eh yo !



today as confirmed , went out with my gerek peeps plus ♥ .
met mai at amk around 1 .
then sementara nk tunggu smuer siap2 , i went to search for my contacts .
got a cheap deal .
16 bucks . maxi brand , grey colour .
jiwe nan mai uhhh kan .
hahaha !

da gitu , trained to novena .
surprisingly , zan reached first .
then we played WWE 09 game .
kecoh sak .
ffe came afterwards .
mai da settle with her app , we headed to novena to walk around while waiting for efa .
met her at the stn and trained to city hall .
marina to play pool .
smuer main but me and mai stopped halfway .
let ♥ play for me the game .
kekek sak kiterorang main . meeera tk lah pro st dlm pool . but okay lah , i at least could score a lil .
played till 5 plus and we made a move to paya lebar .

walked till haig road and find a place to seat .
da relax smuer , we saw amir , husna , wanie , rausyan and atikah .
smiled and they went off to find place to eat .
we ordered our foods and waited till it's time .
finish eatiingg , went to smoke near the market area there .
♥ helped me buy ciggs .
da gitu , we walked around bazaar .
bought dendeng . fuhhh ! HEAVEN !

da walk around , da penat , we chilled at this kedai kopi to eat ice kacang/jelly cocktail .
then ade commotion skit pasal ice kacan dorang .
me and ♥ shared jelly cocktail .
and THANKS to ffe bab die blanje kite pool ,and mknan smuer .
masih yer !
mudah mudahan , kau dimurahkan rezeki . AMIN !
the guys kacau mai alot coz kite terserempak WAN & ALFALAH !
hahaha !
tu lah first time WAN senyum kat aku . lau tk kasi muke sat sat .
hahaha !
da bes mkn , we headed to the bus stop .
♥ mati2 wanna send me home . so we took 24 while the rest toook train .
da kat dlm bus , da lepas upp paya lebar , tibe ♥ handed me smthg .
a small bag , which has a ring in it .
o.O !
i thought it was a plain ring and only have it .
skali he ask me to look inside the ring .
saw his name and mine engraved beneath it .
meeera speechless lah kan .
hahahah !
tros tanye " b .. couple ring ? "
skali sappppp , die kluarkan die punye .
tears of joy nk kluar tapi i maintainnnnnn . lol !

he sent me till the staircase .
kissed goodbye and went off .
reach home at 10 plus , gave mother the dendeng i've bought .
nasib aku dah jamah sikit .
aku kluar toilet aje , dendeng habisss .
sape abeskan ? brotherrrr ~
ingatkan die da tido . skali die bau dendeng tros lei bangon tuuu .
hahah !


i had a fruitful day today . i seriously had fun .
thanks ffe , zan , mai for the feedbacks you gave bout him .
it's important coz i wanna know .
glad that you guys had fun with him joining us today .
lepas N's we enjoy much more than this kay , friends {:








& ♥ , Happy 1st Monthsary !;D
thanks for the gift .
i really appreciate it alot .
ly .

i seriously still can't believe m.j is gone .
*cries*
watching his concert ytd on ch5 made me tear at the last 2 parts of the concert .
but whatever it is , he's gone .
r.i.p , m.j ..



today my famiily and ii break fast at macD .
then prayed at al-muttaqin with brother .
back to macD coz mother waited for me and bro there .
sembang-ed for while .
drank a large cup of cappuccino while bro ate mcflurry cornetto .
talked bout holidays .
brother nak Jakarta , mother nak g Sarawak , me ? i nak go Vietnam lagikkk .
hua hua hua !

went topharmacy to get my oracort gel for my ulcers .
damn it , it kept on increasing .
from 4 to 7 .
nk laugh hard pun tk bleh .
haiyer .

then go pay bills , transfer $$ , top-up ezlink and headed home .
today and also ytd , i've not been msging ♥ that much .
was so busy cleaning up and re-arranging the house .
then tak dpt msg sgt .
only 2-5 msgs aje . but at night we talk otp .

ytd we were happily talking otp and we didn't realised it was alr 4am plus .
so decided to put down and get a lil sleep or else tak bangon for sahur .

