpy tkble , tktau asl , under maintainence ke ape uh . soooo , how ? "

-.-

i didn't even bother to reply him .
why should i ?
don't even wanna know other guys for now .
coz i know , the path will go the other way round if wrong actions are taken .
why should i let him know me ?
well , somehow i can't rmb giving my number to someone named , Wan biol :S
he said he got my num from him .
ala , whatever lah kan .
i don't even care from who you got my number .
i'll be your friend unless you show me how good you are .
okay , deal ?
(:










" love is a very painful thing . "

yesterday i was at home .
woke up at 9 plus due to mom and jo's call .
he called me and say , "BANGUN BACEN ! DAH PAGY !"
i was like , "aiyooooo . so early sia . i wanna sleep moreeeee ."
before that he msged me also .
"BANGUN ! DA PAGY ! HAHA !" , that was what i received . i read it and continued sleeping .
HAHA !
had family bonding since everyone was at home .
went out to central in the morning with family .
mother had to go clinic .
brother and i wonder off at 7-11 at the petshop while waiting for mom and dad .

doctor referred mum to the hospital , A&E .
but mom didn't wanna go hospital ytd .
instead , she'll be going tmr with me , of course .
doctor suspected something . so thats the reason why she has to go hospital to confirm whether or not she's suffering from that sickness .

jo told me he'll go crazy coz i won't be able to meet him . AHAHHA !
saje tah , jo ;p !
he told me to take care of mom properly or else he'll smack me .
lol ! ish , takotnye ;p
so , if mother is admitted , i'll be staying over there .
since i'm the only one having hols , i'll be taking care of her .

today also didn't go out . i helped mom with house chores .
jo called me last night till 2am i think and he has to put down coz he's meeting his members .
today woke up around 10 plus and mother called me for breakfast .
after breakfast , watched singpore true ghost stories with mom and dad .
at 3 plus , i helped mom with house chores .
i was vacuuming the house when i checked my phone that there was 1 miss call .
it was jo .
he called back around 5 plus like that .
that point of time , i've just eaten my flu medicine .
it made me dizzy .
beh skali he called .
so talked with him till 5 plus to 6 gitu and i told him i wanna rest and further more he wants to bathe .
put down , i plugged in my earpiece and listened to edwards lullaby .

mom woke me up for dinner .
i ate alot of veggies today . coz i wanna be strong ;D
after dinner , bathed , smoke and watched some drama's with mom .



currently chatting with aubrey , AIDIL , and waiting for mai to finsh her bath .
;D








anw , i wanna watch TRANSFORMERS !
who's on for it ?
text me !
;D

lepas kite nye 'JOGGING' .

Ffe's shot .

Kay sup !





i went out early in the morning today .
ytd conference with my 2 sweethearts till 2 plus .
mai had to go off first so i and ffe continued talking till 3.30 plus .
told him later i will call back when my mum go work .
in the end , i msged him saying that i wanna go sleep as i needa wake up 6.30 and meet him at 7 at bishan mrt station .
awal kape !
this time round , i reach first !
then kite g kite pey 'JOGGING' .
we slacked under block 191 at bishan .
he lectured me alot smpai telinga pun nk dekat pecah . fuhh !
then mojojo called me with his bacen voice . die aru angon tido .
lucky i didn't wait for his call last night .
we slacked till 12 plus and we made a move .
we both took train .
we were damn bloody tired and sleepy .
and somemore , we have to meet again at 4 .
i didn't get to rest much coz the minute i reach home , i bathe , and straight on the comp .
co-incidentally , mojojo was online . very hard to see him online .
so chat with him and mai sekali .
something happened tho .
it made my chest hurts alot :{


at 3.45pm , i made a move .
took 269 to mai's crib .
called ffe 2 times , didn't answer . so i knew he's sleeping .
i came earlier . so mai and i went for a walk to get ice-creams .
she made me go up-hill and down-hill .
gerek gituk kan mai !
then in the end , we headed to 7-11 and then to mac .
smthg happened in mac and fuhh ! mai reporter sia g bilang die :{
nasib die tk turon !
grr !

