the title for this post is what i can say bout ytd's outing .
though i was sick (high fever) , i still push myself to go .
for my lovely friends , i can punyaaaa ;D



♥ was actually out with his junior whom i actually know .
i told him to send kecik home . scared that anything might happened and he'll be responsible for it .
told him i'm going town .
then he say he wanna meet me .
so he tag along with my cliques and me .


we walked around far east to find ♥ shoe&slipper which he's been craving for .
die kan mat slipper nan kasut ;p
hahahaha !
da bored nan far east , ktrng g ion orchard .
boring nk mampos .


in the end we decided to chill at Starbucks .
mai bought choclate cream chip i think and i bought java chip .
sedap nk mampos .
*sakit2 minom air starbucks eh .*
what i care kan kan kan . haha !
chill and chill , we gerak to somewhere near cash studios .
i forget what the mall's name is .
went in toys'R'us .
gerek . hahah !
me and ♥ argued over decepticon and auto bots .
funny uhs . huahahah !


otw back , walked thru wheelock .
then told ♥ there's adidas shop and asked whether he wants to go and see if the slipper he wants ade ke tak .
we separate from the rest for while .
so we went and he found the slipper that he wants .
paid for it and we met the rest at mrt platform .



tained home . ♥ sent me back home as usual .









reach home , bathed and actually wanted to rest for while till ♥ reached home .
skali tertido .
woke up around 2 am .
damnnnn .
haha !
it was raining some more so i slept back .








went school as it was my last day :{
hai .
will miss my class ..
hopefully to go to sec 5 if possible .
insya'allah .

went for night study today .
was the only girl . sedih peeee . haiyer .




k lah , stop here kay .


doodles ! ;D

i'm so friggin tired and in hell of pain on my back .

tmr will be going out again .
sigh .



next week is gonna be a bomb for me .




schedule :




monday : Maybe yes or no accompanying mai for her app .
tues : night study in school form 6-9pm .
wed : jalan raya with the malay peeps .
thurs : jalan raya with ♥'s side .
friday : preparations for my open house/night study in school from 6-9pm .
saturday : open house till late night . confirm to be full house .
sunday : ♥'s open house .







gees , what a week i'll be facing later .

friends has been talking about the drama Syurga Cinta .
i was curious so i decided to check into youtube.com to search for that drama .


i cried when i watched that drama .
it is a drama that i recommend to all of you , my friends .


i've learnt something from that movie .
a drama which opens up the eyes of the youths nowadays who gives fake love to someone who actually loves you sincerely as the other party gave that someone the attention they need .
But somehow , it was all just a fake love story .



Syurga Cinta is a love story when both parties gives sincere love towards each other ..
the feeling is so heaven ..
coz , it something which is given from the one above .



we can know whether the other party is really sincere or not .
better if one of them is someone who's very strong in their religion .
but however , the other party isn't .
from there , the other party learn bit by bit from their partner .
the other party did everything he/she could to have their partner to be by their side forever .
no matter whether they're in this world , or in the after world .



perhaps i couldn't elaborate much good sumary bout that movie .
so i suggest , you readers should go and watched that movie .
somehow i know , the movie will really touch each and everyone's heart .







how wonderful can god's gift be ..

pictures are not in sequence .





i've enjoyed my raya outing tho it hurts my leg alot wearing those heels . aiseh .
1st day went to mom's side .
2nd day went to dad's side as my malaysian relatives come over .
kecoh rabak .
haha !



i seriously don't expect alot of green packets tho .
know why ?




most of my aunts thought i'm alr 20+ and working -.-
isk , mane boleh gini maciaaaammmmm :{



but however , i don't mind {:







i can't wait for 3rd oct ! huhu !

i had a short nap . i thought of wanting to sleep more as i had a very tiring day helping mother to cook the dishes for tmr's celebration ..
but , i woke up , sweating with tears rolling down .

i had a dream ..
a short dream where i met tok mak somewhere so beautiful .
the place was the most wonderful one ..

i'm not sure bout the tears .
sigh .



the takbir will be live on radio today after break fast ..
i miss hearing the takbir ..
it's only once in a year to hear the takbir .
takbir is an azan meant for hari raya .


i don't know why when i hear it , i could cry .
the melody of it is so beautiful ..
hmmm ..


am not sure whether i'm really looking forward to hari raya ..
am i gonna show a fake face tmr morning ?

Hari Raya is just tomorrow ..
On that day , family , relatives and friends visit one another .
Seeking for forgiveness with one another .

When Raya comes , we all think about those who are unfortunate .
We consider ourselves lucky that we could buy alot of things to deco our houses and buy new clothes eventhough we have the old ones which we could still use .
When we get Green packets , we'll not be spend trift coz we know , the money we receive isn't easy to earn .
People had to work hard and save up to give us those packets ..

Well , i hereby take this opportunity to seek for forgiveness to those people whom i've done wrong towards to .
We humans beings are imperfect and no one can ever not make any mistakes .


