at last blogger is alright .
of not i'll feel like cursing blogger alot of unpleasant words .
tsk !


i'm gonna be sick soon .
my voice is a lil bit rocky , i'm having flu , i'm having a massive headache & bla bla .
kene jangkit s makcikeneneh tu gknye . hahha !

we had malay oral at first toa payoh sec today .
one word : SCREWED !
fuck oral , everyone doesn't seem to understand and go smoothly for convo .
the passage was easy but the convo was so fucked up .
they used so the chim2 words .
i had to ask the cikgu to re-phrase the sentence 3 times !
but the cikgu's were nice .
i kept on "err-ing" . felt so nervous .

called sham when i reached ftpss and he wished me luck .
;D
then after oral , ffe/zan/azwan/rash waited for me and the rest at the canteen .
msged2 with sham while waiting .
so sad today don't have a study date with sham .
mcm da lame tk kacau die gituk .
rindu ! ;D HAHAHAH !


lepak-ed after oral .
homed after a while of lepak .
thats when i stated to get sick .
tsktsktsk .
homed , bathe , eat , took medicine , sapppp ! landing on my bed .
i thought i'll wake up around 8 or 9 plus .
but ! in the end i woke up around 10 plus going 11 .
first thing , check phone .
got 1 msg ajerr . tu pun dari sham .
cepat2 reply him coz he msg me around 6 plus ? 7 ?
got up from bed , wash face , go kitchen and find food .
watched tv for while and on the comp .

YEAY ! 31ST IS COMINNNNNNGGGGGGG !
haryy potter movie date is soo soooonnn !
somehow , i feel quite nervous bout it .
first movie date with someone who was a stranger at first but now who's a very close friend to me .
geees ! ;D





okay , i really have to stop here . sham's calling me soon .






NIGHTS !

was on hiatus for a few days .
i'm damn bloody busy and lazy to bloggg .

well , i've been enjoying life and studies lately .
all thanks to the motivation and support from friends and also , Sham {:
they've been there for me when i feel like giving up .
had comb. science test today .
chem was a lil bit confuse but physics was okay .
just that i forgot some formulas .

today was the first day of afternoon assembly for semester 2 .
ever since the shits happened , i've never wanted any assembly's .
but in the end , i was enjoying myself during assembly as there was a performance for us . it was so damn bloody fucking hilarious .

after , followed by mr boo's talk .
it's interesting .
whatever he said , i think it's also applying on me coz thats what i'm going thru .


" I ask for strength , and was given difficulties to make me strong .

I ask for wisdom , and was given problems to solve .

I ask for love , but i troubled people for help . "


there was more but i couldn't remember .
i felt like crying when i read those sentences .
idk why but it just reflects the situation i'm in previously .


me and aubrey had fun in class today .
we seem to talk so much .
hhaha !
we draw all sorts of things on the newspaper and eventually started to write our loved ones names on my black paper-ed diary .


school ended i was so fucked up with parents .
i'm tired and yet i have to do all sorts of things for them .
it's frustrating enough .
i feel like running away !
msged sham on the way back home .
he tried cooling me down a lil .
thanks anw {:

mum is on leave for a weeekkkk !
helll !
and nw she's out to tampines . don't know for what .
and i'm alone -.-


right , i needa go ff now . father has been bugging me to load his friggin' youtube vids .
sigh .

today there'll be harry potter and the goblet of fire .
yeay ! ;D



today was supposed to follow parents to some wedding ceremony .
wanted to go but think again , feel so lazy .
and it's gonna be troublesome having to wear high heels and baju kurung with this kinda weather .
currently i've got like nothing to do .
just chatting with sham .
confronted mai few mins ago as she was pretty down .


starting from tmr , i'm gonna be very busy .
packed with LSP's .
erh , i think i've said it in the previous posts ehhh ? ;p
next next week will be my movieeeeee dateeeee ;D
i'm really impatient to watch half blood prince .
last outing before i get busy with prelims which starts on the 12th of aug .
how stressful can that be .
but what to do , have to endure it .
just 2 more months and after i'm done with N level , i'm frrrreeeee !
i'll get 3 months of break .
can enjoy as much as i want ;D
father said so ;D
bia susah skrng eh .

watched few videos bout gliding and also watched mind your language .
kekek nk mampos .
hahaha !!


mai kurang asam seh .
she go posts bout the nonsense i said that night .
hmfph !
majok 10 minit nan kau ah !
malu sia member .
hha !


i think , i'm gonna go watch more videos .





sayonara !