mai blanja me hot fudge sundae .
i gave a hard fucking stare on that so-not-handsome-mat .
but smthg funny happened in mac too lah .
you know i know luh kan mai ;p
HHAHAHAH !
around 5 plus , ffe finally came .
so we started to settle down and get to work .
*ehem*
around 8 like that , me and ffe made a move .
headed to amk hub .
fatehr said he wanna transfer money to my bank to repair my psp but in the end tak .
ish !
ffe bought jolly shandy and shared with me .
headed to some block to smoke .
he gave me a box of 5 viceroy ciggs ;DDDD
hahahah ! best kape .
i owe you alot kay , nabei .

shook hands and went home .
oh yeah , after we finished our work , me and ffe fought in mai's house .
he irritated me so much .
kept on scaring me .
so after we finished our work , i grabbed his neck and tickled him till he went beserk !
smpai mai yang tk bersalah pun kene !
hahahahaha !
kekek sia .




had few probs with comp just now and i swear i'm so pissed .
ffe said he wants the 5 ciggs to last within 2-3 days .
and i said , " NO PROBLEM !;D "
conferencing with that 2 sweethearts again later .




anw , thanks ffe for offering me to send me home {:
but its okay , aku dah big girl ;p
HAHAHA !








MIMPI MANIS !










love , i'm missing you like hell .

hahahha ! . okay this really made me have my mood back a lil , at least .

i was webcamming with aidil and aubrey wanted to webcam too .
so he invited me .
i was having a huge headache and wasn't in a mood .
just right after his picture was loaded , i looked at him , HAHAHAHAHAH !
i laughed like nobody's business till aidil said , " asal nan kau ? "
i showed him the photo and he laughed hard too okay !
hahah !






webcam lagik aub ? ;p

cute eh muke aidil ? HAHAHAHHAHAHA !







currently webcamming with this aidil .
kekek ah .
die pey pose skit pey cute .

talking bout web camming , i miss web camming with mojojo .
he will never fail to smile when we webcam .
gerek giler .
i miss the kids that used to disturb him while we're webcamming .
HAHAHA !
later he merajok with me coz i layan the kids more .
then tros die sroh bdak2 tu lyn seh .
the budak2 type also i don't understand .
cam siak kan .

aubrey merajok with me coz i never webcam with him but i webcam with aidil .
hahahahaha !
last time i webcam with you alr what aub .
now aidil's turn lah ;p
today aub ajak me out to marina but i told him i need to stay home and i was so damn bloody tired luh .

went to psp shop just now to repair my psp .
i got a special price as i'm a regular customer there ^^
baekkkkk kapppeeee ;p


i'm patiently waiting for ppl to call me {:










kay , aku nk bobal nan aku nye belo tu .
ciao .

okay lah , i continue nan my story smlm .





okay so he shared with me his probs and i lend my listening ears to it .
it was damn bloody hot and he kept on moving around coz he was on the hot side and i was on the shade side .
kirekan he wants to be gentlemen gitu lah kan .
so he tahan the hotness smpai tk lei tahan .
tangan die gatal lah kana asik peel the dry skin on one of his tattoo .
there's one where his hand bleed coz he asik peel peel peel .
alot of blood oozed out .
*tu lah ! pasang lagik !
he suggest to sit somewhere else but there were red ants .
i quickly turned back and sit at the same place but on the hot side .
i was being such a good person to let him sit on the shady side .
i tahan the hotness , fuhhh . boleh terbakar siak badan .
so , he said , lets walk around the park and then head to mac .
i said okay .

we walked and walked and finally reached mac .
got him a drink and we started talking bout school and talents .
i was really facinated with his stories !
i mean , argh ! he wasted his golden opportunities !
i took out a piece of paper and asked him to write .
his handwriting , alahai , cute giler .
hahaha !
so we slacked at mac till 6 plus to 7 .
then we headed back to park to see the sky .
it's our hobby now lah kan {:
today we managed to find alot of stars !