To 'you' : i know i've done alot of wrongs , i hope all my wrongs will be forgiven .
As the day of vistory is nearing , i hope your heart is soft as ever to forgive me for my harsh words , my reactions , my attitude and everything .
What you did/say to me in the past , it's all forgotten and forgiven .
We are one race and religion , i really hope you'll fogive me .





this goes to my friends , family & also to ♥ .




to my friends : i know i've done alot alot of wrongs towards you guys .
My words , my unpredictable attitude , i hope all are forgiven .
ffe , i'm sorry i've been playing so harsh towards you .
mai , i'm sorry for hurting you last time with my harsh words ..
to zan and efa , if ever did any wronsg to you , forgive me yeah .
i love you guys and you guys are just like my brothers and sisters ..


to ♥ : well , forgive me .. forgive me if i ever did any wrongs towards you .
i really didn't mean it .
may god bless you , ♥ .
ily .


to my family : alah , esok mintak maaf bersalam-salaman jek laaahh ;p











to all muslims , SELAMAT HARI RAYA , MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN ;D

raya is so near .
i've always been telling and reminding my friends how many days to raya .
like today , i remind them again . saying , " eh korang ! 3 hari lagi to raya ! "
and i will have that kinda of excited expression .
the kind of expression which shows i really can't wait and looking forward to raya .

No one knows how i feel .
maybe except for my cliques and ♥ understands how i feel .
i tried to have the semangat of raya back to me again .
but how ?

every year , when raya is nearing , i'll feel so sad .
this thought of mine disturbs me alot and it tends to make me cry .
i always felt that someone is always missing in my house during raya since after 2001 .
who is it ?
of course , the person is my late grandmother .
the only grandmother i've got to spend time with till i was 8 years old .
the only grandmother who gave me granny love .
i never get to feel the love from both my grandparents from mom's side .
on dad's side , i don't get love only form my late grandfather .

tok ayah[dad's side] died 8 days after my birthday but in the year 1980 .
tok mak[dad's side] died 15 October 2001 , 10.30pm , SGH . see , i even rmb the time seh .
Nenek[mom's side] died few months after i was born . i was about to turn 3 months old when she died . 4th September 1993 . due to heart problem . i only get to be with her when i was really really small . so i can't rmb anything .
tok ayah[mom's side] died before nenek died , before i was born . i'm not sure when he died .

i do have a step grandfather .
but ..
sigh .




i remember in the morning of every hari raya , we will sometimes go back to our kampong at pontian .
i rmb tok mak will wake me up so gently and say , " mira , bagunnnn . da raya niy . gi mandi . as tu boleh pkai baju raya baru {: "
even when we raya at my house , she'll sometimes wake me up or either mom will do .
now ? no more ..



i really envy people who still have their grandparents around .
celebrating the day of victory together as a family .
i really envy them .


how i wish she's still here with my family , getting to celebrate raya with us all ..
but for once i know , she's been always here for me and my family .
she's always with us above there .





i know , she'll also be with us on sunday .

• woke up early and i wasn't late to meet mai at the AMK MRT station .
• i was sweating profusely while walking on the way to school .
• i concentrate well during maths .
• i did revision paper on my own at the back of the class .
• went library and read a novel titled ' A man called Dave ' .
• talked alot with azwan today since only me and him were the only malays .
• tried focusing during accounts .
• continued doing the maths paper during mother tongue lesson .
• took 88 and bused to amk hub .
• went to various shops to look for accessories .
• laughed alot with my best girls today .
• walked around the whole of amk hub .
• went ntuc to get some snacks and pillows of bread as requested by mom .
• i grabbed pringles seaweed flavour just as i saw it . THE CHIIPS ARE GREEEEENNNN ! ;D
• walked around ntuc and mai was tired .
• me and efa decided to hide somewhere when mai went to the yoghurt section .
• reach home , bathed , texted love .
• continued reading 'A man called Dave ' till my eyes were half closed .
• woke up at 6.30 as mom screamed at me to wake up .
• got ready the table for breakfast .
• ate bone steak and sushi .
• cleaned up the table after breakfast .
• prayed .
• on comp , played games , tagged , chat .
• waited for love's msg .
• chat with mai and yadiy .
• watching gerimis di hati .
• waiting for love to finish work .

thats all i think .
adios .

some people are seriously pathetic .
always being the nosey ones kpo-ing bout people's life/doings .
saying all the negative shit comments they have in mind .
normal people shut their mouths and just keep quiet if they have anything negative to comment on someone .
unless , the negative comment is something which is for their own good .
i realized , people who spams blogger's blog , always have some shits to say about their posts or whatever .
even the smallest thing .