i'm not gonna update my blog everyday like i used to .
but i will really try my best not to keep this blog dead .
never ever ever ;D
things has been normal now .
ffe started to talk to me as usual . so i didn't feel awkward .
now i had a fucking tiff with zan .
always a fucking useless bastard . useless shit .
told mama not to believe him anymore .




oh anw , i've been busy with studies , friends , and outside friends .
uhm , outside friends not really lah . i prioritize my friends first which is my cliques .
to ffe , i'm really really sorry but you must know my explanation for it .
i kept it to myself coz i felt it was so private and afraid to tell .
but i told mai in the end coz as a girl , she knows my feelings better .
well , friday , again i had a study date with sham .
met at 77th street together with mai .
teman-ed mai till she board her bus .
then me and sham headed to the bus stop and took 159 to tpy .
from there , we walked to bradd mac .
sat exactly at the same spot as last week .
studied maths and physics .
like last week , i bought fries and he bought coke .
around 6plus to 7 , we moved out from bradd mac .
withdrew cash as father banked in cash for me .
told sham i need ciggies . so he bought for me ;D
like so , YEAY !
slacked near bradd westlake .
see cats and dogs . ahahahahahah !
then thats when the commotion starts .
i'm laxy to say it out here coz it'll just bring me anger and more anger .
next week , i can't meet sham as i'm very packed with LSP's and i'm having mother tongue oral at first toa payoh sec on friday .
how leceh can that be ..


i'm currently patiently waiting for 31st to come .
i wannnnna watch harry potter and the half blood prince .
double-date ? HAHA ! ;D
let see how fun double-date is .
cliques , if there's still transformers on cinemas , we'll catch it soon okay .


i'm borrrreeeeed .
mai's not online . hmpfh !
i'm just msging with sham .
gonna catch harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban later on ;D




letme see if i have anything else to say ehh ..




hmm .





there's nothing i guess .
maybe , i'll update more tonight if i'm bored .











"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."

i've been even more quieter now .
less entertaining people . for some of them lah ..
i don't know what's happening .
but it hurts me alot .
i'm blamed for something i didn't even do .

and to you , i don't know what's wrong with ya towards me nowadays .
maybe coz of my attitude now which i think makes you feel uneasy .
i apologize for that . i seriously didn't mean to do all this .
i just have to do what's best for me .
it wasn't my intention to break off with him .
what's the point of continuing when i can't ?
love can't be forced .
and i know you care bout me .
but there's no need for your sarcasm .
it's just either you're testing my patience or you want me to feel angry .
that just don't help me to change .
can you please , change the way you advice .
i think i'll be happy and will always look forward to your advices if you were to change the way you advice .
i'm sorry for the wrongs i did .




-






chop chop !


today , did MOE survey .
it's irritating as they're always asking the same question .
18 pages of survey and i did it in 10 mins .
poa lesson was okay , though i felt sleepy at that one point of time .
aubrey kept on shaking me to wake up each time i lay my head on the table .
he's being a good friend , indeed .
i get to understand the current topic we're doing .

physics was so-so .
chem was fun as usual .
why ? coz i'm always beside mai .
i feel very happy and cool down whenever she's with me . together with efa .
they just understand me better .
as my best girls , they understand what i feel better .

now , i know mai's feeling not right .
i was chatting with her and suddenly she was showing me a sad face .
i asked her why but she don't wanna tell me .
she'd promised me tmr she'll tell .
i make sure i will rmb her promise .

to mai : remember , i'm always here for you kay , babe . ily {:













currently chatting with sham and waiting for mai to chat with me .











tmr will be going for study date with sham .
he'd alr warned me to bring my maths textbook coz i forgotten to bring it last week . ahaha !





okay lah , i wanna chat .





ciao .

i feel so different now .
i just feel like i wanna stay away from everyone and scream like nobody's business .
i don't know what my heart is trying to tell .
i tried hard to listen , but to no avail .
it's really frustrating .
my heart seems like it just can't decide .

i wonder what is the cause of this .
and i think i know .
things changed so much after what've happened .
i don't wish to brag .
but it's just the fact .

you changed my life before and now you've changed me again , after .
to me , life now just seems so plain .
Friends had always been there .
i don't know how to repay the deeds they've done .
I regret till now for neglecting them .
i did that w/o thinking just to satisfy someone's heart .
again , i don't wish to brag .
but again , it's just the fact .

each night , i'll look at the stars .
wishing that everything will soon be alright .
in my dreams lately , i've always been dreaming of someone .
but pardon , not 'him' .


his existence in my life now makes me so delighted .
Just what does that shows ? ..