there's one time when i was searching for stars , he was like " tu kan ade 3 stars tuu ! "
i was like , " where where where ? "
he pointed again his hand to the sky and he was actually trying say that the stars were his tattoo .
ape lagik , kene taplek uh nan aku .
hahahahah !
so we watched the sky till 8 plus and i made a move .
he send me .



and home sweet home .







today , i woke up at 2 plus . fuhh ! gerek .
coz ytd he called me till 5.30 and i told him i'm sleepy .
we talked nonsence i tell you .
hahah !

at least , i'm glad to hera him laugh and smile .
rather than he is always in his sad voice .
his laughters , hahaha , can make me laugh jugak sia .
tsk !


not going out today as i'm super duper tired !
asik kluar aje .
beh go home late .
penat jugak tau !
i wanna meeeeet maiiiii laaaaa !
and ffe too !
aku rindu niy dua badak ! ;p

YO !


okay , i've been going almost every day lately and get back home late .
but today , i went home early .
mum was alone at home and she wants me to be home early .

mojojo got problem and he needed someone .
so yeah . i was there for him .
knowing he'll always be late , i went out late also lah kan .
went out around 3 and i walked to ang mo kio park siol .
dah smpai , ingat die ade tau .
sapp ! kosong lah sia tempat tu .
dah lah i wear long sleeve . black colour plak tu .
sot uh kan .
then tunggu 15 minutes gituk , die dtg , abeh tersengeh .
siak eh . ahahah !

then dok dok , he share bout what happened ah .
we got so fucking hot de to the weather and we decided to head to amk park nye mac to talk instead .
i got to know alot of things !
fuhh .
hahaha !






aku penat uh mau update nari .
sok i continue kay ?






MIMPI MANIS ! ;D







to you : glad you tegor-ed me {:

i seriously wonder ,




WHO IS THE CALLER WHO HAD ALWAYS BEEN CALLING ME AND PUTTING DOWN THE PHONE THE MINUTE I SAID 'HELLO' ?



it's seriously driving me crazy figuring out who is it okay .
could you have manners to at least reply my 'HELLO' ?



:(

Apologies for not updating yesterday .
i'm kinda worn out when i get back home and i'm not at home most of the time .

so YESTERDAY ,


i went out at 3.40plus . the plan was to meet that mojojo at amk mrt station at 3.45 pm .
but knowing that he'll be late , i went out slightly later .
nasib keluar lmbat .
sui sui die pun smpai amk station biler aku dah smpai .
meet alr , we headed to amk inter to board 269 to mai's house .
reach alr , waited for mai under her block .
smoke with mojojo first .
then mai came down and talk2 with us .
soon , the 3 of us went up to mai's staircase to lepak .
at about 5 gituk , i ajak mojojo go amk park lepak .
mai can't go coz got her dad .
so mojojo and me made a move and headed to amk park on foot .
i recalled back the path me and ( insert name here ) used to go from yio chu kang swiming comlpex to mai's house .
and eventually , i could rmb the way (:
thanks to ( insert name here ) , i could trace back the steps we took .
reach amk park alr , we didn't get lost .
we walked pass the pond then fianlly to the point where we have to climb up the flight of stairs .
i thought it was a short flight of stairs but when i got a better look of it , my eyes poped out and my mouth hanged open .



ME: alah ! no hal punya luh nk naik tangge . bknnye banyak ! ( muke step power uh gituk )
HIM: ah yelah tu ! macam paham !
ME: (after i saw how high it was) KIMAK ! BNYKNYE STEPS NK KENE NAIK !
HIM: tau pun !



tapi still , we reach till the top and find somewhere to sit and rest .
it was tiring okay .
i was wearing 3/4 sleeve somemore and with jeans !
bloody hot . but luckily , it was nearing to night time .
so we spend our time talking bout our lives , talk bout people .
when it was alr dark , we look at the sky .
we tried to find stars . hahaha !
i once told him , " i love looking up at the sky . it gives me peace , makes me smiile and makes me think positive . "
so i shared my hobby with him .
the sky was wonderful .
red sky .
we managed to find only 2 stars in the sky .
pathetic eh .
he said he wanted to find the moon coz it's much more cool .
but i protest ;p
something happened while we were talking ...
i suddenly cried ..
thanks mojojo for comforting me .. (:
we lepak there till 10 and decided to make a move .
we saw alot of (ehem ehem) things while on the way out . HAHA !

