i feel so different now .
i just feel like i wanna stay away from everyone and scream like nobody's business .
i don't know what my heart is trying to tell .
i tried hard to listen , but to no avail .
it's really frustrating .
my heart seems like it just can't decide .

i wonder what is the cause of this .
and i think i know .
things changed so much after what've happened .
i don't wish to brag .
but it's just the fact .

you changed my life before and now you've changed me again , after .
to me , life now just seems so plain .
Friends had always been there .
i don't know how to repay the deeds they've done .
I regret till now for neglecting them .
i did that w/o thinking just to satisfy someone's heart .
again , i don't wish to brag .
but again , it's just the fact .

each night , i'll look at the stars .
wishing that everything will soon be alright .
in my dreams lately , i've always been dreaming of someone .
but pardon , not 'him' .


his existence in my life now makes me so delighted .
Just what does that shows ? ..



i'm just confused .