i'm just confused .

things seems so fine but yet it's not .
i've ended it but i know i felt so wrong .
don't say i don't know his feelings . i do know but , i just have to do what's best for me .
i can force myself to go on if i had no faith/strength to continue .
but i know , you wouldn't be like 'him' .
coz i know you before i was with him and even when i was with him .
but for now , lets remain friends .
i'm so sorry once again ..






school has been so hectic .
but still , i'm always sleepy during english class .
aubrey has been helping me to keep me awake during lessons like science and maths .
during l!ve lessons , played Tap Tap on aubrey's phone .
kecoh sak play with itu anak .
it seems that school is getting pretty much more interesting with aub , ffe and zan around me .
but nowadays , have not been having a good mood .
maybe my period is coming soon .
hmm .


even for now , i actually do not have the mood to blog or whatsoever .
just that mai bugged me to update . HAHA !
for her , i will lah kan .










till here okay ?







SWEET DREAMS (:













" My mind & heart are very tired .. How much longer .. ? "

i won't ever forget the times we spent together under the beautiful night sky , counting stars .
it was once my hobby and now i've passed it to you .
do remember bout our times together .
you're great . you were there for me when i needed you .
you don't complain you're sick and tired of me whenever i need you when i'm down .
thanks for everything .
I'm praying for all your health and safety .
thanks for teaching me how to smile , laugh and giving me strength to move on with life .
i'm sorry for all this ..
if you do happen to miss me , i'm just a call away .
just ring me or text me .
i'll be there for you when you need me {:
take care ..








monday is always a tiring day for me .
school ends at 2.30 . perit perit !
today during recess , santhi told me smthg which makes me shock .
so does ffe .
but i'm even more surprised .
hahaha !
in class , msg2 with sham . hahaha !
woke him up today and it was so hilarious !


it seems that there's nthg much i could elaborate bout for today .
i'm just currerntly webcamming with sham and chatting with mai .
hahahha !

I'm realy sorry i made you feel that way about yourself ..
I just think i'm really not ready for this ..
i've once said , lets try out and see how well it goes ..
after 1 month plus with you , i still feel that i'm still not yet ready ..
i've tried hard enough to have faith , to be strong but i just can't .


i realized , after i've broke up with "him" , i'm not myself .
like what my cliques said , i've changed .
i do realized that , people .
cliques has been saying not to be like thiss just because of what happened to me and "him" .
i psycho-ed myself to think positive but still to no avail .
i'm really sorry ..




I just had to do whats best for me ..





I pray hard for you that you'll always be safe and sound and healthy .
don't do stupid things anymore , pleaseee i beg you .
sdo still keep in touch with me .

i'll miss you .

okay , mai has bugged me to update my grandmother stories . HAHA !




where should i start ?
mane korang nak ?
;p





okay , i start with Be Yourself Day okay .




Thursday , 9th July 2009 .

got woken up by that makcikeneneh at 5 am .
my eyes were still =.=
told her that i'm sleepy and delay the meeting time to 6.45 am .
skali si makcikeneneh tu salah dgr as wake me up at 5.45 am .
she called the second time and started yelling so i wake up .
woke up , dah grumpy , scolded my brother for using the toilet so long .
hahah !
cut it short ahhh !
in the end i wore black skirt w/o suspenders .
only mai wore suspenders .
had oral at 2pm . so had to change to school uniform back . babizsszss !
grabbed some bites at the canteen with ffe and zan .
rushed up to c3-03 , the waiting room .
i was the third one to go .
when i was my turn , i swear the table shook like hell .
i was so nervous and i swear i don't get what the hell thhe teacher is trying to say .
she speaks like china women , i tell you .
picture discussion was a shit .
it was a close up picture and there's nthg much to describe .
reading was fine . i was slow and steady .
conversation was so-so .
after oral , i had to rush home to put my bag and go out again to meet my cliques .
i was so friggin tirred i tell you .
morning , i had to rush , after oral also need to rush .
i met zan first at bradd . ffe said he'll be late so we go off first to meet mai and efa at raffles place .
i thought singapore national museum was at raffles but actually it was at dhoby ghout .
lucky i called bro .
so trained down to d.g . met raffe at raffles mrt platform .


da smpai , met father . pass his things and ask him for money . HAHA !
we went to this exhibition where there is alot of designers chairs .
there's one part we enjoyed alot .
we wanted to stay longer but it's closing soon .
mai got hungry , so we walked to p.s .
while otw there , i spotted asyraf .
HAHA !
talk2 with him and we headed to p.s macD .
all of us ate and we sent mai to the mrt station .
the rest of us went to watch the rehearsal of the night festival .
gerek giler but got bored lastly .