then he called me at 5 am plus in the morn again and i was like > =.=
so tired and sleepy sia ..
knock back off at 6 am till 3 going to 4 plus pm ;DD
gerek pe !






so TODAY ,



planned to meet mai as to accompany her to meet yan .
but in the end yan cancelled the plan as he had smthg on .
mai sedih , i know .
then i msged mai uh . since yan tk jadi , i'm not going over her house today coz i was sooooo tired and sleepy .
sorry eh mai . tmr i come over .
msging Aubrey now and chatting with mai .
my Darling aubrey bobal mepek eh !
hahahaha !
so long never msg each other eh aub .
well , we can now .
right classmate ? ;D


tmr maybe i go support aubrey for his socc match .
but no promises kay , aub ;p







kay aku nak layan minachi aku ;D
















to YOU : you will always be my sweetest memory .

okay , aku jsut woke up from sleep .
mojojo made me wait but in the end he didn't call me .
walau .
marah niy marah niy ! ;@


haha , i waited till 5 am plus and i decided to give up waiting and go to sleep .
then ffe plak kacau . die g call telling me that they're going over to amk to meet me and mai smuer before he and zan g chalet .
sweet kape kawan aku niy .
hahaha !!
itu namenye tk lupe one another .

smlm i talked with mai .
and i said this .
*FFE , BACE TOL2 EH !



ME : mai , aku rindu plak nan si badak boiboi tu . cam da lame tk jumpe die .



tgok , aku rindu eh ! aku tau uh ko tk rindu aku kan ffe kan .. cibai .
ahaha !


and yeah , since after my broke up , i've been receiving calls from someone but when i said 'HELLO' , the person puts down the phone .
it really makes me wonder who the person actually is ..
sape ???

:|

Me and Nabil are doing fine now . AS IN KAWAN okay .
we talked nicely and stuffs .
well , i know it takes time lah kan ?
i need that too and so do you {:
i'll always be here when you need me .
don't say you're not my friend coz everyone whom i know is my friend (except for some) .
so , you're one of my friend okay {:

went over to aunts house , i msg with mai .
talked bout tmr's plan .

mojojo say he's coming down to amk to meet me tmr .
at least tk bored luh kan aku .
hahaha . we had this convo every night .


ME : if i go clementi to meet you , i get to kacau you like hell .
HIM : eh you rabak pe . takp , tak tkot .
ME : Step tk takot jer . but f you tron amk pun , you kene kacau ah !
HIM : eh siak ah . mane fair seh !


gerek uh kacau die .
hahahahah ! suke bully die . since he always bully me kan kan kan !
now my turn !
*evil laughters*


today tk tau luh eh die call ke tk coz ade prob skit kat uma die .
leks kay mojojo . tkmu stress .
take a chill pill , sit back and relax ah kay .
i'm here if you wanna mengadu {:




Mai tu kan , die in love love love !
die tk sabar jumpe yan .
and i hope yan could confirm with her when to meet so that i could teman mai .
i won't ever let mai go alone for first meet ups .
ade je pape jadi kat die .
tknk siul .
aku love dieeeeeee . nnty pape jadi kat die , tkd orang nk bisingkan aku ;p
kan mai kan ;D








- wei , rindu uh siul ..