tmr is confirmed .
not gonna go school . such a waste of time .

you know , there's a time where santhi ot really fed up with my class and she screamed at us saying " you guys don't give me anything for teachers day ! you guys don't mean it ! "
then i shouted back , " eh cher , who say we wanna buy anything for you eh ? thick skin siaaa ! "
saje tahh tu cikgu . TTM sakkkk -.-

k lah , i nak enjoy tgok m.j concert dvd .
Nights !

i'm not starting any game here .
asal kau terase ?
-.-
tak tau jgn maen tembakk {:
bulan puasa tk kuasa nk start game nan kau alek .
haiyohh .
kecoh ah lu , mat .





school just now was absolutely fun .
but somehow , something between the guys happened .
it's pretty childish to complain but what to do lah kan .
da plak tu nk step mane nye sat sat bile sap rkk .
tsk .
eh , bulan mulia kan ! tk bgos ckp gitu . ish !
tapi walau ape2 pun , tkmu lah uat kawan kau ggitu mcm kan ..
org yang tk bersalah pun kene terbabit .
haiyer .

ytd was chatting with zach and talk bout our lives .
then he asked me this ;

Z: Mira skrng dah sombong seh . nampak org , tk tegor !
M: eh eh . where got sombong . i scared lah to tegor you ;p
Z: why seh ?
M: coz u cam monster . takot uh nk tegor .
Z: wth . ape seh !


then i had to confront him coz he sulked . hahaha !
ape aje lah tu budak .
but had fun talking with him .

then skali today , when i was otw home , terserempak die , together with addy and wawan .
so , obviously had to tegorrr .
nnty tk pasal2 he say i sombong lah kannnn .
talking bout wawan , i had such a great talk with him since after a long time when i was late for school and had to sit outside the hall with zan and mai .
we gossiped bnyk but it's all facts lah kan , wawan !
hahaha !

♥ has started working part time .
today was his orientation .
hope everything went fine .

monday will be going out with the peeps plus ♥ .
temankan mai for her dental app .
then will go off to geylang bazaar and break our fast there . should be laahhhh kan .
brought ♥ alon coz the next day is our first monthsary .
so decided to break fast together lah kan .
{:



2 weeks plus to N level .
prelims has been such a disaster .
disappointments is what i get .
not up to my satisfaction .
haiyerr .
but , i know i can do it .







♥ , imyvm .

supzszszsz .




didn't attend school todayyyy .
why ? coz i was so sick due to ytd's rain .
got flu when i reached school .
had some problems with singh -.-

kept on sneezing during mt class .
so decided not to go school today as the sneezing and flu didn't get any better .
skali , cikgu yati called saying that i need to produce an mc for my malay listening compre for prelims .
damn it , i didn't even rmb she said that there's l.c .
so rang mother to et mc .
went to the family clinic .
gave me mc for today only since tmr not schooling .
if not i have 2 days mc .
i'm excused for p.e till 2nd sept .

mai pun tak g school .
kate jiwe lah kanzsz .
hua hua hua !

break fast at pizza hut today .
i finally can puasa today .
i felt so tenanngggggg sekali .
lau ade niat nk puasa and sembahyang , hati akan selalu tenang (:
kan kan kan !
;D

In life , it's impossible not to have friends .
And it is more impossible not to have enemies or people you do not like .
I admit i detest some people who'd left footprints in my heart .
It gave me this sense of hatred so much that i do not ever wanna forgive them .

I don't mind if that someone does not treat me as a friend or whatever .
Knowing that now is the month of Ramadan , i do not wanna increase my sins with the hatred i have with these people .
I may talk behind their backs , curse them , swear them or whatever .
I do really wanna repent .

I wanna relieve that sense of hatred as soon as possible .
I seriously don't mind if you don't treat me as your friend or whatsoever as i've said earlier .
as long as i know i'm doing something good and un-sinful .

I know i have done wrongs to some people and i apologize for that .
It's also up to you to forgive .
No humans can ever not make mistakes in their life .