8 plus , we made a move .
smoked for while and trained home .

reach home , bathe , SAAAAAAAAAAAP , tros landing kat katil .
kaki longgar nk mampos .
hhaha !

tiring but yet it was a fruitful day (:




Friday , 10th July 2009 .


after school , went home straight with efa .
mai paitao , tk g school .
reach home , bathe and got ready coz i had a STUDY date with sham .
terserempak rash and amin .
then rash bising nk mampos .
me and sham gossiped a lil .
AHHAHA !
was doing english compre using rash's passage and he had to go .
bloody freak .
so had to give him back . i studied chemistry in the end .
did organic bla bla bla lah .
treat sham fries .
and he treat me back drinks . hahah !
thanks yer sham (:
around 7 plus , we headed to apple house to slack and smoke .
talk bout his school life and mine .
8.30 plus , we headed back together taking 88 coz he's heading to downtown .
so i teman him take 88 instead of 159 .


anw , thanks for the souvenir sham !



reach home , bathe , play psp , msg2 ppl , skali tertido .
hahah !


but i received such a bad news on this day .
it broke my heart in to million pieces .
and i just can't take it anymore but to let it go .
i'm so sorry but i just feel i'm not ready to face all this again .


i'm still young and i still wanna enjoy my life like other youths out there .

i'm so sorry ..






Today , 11th July 2009 .


went to sim lim with dad to get something and i helped sham to survery his psp charger and external hard drive .
after survery , dad told me to tell sham to go sim lim with me .
and i was like , " oh okayyyyy . " hahah !
ate at Qi Ji then went home .
singgah psp shop to buy NFS Undercover .
headed home first as dad went to the shop .


bathed , then helped mother in the kitchen to cook chili crab .
ate with family and watched chamber of secrets .

brother is off to thailand today .
and i didn't even know not until dad told me while we're at sim lim just now .
hahah !


he just went off feww mins ago .



currently chatting and watching tveeeeeee ;D



okay , i'm done here .
pictures will be up in an another post .
bersabar kay ;D
















okay MAKCIKENENEH , i've updated everything ;D

gosh , it has been such a hectic week for me .
monday , tuesday , thursday , friday & today , i'm out .
it's tiring but yet it's very fun .
esp m , t , t & f .


oh well , i didn't update bout be yourself day 2009 didn't i ?
haha !
i promise when i'm not lazy tonight , i update bout it .
i'm proud to say that my school hass been publshed in The New paper ytd .
saying that our school is brave to conduct this event despite the H1N1 flu outbreak .
bangga seminit jap .
hahaha !


yesterday i was out with sham again .
we planned to study at bradd mac .
met him at amk mrt station and we trained there together .
skali reach mac alr , saw amin and rash .
we both sat just right behind them .
told rash to lend me the passage paper for english holiday assignment .
but while i was reading the passage , he had to go .
so i have to give him back . grr .
i then studied chem all the way bout the current topic we're studying .





okay . i'll continue later orite .
i gotta go out now .


ciao ppl !

i'm tired . i'll update tmr kay ?

today was a blast .
there's a "blast" and the BLAST .




there wasn't much lessons today .
had so much of free period .
santhi's sick . get well soon , anw {:
mother tongue also takde . so the malays nak g library .
skali out of bound coz reserved for vietnam nye students and hosts .
so me , ffe and zan lei msok .
the rest slacked at the cafe .
had buffet lunch for us .
so kite bedal dulu .
then teacher tnaye whether nk join dorang for city tour .
HIPPO TOUR plak tu .
HAHA !
smuer gelakkan kat ffe sial . hahahaha !
told them i can't .