M.Y.O.B , lah readers .. aiseh .







i didn't go to school today as my tummy was so upset .
so rang dad in the morning to inform him .
met mother at redman to buy ingredients for the cookies .
i bought m&m mini's . huhu !

perhaps will start baking tmr .
insya'allah sempat .
today baby and mai are online .
da lame tk bobal nan dorang together lah kan .





raya is just round the corner !!
i'm a lil bit excited bout it .
somehow , i can't enjoy to the fullest .
sigh .
N level siul .
tak ke kurang ajar uat time kite tgah raya .
aiseh .
but what to do , endure jek ah .
susah skrng , senang kemudian lah kan ;D





note to you eh :




kau pikir aku tk tau kau mmg attached after ko break nan aku ?
eh sak ah .
aku kenal lah sia pompan tu .
pena bobal lagik .
amcm , pe lagi mau ckp ?
kau kate pas kau break nan aku , kau tkd matae ?
confirm tk confirm siul , member ?
sudah lah eh __ , kau dasar penipu besar ah .
sungguh tk menyesal aku uat kau gini .
g J ah kay !

i'm seriously tired .
i just woke up a few seconds ago from my 5 mins nap on the comp table .
i couldn't stand my eyes .


ytd i got home late again .
but it was around 1 am plus .
went cemetery to visit my grandparents .
when i visited tok mak's[my grandmother on my dad's side] , i was really sad .
i felt like crying but i hold my tears .
when the person trimmed and took his shovel to get the grave in shape again , i felt like pushing him and say , " please don't , you're hurting her ! " .
just because he raised his shovel so up high and then land it on ground .
it sounds so stupid to say that , i know .
but i felt so sad ..
visited nenek and tok ayah's also .
me and my brother as tok ayah's grandchildren , we bought new white cloth to wrap it up at the stone .
i actually handed it to dad but he said , " mira tarok lah , bia cucu tok ayah yang sarongkan . "
so i sarong the batu nesan .



then headed to hougang to go to the CAMEL'S warehouse .
bought things for raya .
after dah shopping , we went to my aunts house to pick her up as she wanted to tag along to pasar geylang to buy stuffs for raya .
da gitu gini , headed to sheng shiong to buy gas drinks for raya .
headed back to akjunied to break fast at my aunts house .
but before that , we went to eunos to buy food for break fast which is bone steak .
i didn't get to taste it as i was alr full eating mee hong kong .
after buke , aunt tag along again to tanjong katong to find selendang for her baju raya .
then she bought her curtains also .

after finish shoppping , sent aunt home and went beach road to buy fod for dad and then sent it at his working place .
i thought we will go home after that but brother insist as he wants to go to his childhood place which is my old hometown , Yishun .
gees , i miss that house .
i told mother if we were to move house , we should move here .
i only get to spend 2 years there and family shifted to amk .

when we got home , all of us were worn out . talk to baby for 1 hour and i put down coz i was too sleepy .
brother , mom and myself were so sleepy and lazy to go to school and work .
brother felt sleepy while driving to work .
aiseh . lucky nothing happened .








baby fetched me from school today .
then we lepak-ed for while near apple house .
around 3 plus , we gerak .
he sent me home and he went to work .



slept after wash up till buke .












&& i'm really sorry to zach for not online-ing ytd . sorry i made you wait , zach !
however , thanks for waiting . hah !

future MENANTU lahhh kan ^^

Future MARRIED COUPLES lahhh kannnn ^^ . haha !

Didn't manage to post ytd .
due to tired-ness .
i reached home around 2 plus am .

brother booked a table at this restaurant near changi rd .
the service was slow as it was a full house .
dad was very angry with the service .
but at least he shouldn't be so rude .
mom and me was so geram with him .

when we reached that place , i've told the staffs to keep the cake until we signal to take it out and deliver it to our table .
so , after we finished eating , signal them and they brought the cake .
sang a soft Birthday song and dad cut the cake .
followed by picture taking .

dad actually gave a slice to our neighbour next to our table as they had a few small kids with them .
so dad gave them a slice .

after everything is done , brother drove to geylang as dad and mom have not yet to go there .
i was so rimas with the langsir and i felt like i wanna tear down the langsir .
ish !
then one part where i was standing at the side trying to msg yadiy .
while msging , i observe the people who walk past me as who knows i bumped to someone i knew .
afterwhich , i saw this girl who was smoking and holding hands with her bf .
then behind them was a group of boys .
as they walked past me , this guy who was wearing a res colour long sleeve shirt blew cigarette smoke on my face and actually looked at me .
so , i looked at him .
then suddenly , i felt like i knew this guy .
it really looked like yadiy .
i straight away msged him asking him where was he but he didn't reply after 10 or 15 mins gitu .

ME: yadiy , are you at geylang ?
YADIY: ya . why ? i think i mcm nmpk u ah tadik . haha .
ME: *calls him* were you the one wearing red colour long sleeve ?
YADIY: ya ! hahah ! & are you the one wearing brown colour long sleeve ?
ME: yahhhhhhh !!! hahahah !

and the convo goes on .
i told him hopefully we terserempak again .
skali terserempak lagik !
hahaha ! as what yadiy said , " i think she esaigong abit . she hit me at my shoulder eh. "
yeah , i hit him on his shoulder .
huahuahua !

was at geylang till late night .
then went to beach road to buy food for sahur .
after , went mustafa centre to buy things .
after , we headed home .

headed home , washed up , smoke , laid on the bed , waited for baby's call .
talked till 4 plus .
dua2 da ngntok giler babi .
hahah !








ytd was a blast .
geeeesss ~