So why am i writing this ?
Well , it's because , i suddenly remembered someone's birthday .
obviously , someone whom i used to detest .
Someone who'd already left a big big footprint in my life and also in my heart .
i've forgotten bout the past , fyi .
But anyway , Happy Advanced 15th Birthday to you .
May you succeed in whatever you do and MAY god bless you .

I've always wanted someone to make me smile or laugh .
Now i've got it .
From my precious friends , family and absolutely, my ♥ .

I should feel very lucky that i have them by my side whenever i need them .
My friends who's been there for me in whatever situation i'm in .
Going through it together as one .
We laugh and cry together .
We feel each others' pain .
But there's always one person who'll crack the smile on our faces .
And from a smile , in turns into a laughter .

I should feel very lucky i have my family by my side .
They are the ones who provide me with my needs .
The ones who'd been with me for 16 years .
Despite the upside-down crisis we have sometimes , there will always be someone who'll crack a smile on our faces .
And yes , that'll be me and my brother .
I never want to see them grumpy , sad .
It hurts .
But when they smile , my heart glowed like a bulb with such delight .
When i see them smile , i myself smile too .

I should feel very lucky too that i have my ♥ to be with me now .
He was the light that makes my darkness disappear .
Knowing the problems i had with my past , he never fails to send me messages that will make me smile .
While talking over the phone , he'll never fail to say " I love you " before we're together until we're together which makes me smile so wide .
When we meet , he'll never fail to give me countless kisses which makes me smile even wider .

I think i'm grateful with what i have now .
The life i'm living , feels so heaven .

I know there are people who could make me smile , laugh and make my life an enjoyable one .
And those people are : Them .

Life was hard for me .
With all the challenges i've went through ..
those fights , heart pains , tears , angers , disappointments .. It just made me stronger .

Challenges that makes me fix myself to the better .
trying every way to do it .
with friends , family and ♥ .

I know , life's not complete with challenges .
& i know , i myself is not perfect at all .

Being a relationship with someone you wanna be with is not easy at all ..
Alot of challenges to go through ..
It's always 'all-so-sweet' in the beginning ..
but it's 'all-so-sour at the end .
You have to have faith , confidence and strength .
And i'm trying to gain back all those as days goes by .

He thought me how to be stronger , live my life with full of laughters and happiness .
the happiness i've been craving for a long time ..
used to crave happiness from someone but it was just a waste of time waiting for it .
coz in the end , disappointments and the sense of betrayal is what i got .
But HE , HE really makes me open my eyes to the beautiful world after being in such a dark dark world with miseries .

I know , i may be someone who was so different in the past ..
but i know i could change my future and myself ..
My life , i know i could make it better .

Baby , i know i'm not strong ..
but i will promise to try to gain bak all those as time goes by as i'm with you .
i know i have faith and confidence in you ..
i know you could be the 1 in a million that had ever happened in my life (:

" If death is the only way we will part then
let me die with you because I cannot live without you.

If "I love you" is only three words,
why is it worth a million?

Loves a goes both ways;
it has to be given to be received.

A loving relationship is one in which
the loved one is free to be himself
- to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me,
but never because of me; to love life,
to love himself, to love being loved.
Such a relationship is based upon freedom
and can never grow in a jealous heart.

To find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune;
to keep him is a blessing.

It is the distance that makes life a little hard.
Two minds that once were close
are now so many miles apart.
I will not falter though, I'll hold on 'til you're home
- safely back where you belong.
See how our love has grown?
You're not alone; I'll wait till the end of time.
Open your mind, surely it's plain to see,
you're not alone; I'll wait 'til the end of time.
Open your mind,
Baby, there's time for me and you. "

supz .

today was my last paper . 1 word : TERRIBLE ! I'm having my period -.- suck ! tmr is fasting month and i can't even fast on the first day .

dah semangat nak puase at last tak boleh puase . like that must pay back alot siol . haiyer . my phone made me spoil my mood . it dropped inside the sink with the water flowing . i screamed my lungs out in the toilet . and now it's making me frustrated . i think i have to go fr servicing or either get a new phone by upgrading my m1 line . since my starhub is gonna end soon this december .

