this boy , i've been knowing/loving/trusting him for a very long time ..



1 year and a month , i've been with this guy above .
he can be bloody heartbreaker at times , a great liar , a painful thing to your eyes when we fought .

as i'm writing , my hands tremble , my tears starting to fill my eyes ..
i've hear numerous rumors about what that guy said behind my back ..
the rumors will hit me especially when we're fighting .
it makes me cry , it hurts me very much .

somehow boyf , i know , you don't feel the love anymore .
you don't even feel the excitement for our 1 year 1 month anni ..
you said you've deleted all your old posts ..
do you know how i feel bout it ? ..
it makes me think that our memories are gonna be gone forever in you ..

you lied , i lied .
i gave attitude , you gave yours back .
you get jealous easily , so do i .

and also you said in your post ytd , " Everyone will change in the future , even i change too " .
perhaps , i'm glad you know you've changed .

yeah , we don't talk much , we don't meet so often like how we used to .
do even realize how you're putting me in ?
it's always , your friends , or either you're sick or you're lazy .
when i'm seriously trying hard to meet you coz i don't wanna be accused like how u accused me for not meeting you often .
and you know i hate that BLOOODY ASSHOLE .

but its no use me saying i hate this i hate that .
coz nothing will work . no reactions .
i rmb how you used to tell me " ade kawan pun , bknnye layan i . "
somehow , its like when you have no one with you , you turn to me .
yes , i know that is what i am for .
but pls , don't only turn to me when you have no one .
it's frustrating .

worst , we are like STRANGERS in school .
it hurts .

i just have no more ideas how to explain to you ..

this relationship has been ... so down since after our 1 year ...
is our happiness supposed to be only before our 1 year anni ?
after 1 year , no happiness ?





Listen to your heart . Do what it says ..




Don't make me suffer like this till forever ..





But still , I'm here to wish you a .. Happy 1 year 1 month anni .. (:
may god bless us and forgive all our sins ..
as i've promised , i'll always be loving you ..




well , see ya soon ..