So yesterday , i ton again with mojojo till 6.45 am again .
this time round , he didn't fall asleep .
i'm so good luh coz when my eyes were so heavy , i told him i wanna sleep .
at least we said goodbye tau !
lau die , hmpfh , tros ngorok , tk ckp bye tk ckp ape .
ahah !

but he called me so late luh last night .
around 3 plus he called me for while . then he said when he reach home , he'll call me .
so waited till 5 plus am then he called me .
lame siul aku tunggu .

within that hour , i plug in my earpiece and blast a little too not over you song .
kept on repeating it till i fell asleep .
then i got a nightmare ..

it was super scary .
i woke up the minute i got so scared .
and then coincidentally mojojo called .
phew . ade gak teman .





talk till my eyes cannot tahan .
after we put down , sap ! tros gi lala land siak !
woke up at 9 plus due to mom .
she woke me up to have breakfast with family .
kimak , sot sial .
mate maseh tgah stim siul .

bgon , mandi , makan , then msok bilik , tido jap .


anw , i received a Direct Admission for Hger Nitec from ITE .
geeeekkkkkk ! o.o !
they're offering me for higer nitec .
stll considering whether to apply .



maybe i will ;D



i'm sure the rest of you got recieve the ITE letter luh kan .






anw , i'm going off to my aunts place .



ciao !

seriously ..
i feel so bad bout what happened .
the words he cursed himself is soooo painful to my ears and its mingling in my mind every now and then ..





i'm sorry mojojo :(

ingat tak this note holder ?
it was the most treasured souvenir you gave me ..







today the peeps actually planned to go to mai's crib to slack again .
but mother has plans . so i can't go .

yesterday , believe it or not , i slept at 7 am !
mai actually called me around 11 plus going 12 like that .
then the mojojo called me 30-45 mins after mai called .
so mai put down and i talk with that mojojo .
had to put down thrice coz of his bro's tagging device thingy .
at least he called me back right .

so bobal craps .
crap and crap , gado and gado till 6.45 am .
bile time 6.45 tu kan , tibe2 senyap tau .
then i was like " HELLO ! BANGUN LAH ! "
no replies . hati hot siul . hahah !
he say " okay pe . make that as your past time . "
ah yelah eh .
dah penat kejotkan die , still tk bagon , i just put down the phone .
geram seh !
but cannot blame him luh coz die teman me till wee hours siul .
kesian die .
HAHAHAHA !


then mother plak spoil . she screamed at me to get up at 9 plus to 10 .
kiwak , sot sial .
wake up , bathe , watch drama , eat then slowly kol 12 lebih gituk , masok bilek , sapp ! tros landing uhs !
lading till 2 plus , ffe plak call .
haha , coz i never reply his msgs .
die call , bobal jap . then i told him i was very sleepy and i wanna sleep .
put down .
few mins later , orang call agik .
it was mojojo .
he called me to say sorry .
hahhaa , nah , its okay lah alright {:


so talked to him till 3 plus and i have to put down coz mother sroh buat bende .
went online .
then skali die pun online .
pe lagy , bobal mepek ahs ;p



lau tidak today that mojojo nak tron amk meet me .
but niy mak lah ade plannnnn :{
takp , monday or tues kay , mojojo ;D





Mojojo , i know once in a while , you'll be reading my blog .
if you happen to read my blog .
i've got something to say ..

i'm sorry kay bout ytd's argument ?
seriously , i didn't mean it uhs .
smpai u curse yourself . i feel bad .
till now i still do .
sorry kay ?














" i'm taking baby steps . "

okay ! as promised . i'll elaborate on ytd , today .



ffe msged me to meet at 10.45 am .
so woke up around 9 plus gituk to pack my bag and stuffs .
skali , mai msged me around 10.30 to meet her now coz brg bnyk .
okay , so i went out to meet her .


rang ffe to inform that i'm meeting mai . then he was like so panic luh coz dorang blom buy my cake .
i told him i'm alr nearing amk hub and he told me to meet him at 77th street .
after , we waited for mai to come and proceed to mac .
i waited for them at the mac while they go and buy my cake .
zan came sooner after that .


after mai and ffe got back , we waited patiently for efa .
it was alr 11 plus and we're still waiting for her .
and in the end we got a call from her saying that she'll be late and she'll go there by herself .
so we were like , " oh okay .. "
took 13 near the mosque and mai sat with me .
i slept halfway through the journey as i didn't sleep the whole night .