i miss typing on the keypads . touch screen makes me pull my hair with frustration . shheesssh .

i'm waiting for ♥ to reach home . hmm . oh anw ♥ , i'm sorry if i were to be abit moody this few days . paham-paham aje luh b ^^ . heh ;p

okay lah . i've run out of words .

sorry to my peeps as i didn't manage to go terawih with them . suay ah dok . red flag dtg salah timing uh ! next time .

to all muslims : SELAMAT BERPUASA ! TAKMU PUASA YOK2 EH ;P

evening .


oh well , i'm left with another 1 more paper to go which is my maths paper 2 .
geeees .
it sends me chills down my spine .
overall marks , 110 .
so paper 2 over marks will be 50 i think .
all the best to me and also to to the rest of my classmates and schoolmates .

today finished paper around 11.45 i think .
homed straight with ffe .
we're always laughing hard when we walk all the way to mrt , thats where he usually send me .
reach home , bathed and rest .
msg ♥ before i took my nap .

woke up just as the sun sets .
told ♥ i'm awake and waited for his reply .

ytd was a bast .
met ♥ around 4 plus . bused to tpy and walked to bradd mac .
terserempak with rash again .
lol !
i and rash kept on laughing bout somethings ^^
♥ knows it tooo ;p
we ate first coz i need to take my medication . ate snack wrap while he ate fillet o-fish .
then he play with his lappy and i did a lil revision .
suddenly around 7 plus , mai called .
said she's coming down to bradd mac .
she reached alr , ffe plak turon .
we talked and laugh .
my 2 sweethearts got along with ♥ .
(:




puasa is so near .
meaning .... buka with my loved ones whenever i can {:
geeees ;D



okay lah , i shall end here then .
i wannnnnnaaaaaa do revision ;D










" People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be
shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind.
Think big anyway.
What you spend years building may
be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack if you help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have
and you might get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway. "

supsz .


english , social studs. , mother tongue , maths p1 & poa are all done .
left with comb sci. , comb humans & maths p2 .

so today , only N2's and the techs have to attend for exams .
my class is the only one in the hall . so they decided not to on the air con .
today was kinda tough for me ..

i had to fight the pain i'm suffering .
my finger and also my head .
i had a very hard grip on my table .
i was fidgeting alot .
felt like as if i could tear the table away .

i didn't manage to complete the second paper for poa .
to much pain for me to bear .
so i just kept on gripping till 11.28 am .

after dismissal , i felt so weak .
felt like i could knock off again anytime , anywhere .
i didn't even have strength to pick up my bag .
called dad once i stepped out of school .
told him i felt like fainting again and he told me to take cab to my house to fetch him and head to polyclinic .
ffe and zan helped me till i got in the cab .
thanks alot you both and thanks ffe fr your concern .
that goes to mai & sham also {:

reached clinic , register myself and was sent to emergency room .
bla and bla happen , finally went to see a doctor .
she asked me whether i hit anythin on my injured finger coz it's swelling .
but i couldn't remember whether i hit my finger hard on the floor when i fainted on sunday or not .
but if my swelling gets worse , i have to go for x-ray .
she gave me some medicines .
then i have to go to another room for dressing .

i swear my hand shivered like hell .
i was afraid of the saline liquid that you have to put on your wound and it'll be very painful .
the nurse cleaned my wound with that and she applied this thin that looks like a small netting but it contains chemical to make the wound better .
she covered my finger with a clear plaster which could last for 2-3 days where i could alr remove it .
sui sui time puase can take out alr .
heh !

doc gave me antibiotics which i have to complete the whole course .
pain killer if the pain is very excruciating .
saline liquid to wash my wound after 2-3 days .
antibiotics gel to be put on the injured area .

countdown : 4 more days to puase !
;D





i know i can endure all the challenges that awaits me duringg the fasting month ..
i know i can {:










& i'll miss you , my dear ..

today was an unlucky day for me .
oh yes it is .

firstly , i got cut deeply by a big jaggered knife on my index finger .
pain , of course .
blood spluttered all over the kitchen .
it oozed out profusely non stop .