then go home , bathed , siap2 , kluar .
coz janji efa to go penni with her to get the suspenders .
went out around 3 .
she asked me to wait for her at novena .
tunggu pey tunggu , she msged , " mira ko g penni dulu ah " .
then i was like , " WHAAAATTT ?! ALOOOONNNEEEE ?! "
so i rang ajan to slacked with him kat r.c jap .
we went to pasar malam t buy some food .
si ajan mengidam mcm2 sial .
i just get myself a cup of sweet corn .
slacked kat r.c till 5 .
msged ffe coz i wanna buy ciggs .
met him outside cheers . light up a stick and then i tried calling efa tk dpt dpt .
so i decided to ring Sham to ask him where he is since he told me he's also going penni today .
ask him whether wanna meet .
he agreed and we met at city hall mrt station .
damn , he's so TALLLLLLL o.O
i felt so small . hahah !
so he teman me find the suspenders .
then shop untuk kasut die pulak .
after , i wanna withdraw money coz i don't have any bucks to eat .
carik pey carik , kite dua dah penat .
so slack at the subcourt there .
light up a stick and shared the stick with him .
bobal-bobal , ketawe rabak2 to waste time for while .
then skali mai called me to help efa fork out money for her suspenders .
so said okay .
asked someone where is the atm machine and proceeded there .
dah withdraw , back to penni .
went back to shop .
had to wait so long and sham asked whether we could go down first to search for his bag .
so i said okay and i informed the sales person .
he's so nice lah !
went down , sham had a hard time choosing his bag .
hahaha !
bnyk ketawe sak bile die nk choose .
my stomach hurts alot due to my second laughing gas . HAHA !
we got out of penni around 7 plus .
went to carpark right beside penni to smoke again .
shared with him .
dah abes , we made a move to the mrt station .
he waited till my train arrive and he left .
otp with mai while otw home .



had a great day today , i can say .
though , i was kinda in a bad moood at some point of time .
tapi tkp lah kay , skali skale jer kau uat aku gini ;p
BESOK LUNCH AND DINNER EH PAU !




anw , thanks sham for accompanying me .
lau tak , i think i would have gone crazy !
HAHA !










okay ciao .

if anything happens to me , aku salahkan kau eh , fuck .
aku sanggup go thru niy smuer untuk ko ah kay .
thanks uh kau uat aku gini .
wa tk pasal ah k .






Korang tau carik salah aku je eh ?
salah si budak tu , ko tknk carik ah ?
kiwak . prangai cam sialan sak .





kay skrng aku stop , aku tknk tgok atau dgr si budak tu mulai lagik eh .
fair ?







4 more days and it'll be my 1 month with b .
fast giler nk mampos .
though we've fought alot , we still managed to make stupid jokes and laugh out loud together .
esp on the phone .
my stomach can hurt alot and my jaw too .
hah !


he's my laughing gas man .
;p






otp with mai few mins ago .
now otp with b .
discussing bout the shitzsz that are happening now .
he seems so mad bout it :S
chill kay baby , chill .
(:




ytd i was otp with sham .
kekek giler . he saje je tau call 98.7fm and then dedicate a song , Boom Boom Pow for me .
i didn't manage to tune in to the radio coz i was using my phone .
so sham increased the volume of his radio and let me listen to it together nan die .
kite dengar-dengar , skali die pey convo kluar kat radio .
i was laughing so hard .
die sikit pey tk sabar untuk lagu Boom Boom pow die .
HAHAHA !
yang DJ tu pun kurang asam . you guys should've listen to the convo . ahaha !
we put down around 4 .

i woke him up at 7.10 just to hear die pey morning sickness .
tapi nasib ! die tak angkat phone coz die tarok silent .
hahaha !
takp , kite try esok ;p





today i'm not going anywhere .
i'm dead tired .
and my head hurts alot .
THANKS TO WHO ?
thanks to ffe badak oink oink :@
grr .







kene quarantine gerek giler .
but i've missed out alot of lessons .
thursday is be yourself day .
we , cliques had done our shoppings ytd .
only left with our suspenders .
nvm , we still have time .







and i have oral on thurs . what the blardy fuckzszs .








-4 more days

KAU NAK MULAI LAGIK EH BUDAK !
kimak , kau seriously tknk stop eh kau .





kau nak continue kan .
fine uh siul .
aku on !





eh konek 10cent , kau mg bodoh ah sial .
kau dah tau kau da tk suke aku , break lah bodoh .
in the first place , aku pun dah lame jelak nan kau ah !
tapi sebab dgn kau pey "SWEET TALK" eh , aku stay ah .
aku tk menyesal ah aku kluar nan jantan lain bile aku masih nan kau .
hah , amek kau !
let me repeat that again , AKU - KELUAR - NAN - JANTAN - LAIN bile aku masih nan kau .
bodoh eh kau eh .
tak sangke slame niy aku matae nan orang yang tkd O mcm kau .
AKU TAK PERNAH SROH KAU BELIKAN AKU APE APE . KAU YANG BELIKAN . BODOH -.-
kesian aku tgok kau , sialan .









anw , yo !