12 plus to 1 , reached ecp .
found our spot under the tree and settled ourselves down .
da itu , me zan and ffe gi toilet tuka baju .
alamak , i slenge uh g bwk baju colour putih . tsk !
segala-galanya boleh nmpk . hahaha !
we makan first before ape2 .
mak ffe masak mee , fuhh ! sedap . tapi i can't eat . i just don't know why ..
i ate a lil and i put it away as in , in case of i'm hungry , i'll take the same packet .
in the end , zan yang habeskan my mee .


frankly , i didn't eat that much .
drink and drink and drink aje .
seriously , i don't know why i tk rase lapar .
pelik lah kan ?


aku kene S-A-B-O terok2 .
gerek eh ?! gerek ! bukan korang pe yang kene .
efa smpai kol 3 lbh gknye .
then we potong cake .
hmm , itu part luh aku kene terok !
smuer spread cake kat muke aku .
efa pun kene skali . HAHAHAHA ! tk pasal2 jadi mangse siak .
then nk wash face , no clean water . so have to walk all the way to mac to wash our faces .
kimak , paisey sial .


and so , dorang cmpak aku kat laut . GEREK PE !
cbong .
sakit sial mate nan hidung .
tk pasal uh eh !
da itu , KENE TEPONG PLAK !
fuhhh .
hancur rambut aku !
again , aku tk pasal .
then kene cmpak sand agik . this time si 2 jantans tu yang buat kat aku .
sibei .
i feel so shiok to get into the laut .
coz my type penggeli nye org .
so i was actually geli to step into the water . but after a while . aku yang shiok sendiri .
haha !


then naek shore , rest . isap rokok .
wahhh ! sedih weii . rokok gua da bes on the very same day !
so kene sroh ffe supply aku .


then jo came .
aku dah ckp , dek niy tk sah lau tk kacau aku .
since his birthday was on the 5th june , i sobo-ed him luh .
belated nye sabo .
i spread my cake on him .
and guess what lah , i used my figers and he used his whole hand . cam siak kan ?
first shot , kene nan ffe .
i wiped my face alr .
then skali , 2 people hold my hand and SAP ! jo hentam cake kat muke aku .
lau sikit takpe . niy mcm satu genggam of cake die campak .
fuhyooo . muke lawa sial .
aahhaha !



then jo nk sabo me again to throw me inside the water .
HAHAHAHHAA !
niy part funny sial .
ppl were dragging me to throw me in the water .
since jo was thelast to arrive , they let him SABO ME !
time die nk campak aku kat dlm laut , die kene tolak masok laut jugak !
HAHAH !
and fyi , he didn't even bring extra shirt or whatsoever .
HAHHAHAHA !
niy smuer ffe nye idea ah ! zan g tolak die .
tu lah , nak sabo me sommore . sediri yang kene !
puas hati kan ? die nk sabo aku , die kene sabo dari org plak ;p !



we started packing around 7 .
we bathed and all . were ready by 7 plus gituk .
then jo kesian , tkd baju extra kan . so hahaha ! die kesejukkan .
ffe gave him towel .
after , we seperated from jo and he's staying there longer .
took bus 13 home .

tired giler babi .
reach home . play comp jap .
then talk with mai and ton till 4 plus with jo .
die mlm2 tkd keje , mkn bnyk bende .
hahahah !





seriously , i had a blast luh kan !





today , i'm going over to mai's house to slack .
mak die masak mee soto .
kimek , tk sabar sia nk g .
currently chatting .
later nk bathe then ciao ;D








have a great day ahead kay , people ! ;D

MY PRESENT ! UNIQUE KAN ! ;D

MY BIG BIRTHDAY CARD ! CREATIVE KAN DORANG ! ;D

these are the 2 people who gives me strength to move on ..

once my babe , always my babe .

lau tak RETI BAHASA lagik , kite K-A-W-A-N {:

kesian ffe penat . huhu !

They were the ones who was there for me when 'HE' left me ..

WELLL ! i had a blast today at E.C.P !


tmr i elaborate more kay ?







today is suchaaaaa special dayyyy man !
so much of sabos , laughters , stupid jokes . hahaha !





stay tuned kay ? {;