secondly , i went out of the kitchen and appoached dad to ask where's the scotch tape coz i wanna wrap it around the sterile gauze .
he told me where and i went in back to the kitchen .
i didn't have strength to look for it coz i was weak to see so much blood oozing out from my finger .
so , i go out from the kitchen and wanted to tell my dad that " i think i'm gonna faint . "
i steady my steps coz i know i can fall anytime .
i was alr near my dad and i knocked off on thr floor with my head got hit by the edge of my computer table .
and i only managed to say " i think .. " to my dad .
my mom rushed out of the toilet coz she heard a loud crash at the living room .

i was damn weak . very !
i'll take a picture of how deep the cut is when i mama change my dressing tonight .
you'll go "eeeewwwww" for sure .
coz that goes the same to me . haha .





unlucky sunday eh .






tmr maths paper 1 .
so , good luck everyone !

supszsz !












phew , i seriously ain't touching the comp so often .
i managed not to use it for 2 days .
partly because , i was sick -.-
always've been like that ! asal exam jer sakit . asal sakit jer exam .
i kept on sneezing and sneezing .
sniffing and sniffing .
rubbing my nose most of the time .

gees , how irritating can that be .
ytd was mother tongue paper .
i'm glad that i could do it smoothly .
cikgu's put hopes on me to score well as cikgu fauziah and yati approached me .

after school , straight home .
teman-ed mai jap to central to get her earpiece .

then something funny happened .
i asked a very damn 'bonus' question .
hahah !
shhh , you know i know eh mai ^^


today , went over to kak sarina's house to visit her coz she got injure few days back .
and her leg was fractured and semented .
ilya and abg sudin was there too .
cik ruby and the 2 small kids tagged along to kak sarina's house .
ilya is gettting taller and cute .
especially when she say " aunty aunty . come come . "
hahah !
adorable eh .


reached home .
received a call from jack , addy and zul .




sigh .

supz !


today was the first day of prelims .
damn it , i knew i'll freeze like hell .
worst , i sit just next to the air con blower .
my jacket doesn't make any better .
i kept on fidgeting .


english paper was fine .
nak kae susah , tak susah . nak kate senang , tak senang .
so it's susah senang lah kan .


i had my nervous attack early in the morning .
sneeeze and sneeze non stop .
mai jangkit me .
yes , i was nervous .
though it isn't my actual N level exam .
what do you expect , i've been taking exams in the classroom for 9 1/2 years !
perhaps i'm not used to have examination in the hall .
thats why i was nervous .

tmr is ss paper .
geeees ;S



aidil was so kind enough to pass me a link bout healthcare in singapore to help me with the paper tmr .
thanks aidil !
and also thanks for the drink ! ;D





kay wanna go study .





NIGHTS !

supzs .




i've not been using the comp ever since my msn gave me troubles .
i had to use bro's account in order for me to log in to msn .
i don't mind using his acc but it's troublesome when i wanna save some things .

life has been awesomely great for me .
problems are giving me some rest . giving me some thoughts since i'm having prelims and N level .
&& PRELIMS STARTS TMR o.O
shit , yes shit .
i'm 40% prepared for it tho .
exams will be held in the hall with the techs .
seriously , wish me luck seh people ..
:S




Recently , i went to malaysia .
got sick for a day and got better the minute i arrive back .
home sick gaknye .
hahaha !

arrived back to my one and only hometown on sunday .
went over to woodlands to settle some things with singtel .
then headed home , wait for father to bathe and chage shirt and off to his working place .
sent him off , then me , bro and mum headed to aljunied to meet up with aunt ruby and fam .
fetched them , headed to nearby mac .
ate double fillet .
sumpah aku pakse diri untuk habiskan .
cepat muakkkk ah tu bende .

well anw , i'm seriously out of words .
maybe i won't be updating that much due to exams .
and also i'm not always at home too .
always out for study dates .







currently watching anugerah , chatting with aidil , sham , mai & also tagging .





guess i'll end here {:







TO ALL WHO'S TAKING YOUR PRELIMS TOMORROW , I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST !
MAY GOD BE WITH YOU THROUGHOUT .
ALL THE BEST ! ;D

picture for the day : kus2 & the cat ;D

supz .

hmm , decided not to go school today .

since ffe , mai and efa did not go .

i don't see a point going to school when they're not there .

currently at mac with sham [;

using his lappy .

plus we're studying .

i've managed to do some of the questions in the 5 years math series .

my body is aching due to ytd's workout .

for the very first time , mai and efa joined me , ffe and zan to do some workouts .

biler dah nk kat exam aru nk join kiter workout .

tsktsk .

wednesday will be having my frist prelim paper .

takot gilerrr !

venue will be at the hall . needa bring jacket coz it's gonna be cold .

geees .

am i prepared ? obviously .. not so . heh .

i'm frustrated .

really i am ..

got to know his court was postponed to a later date .
hmm . no one was with him during his court today .
i wanted to go but schooling .

oh well .

prelims starts on 12 or 17 aug .
teacher said it'll be in the hall .
how cool .
but no it's not . the hall will be colddzzszsz and i'll freeze .
and when i am cold , i can't think straight .
yikes !





wish me luck then .



sayonara !

i just feel like screaming out loud ..

seriously , you're making me so fucked up with the way you are now and how you put words into my mouth .
Aku sumpah sia aku tk pernah bandingkan kau nan die .
uat pe aku nak bandingkan kau nan die ?!
kau lagy mulia kau tau tk ..

sudah lah .. aku da penat , air mate pun dah kering ..

aku akan slalu doa2kan kau bile kat pat dlm ..
aku akan tunggu smpai kau dah release ..

suke hati kau ah ko nk pikir ape .
ape yang aku tau , ape kau pikir tu smuer tk betol ..



take care ahh ..

i swear i'm damn fucking happy that blogger is okay .
thanks to mai !

those who's having probs with blogger , you should really go to this website ;

http://blogging.nitecruzr.net/2009/07/distorted-unusable-post-editor-toolbar.html


i've been busy quite lately .
hmms , recently , had the movie date with them .
i was tired but at least i had a fruitful day with them .
being with them is hilarious . esp otw back home in the mrt .
they used language of their own .
me and zaza kept on laughing .


catched 4.05 movie . epul and sham have bought the tickets the day before friday as to get the best seats .
haha !
reached ehub around 4 plus . was alr late .
settled down and watched the movie .
i felt like crying when dumbledore was killed .
:'(
after movie , didn't eat coz we were full of popcorns and drinks .
so headed to p.r park .. hai .
tempat memory ehhhh ..
those piggybacks , i still do remember .. and so on ..
sat at the breaker there till night falls .
watch the sky and we saw half moon and just a star .
remind me of someone of course .
i was sad as there was only one star in the skyy ..

mother called saying that we're gonna fetch brother from airport .
so had to rush home .
sham sent me home . reached home , changed shirt , relax for while and went off .
toko 24 . waited for brother and then headed to b.k .
slacked there till 1 am plus .
cabbed home .
reached home around 2 plus .
then , brother distributed souvenirs .
i'll take photos of it and post it up here later if i rmb .

saturday , went for dinner at p.h .
ate a lil coz family said after that we're gonna go to Charco's for heavy dinner .
ate personal pizza .
then bused to charco's which is located at amk .
i swear the food is superbly delicious .
the price also "superb" .
hahah !
cabbed home .
i felt so tired that i've not been otp with anybody .
i'm trying to figure out how to inform jack and jo bout the change of my number ..
hmms .

jack called me ytd morning .
fuck man , i seriously don't know why they all like to disturb my sleep and how come they wake up so early in the morn -.-
but anw , chatted with him for while .
then went back to sleep . heh .





i know i'm posting stories not in sequence but what to do ..
i'm just too happy with my life now ..
i just type whatever i rmb ;DD




oh well , i think i'm done now ;D

ciaos .








" Jo , 2 more days till i won't hear anything from you .. Write to me frequently while you're in there .. i swear i'll wait till you're released .. "