today was hmm , a blast i think . haaaaaa .
went out around 12 plus .
met adek mai kat mrt dulu . mai lambat . sal ape ? sal tknk jaywalk . so the bro took the bus first .
mai came a few mins later and we trained to bradd .
met efa there .
AND AND , SURPRISINGLY , EFA REACH FRST LUH SIUL !
i felt like was DREAMING ,i tell you .
ahhaha !
headed to bubble tea shop since mai mengidam caramel choc .
then ffe called to meet him at the shop under his block .
coz i told him i wanna buy ciggies .
da beli , jumpe the rest outside cheers .
waited for zzan , macam biasa , like tunggu PERMAISURI !
janji 12.30 , smpai kol 1.30 .
baby called me while we're waiting for zan .
he told me he wanna meet me .
he can die if he doesn't meet me gtuk . hahah !
zan dah smpai , we proceed to the mrt and headed to penni .
surveyed the baju we want and the suspenders .
but in the end we bought nthg there and we headed to bugis .
thats where smthg bad bad happened .
hmm , i had a very bigg tiff with baby .
HUGE TIFF .
i felt like crying when he sent me this one msg when i was so fucked up with him .
i had no bloody mood .
but when we're in the bus otw back to amk , i msged baby all the way .
we were DEBATING like hell .
but in the end when we're at mai's house , i felt a lil bit better .
ffe hentak my head twice at the edge of the door !
kimak !
but he kena from me in the end jugak .
watched what a girl wants half way and me and ffe went out to burn HIS photo .
kimak , muke mcm *tooooot* when we burnt his face .
hahah !
i have a photo of it but of course , i won't let his reputation go SO DOWN .
pitty him lah kan -.-
whatever .



otp with baby on the way back home .
he said sorry at least for what he'd done .
well , i must say i'm at fault too .




i'm no longer the Mira you used to know .
i've changed back to the old me ..
the old me who's gonna kick ya ass off if you piss me off .
try me .
you wanna get a taste of me eh . bring it on .
don't judge me .
you're no one .
and f you .
get you ass off from my life and myob .







- b , i'm sorry for what i've said okay . ilyvm .
but please don't say you're scared to leave me .
coz i don't believe anymore in those sweet words .
that DOG made me get enough of it .
i'm sorry . i'm not the mira you used to know ..
sorry baby ..
ily and imy ..

today , i pretend i don't know the date .
i filled myself up by msging baby so i won't remember a thing .
i know can do it !
i know i can !


friday , went home around 1 plus-2am .
slept around 3.30 plus am .
then had to wake up at 6.30am .
mum , bro and me got ready by 7 am .
fetched dad .
went over to my uncle's place at woodlands first and had breakfast there .
borak2 and we headed to woodlands checkpoint .
kimakkkkk , jam gile maot sial .
lucky i had my psp with me .
played cake mania till gile , i tell you .
reached jb alr , singgah some kedai to buy kuihs and etc .
headed to my mak long's house to visit .
eat again .
but i didn't eat as i was having a big headache and my eyes were hot .
ate panadol and rest .


after , we headed to Giant to shop for groceries and whatever .
i bought sweet corn as m'sia sweet corns are superb .
share2 with brother .
bought fucking lots of things .
smpai the receipt sikit pey panjang !
hahaha !
made a move to my mak uda's house to give her a surprise visit after shopping .
get to meet myra at last !
rindu giler babi kat cousin aku tuuuu .





6 plus , decided to go home coz father working .
m'sia custom jam giler nk mampos !
so i played cake mania all the way till my eyes got heavy .
was woken up y mum when we've reached our turn to hand our passports to the officer .
woodlands also jam jugak .
i spend my time sleeping .
reach s'pore , took out my phone , text-ed baby and girlfriend .
was very happy to be back to my homeland again !
hahaha !


i was so dead tired ytd .
baby called me in the wee hours but i didn't managed to answer .
i woke up at 3 pm today ! fuhh !
gerek pa ! hahah !
then baby called me when i was eating .
talk2 . and he has to go coz he's with his friend .
but at least he msged me eventhough he's with his friend who's out for home leave .
i miss disturbing him :{
HAHAH !




now i'm just texting with boyf and chatting with yadiy and sham (not mai punye sham eh !)
yadiy and me as usual , talk craps .
sham and me always talk bout transformers and when to watch harry potter .
hahha !
at least i'm not bored .
;D





tmr will be out with my cliques !
yeay !
we're gonna shop till we drop !
i miss all my cliiques ! meet in few hours time yer !










-6 more days .


























*serve you right .*

Supsz .

yesterday was fun .
went out with bro around 10 plus .
he wants to go to his campsite to send his big big bag in his bunk .
so i tagged along since i had nothing to do .
then he told me that i couldn't enter the campsite .
instead, he dropped me off at PIONEER MALL .
huakk !
ahahah ! bnyk2 tempat , pioneer mall sia .
and i talked to baby all the way from amk till pioneer mall .


ME : you dropping me off at where ?
BRO : Pioneer mall's macD .
ME : AH ?! PIONEER MALL ? (laughs while otp with b)
BROTHER : why ? whats wrong with pioneer mall ?
ME : oh ! HAHAHA ! tkd la , tempat tu lah mira jumpe SOMEONE for the very first time and kak ina said he was CUTE . i smiled at him and he just gave me a half-hearted grin !
BROTHER : sape ?
ME : ade lah sesorang tu ^^ .
B : and yeah , the someone is me right . HAHA !
ME : tau tkp !



that was the very first time i saw jo in real life .
that was when i tonned with my cousin and her boyfriend at pioneer mall at about 2 am .
remember i had a wedding ceremony at CCK , my cousin's wedding .
we went there since we were damn hungry and felt like going out .
then , co-incidentally , jo and his friend went in mac and i stared hard at him as i was sure i knew him .
i kept on peeping at him while waiting for my food .
then kak ina said he was cute . HAHAH !
coz at that point of time , he was cute .
with his white singlet and red pants . itu time die masih ade rambot . ahah !
funny luh .


i realise , ytd , i went to all the places i went with baby before .
after pioneer mall , we headed to jurong point .
thats when jo and zan accompanied me to send my bro's uniform .
after , we passed thru clementi .
nasib tk baik we didn't stop somewhere . if not can meet baby .
then we went to amk park's macD for drive-thru orders .




me , baby and mai conferenced otp for the very first time .
kiwak , kecoh kecoh !
dua2 bobal/kutok sal budak2 anugerah .
tapi gerek giler . hahaha !






monday will be heading to bugis with peeps .
shopping shopping smpai giler eh , cliques .
hahaha !










- 7 more days .

SEDAR JUGAK tu budak eh nak stop perang nan aku .
aku ingat bende yang kat kepale otak die tu dah JAM .
haha , you called me an idiot ?
tsk .
you're more like a gullible idiot , man .




Fine if you don't wanna say sorry , asshole .
I believe in K-A-R-M-A .
OPPS , let me tell you the definition if in case you don't know what it means .
Definition :
Its a principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.

if that english is kinda hard for you to get what it means , here's a simpler one .
-What goes around , Comes around .
easier for you ? (:
gooood .





god knows who's right and wrong in this situation .
no use people blaming either me nor you bout this .
god knows , idiot .
for all my whole life , i won't ever forgive you for what you've done .
you're worst than i thought .
worst than an animal .
even an animal could treat people good .
why can't you ?
i'm ASHAMED of you .







i miss baby . he's been begging me to meet but i couldn't .
tmr maybe i'm out to johor .
siak eh , kene quarantine , tapi kluar . best pe .
ahahha !
but i'm CLEAN .




hahaha .
okay , i gotta go .
i'm going outzszzszszs with brother .
ton with him maybe .
huhu !




maybe can meet baby skali ! ;DDDD








NIGHTS !

keep it rolling .
coz whatever you say , i'm just listening/seeing/entertaining it to make you satisfied .
really pathetic having this kinda people who are so busy body with peoples life and what they do and what they had done in the past .
wanna say they got brains , i know they have. but they just don't use it more than they are supposed to .
oh well , what can i sayyyyy .
(:








am supposed you're satisfied that i admit it to the public right ?
since thats what you want .
you say i'm being immature . but how bout you ?
is spamming seems matured to you ?
please lah think lah .


I know you are on that kids' side .
like of course you'll debate with me till he wins this case .
is that matured ?
have you look onto the WRONGS he did ?
have you ever think who's the starter of this ?
i've been blogging nice things bout him before i started posting harsh comments bout him .
but what did write instead in his blog ?
he cursed me , he sweared unpleasant words to me .
SO , THINK AGAIN , WHO'S THE STARTER ?
and again , yes , i did say i didn't regret being with him in my older posts .
but please ah , you'll feel the same way if your ex treat you the same way like how he's treating me right ?
don't lie if you don't feel the same way .
at least , i don't tell people his secrets (:
unlike him .
so how ? who's at fault ?

da break kan , asal die asik nak carik pasal ?
tak pena siul aku dpt ex kecoh gini mcm pas break up .
pikir ah ..





i know you'll still say it's my fault and whatever .
suke hati kau lah nakkkk .
as long as god knows who's right and who's wrong .
(:








today is my first day of quarantine .
seems so boring .
thought of meeting the peeps later but i'm not sure whether i could .
i've been having cold feet and fingers since ytd night .
damn bloody cold .
i've just finished the homework posted up on moodle for those student under LOA .
i didn't manage to do english and mother tongue coz i don't know what they're asking me to do .
perhaps, i'll tell mrs tay and cikgu yati my reasons or either call them up tmr .

brother is at home .
what a luck .
b called me few mins ago saying that he wants to meet me .
but i'm not sure whether i can .
he called me so late .
around 4am plus to 5am i think he called me .
lucky i'm not schooling . so i talked to him for several minutes but i had to put down so soon as i was very sleepy .
i had a blast last night conferencing with my peeps over the phone .
felt like normal as usual though i'm having a hard time now .
ffe was damn fucking irritating when we wanna end our call .
haha !
yadiy called me for a while too to ask me how am i .
but again , had to put down soon coz i was tired and sleepy .


seriously , you guys give me strength to face all this .
one day , i may feel like falling , but you guys were there to catch me , to guide me again and support me .
when i feel like giving up , you guys gave me strong encouraging words .
and jo , you gave me a light to my life again .
you guys are priceless . how can i ever find people like you guys ? ..

Boyfriends come and go , But true friends stays ..

i'm Q-U-A-R-A-N-T-I-N-E-D -.-
why ? because one of my classmate got infected .
to my classmate : my dear girl , please take care of yourself . i'll always pray that you'll have a speedy recovery .
take care , S.Y !


eventhough you sat near us ( myself , hamizan , azwan , ffe , rasyidi ) , we are not panicked as in we will get infected .
but i knew you weren't well on tuesday as you told me you had fever .
must take care okay .
we're worried bout you , y.h and val .



the whole of 4n2 and N3 are currently quarantined .
and now our school has 4 H1N1 cases .
well , hope you 4 babes have a SPEEEDY RECOVERY .

but well , we were told to go home sui sui time nk balik sch .
we were escorted by teachers till the school gate and were told to go home straight .
so i went home straight , alone -.-
i couldn't managed to find efa as i dind't know what period she was having .

my phone is back to normal ;D yeay !
so people , you can contact me now .

ffe paitao me today .
he never go school .
beh go school alone , nampak the guy who stalked me .
kimakkkk , nasib traffic light tunjok green man .
i walked as fast as i could , trying not to turn back .
my heart beats so fast as i was scared he'll stalked behind me again with his friend .
wait , not his friend . this time is with his F-R-I-E-N-D-S .
my hands sivered like hell , my feets were controlling me and my mind was blank .


i'm cold now .
i've just checked my temp. alhamdulillah it's normal .



currently chatting with mai and yadiy .
i've just finish reading the chat log mai sent me about her and jo's convo's .
hmm .
i'm kinda worried for what's gonna happen but what can i do ?
nak CARE sal die , tak gune tros . tak nak CARE , macam kesian .
bia allah je lah yer yang menentukan ape yang akan terjadi ..





nasib kau lah nakkkkk .
haiyah .
may god be with you lah kay .
-.-













- 9 more days .

i don't get guys to satisfy them .
i get guys to be loved .
unlike you .



tsk .




how dumb can you be ?






i really pitty you . you really sound and look PATHETIC , kid .
tsktsktsk .

you know , as i'm OLDER than you , i'm just gonna shut up and look/listen to your kiddish acts kay .
coz i TOO have no bloody time to entertain your smelly shits .
i have better things to think about .








&& oh , sorry yer , aku tk setangding mcm anjing unlike "ORANG TU" .
at least aku sabar dulu sebelum die MELAMPAU sesangat .

everything has a limits .
itu pun nak kene ajar kau ke ?

you're fucking too much , jerk .



you think i don't regret being with you ?
PARDON ME , IT'S MY MOST BIGGEST SILLIEST MISTAKE I'VE EVER DONE IN MY WHOLE LIFE .

so wasted and not worth it loving someone with no respect and low in quality .
gosh . how silly can i be ?



i should've continued to be like how i used to be when i'm with you .









big big big mistake .












" once you act like a bloody DOG , always like a DOG & will BARK like a DOG ;D "






you're worst than a beast , an animal .










mak aku branakkan aku sempurna ah siul . aku diberanakkan dari puki bersih .
kau sape nak ckp aku gitu macam ?
kau banyak peh big pe ?
harap besarkan ______ je ah kau .


















&& fyi kan jantan sial , kakak kau yang tanye aku ape jadi eh .
kau ingat aku niy nak mengadu sgt kat org pe mcm kau .
pathetic sial prangai .