im seriously crazy right now .
im toooooo happy looking at how happy mai is now .
till she drove me crazy .


i disturb hannah like hell . haha !
sah sak , aku gile seh nari !



i miss SHAM !(tho i met him few hours ago . not enough ! not enough ! haahahahha !)
i miss MAI ! (tho i actually met her few hours ago .)
i miss FFE !
i miss EFA !
lastly of course ... i miss ZAN !
aku rindu mrepek koranggg .
aku rindu efa nye beloooo !
aku rindu zan nye klakar bodohhhh !

:{



nehmind . Sunday jumpe kan korang kan !
;DDDD






3 months is coming ..
thank allah .
im really glad .










so baby , this is for you ..
from the bottom of my heart ...

-

Your eyes,
they were the first thing
I noticed about you.
They captured my soul.
In the first second you looked at
Me as a woman I was yours.

Your smile,
It lights up my life,
Brings me more peace than the rain.
I could melt in that smile.
I fall in love with you all over again
Every time I see it.

Your fingertips,
The way they linger on my skin,
So gently I can barely feel them
Sometimes.
Other times smoothing over
My body like a sheath.

Your hands,
That show me your love
In a way that words
Never could.
They bring me safety and steadiness.
Thank you for that.

Your body,
The way it holds my attention,
The way your every nuance
Makes me want you even more than
The last time I saw you.

Your feet,
How could I not love them?
They are the part of you
That allows me to show you how much
I love you.
I can spoil you to death
And there's nothing you can do about it.

I love all these things about you,
But what I love the most,
Is the You I fell in love with.
The You that makes me feel like
I can do and be anything I want to.
The You that lets me know
That I will always have someone Standing beside me, helping me
To be strong and catching me when
I can no longer steady myself.
Thank you.


I love you , baby ♥

have not been posting much lately eh .
prolly either i had nthg to post or lazy .

alrighto , i shall update about ytd since i was outtt .


woke damn blardy early in the morn coz mom asked me to accompany her to the clinic since she's ill .
after the clinic trip , breakfast at mac , and we went to popular .
bought the materials needed for the gifts .
i've only started abit .
i needa go to mai's house one of these days to complete everything .


had eyebrow trimming at (i-dont-know-the-name) beauty shop after the popular trip .
had a lil scar on my eye but now its okay .


oh my , guess what !
i actually got so dumb to let go of my fringe .
o.O !
its all because i was in a hurry to meet mai under my block to go for job hunt with shareezat and qal along .
with my bangszs , oh no !
met bf at causeway point since he's working .
he kept on grinning when he saw my fringe down .
grrhhh .


i will never ever let down my fringe anymore as long as it's still short .
thats final , MAIIII !
hahaha !




bf actually sang to me a song and i felt asleep .
it was like a lullaby !
i told him to sing thrice till i really really fall asleep .
ahah !
tq so much {:







starbucks , i want youuuuuu !

prolly , i wanna do a hair makeover like that .
hopefully , after i get my N's result or even when i start working during this hols ^^





*prays*
hopefully i get a call from them tmr .
oh pls .


:{












somehow , i can't wait for 13th November ^^

i was online late night ytd and i was surprised with what aidil told me .
we were talking bout work and he said somthing about " blanja makan " .
then i was like , " ehhh ! talking bout that , i still owe zach a treat ! "
then he said , " die dah msok nk treat ke hape ! "
and i my eyes nearly popped out .

nasib nasib .
take care okay .

oh well , saturday was spent with my parents .
something happened in the morning which made me so pissed off .
but i was all okay when i reached expo .
this time round , its more to bridal booths .
maklum lah , end of the year nk kat dtg .
walk around , eat , shop .


cabbed to mak & abah's house to visit.
i cannot tahan my mate alr , i slept in mak's room .
woke up nearly to 8 .
talked with them till 9 plus .



homed , washed up , online .






13th must make myself freee .









EH ! what kinda presents do a guy likes ?
any suggestions ?
i really dont know whatta get for that silly boy .
:S





S.O.S !

okay , since im kinda free now , i shall update bout ytd .



oh well , i miss ytd . seriously .
it was my most happiest day for someone who's close to me .
im happy that she's happy now .
who knows , one day , ___ will be one of us .
i wish all the best aye .



so basically , i was in a total rush ytd .
damn it .
i alr got out of my house and i forget my phone .
so had to opened the door to take my phone in the room .
when i wanna rush out , my knee banged the gate .
F* !
wanted to shout but nthg came out from my mouth . i think i was in such a rush , thats why .



met mai at amk hub . we were walking and she said smthg about money and i went " OH SHIT ! I LEFT MY MONEY IN MY WALLET AT HOME !! "
so then , we walked to my house .
took my money and double check to make sure i didn't leave anything anymore .


trained to city hall .
dan bla bla .
i walked behind like their 'mak andam' gitu .
hahaha !
she was so nervous and i got myself nervous too .
i light up a stick and my hands were trembling due to my nervousness .
rolling with qal .
i sent them till esplanade and i went off to city hall mrt to pick up bf at bedok .


serious shit , i was so F* blurr like gong gong gitu .
bf texted me ,

him: where are you ?
me: just reach bedok platform .
him: you're sitting at which area ?
me: the platform towards city hall ahh .
him: ok , which end ? last cab. or first cab. ?
(start to blurr alr)
me: huh ? im not in the train , im at the platform lahhhh .
him: k nvm .

in the train was worst .
i wasn't myself laaaaaaahhh .
niy mai ah , die nervous aku yan kene jugak side effect die .
tskkkk .
bf said i was weird that moment . ahhaha !
met them at penny .
bf and me played hide and seek with them . we laughed so hard nak mampos .


then mai and me split up with bf and ___ .
our destination was to go qiji at bugis .
we splitted coz me and mai played hide and seek plak with them .
hahaha !
but hey , no sweat ah ! mira nan mai tk tkot sesat man !
in the end we reached there first .
teman bf eat and we train to bishan to teman mai to meet her mom jap .
then we bused to amk mac garden .
plan was to sit there . but in the end tak .



then walked to amk mac since bf wanted to buy mcflurry .
and mai wanted to buy somethings at old changkee .
da gitu , we said goodbye ^^




hahah , but i know , one thin that makes me so F* happy is that ALL the plans we had is such a SUCCESS !
;DDD


you know i know people don't know eh mai , sham , ____ ^^








singnet is making my blood boil .
wait till my bro comes home and i'll complain what happened to the internet .
nasib ah , confirm kene nan abg aku punyaaaa !
nabzs cibzs ah .
isshhh .

i'll do a proper update tmr {:









NIGHTS !


















' all the best to the both of you . '

Dear family members , do know that i love all of you with my heart .
despite my unpredictable attitude , i still love you guys no matter what .
without all of you , i am nothing and i can't live without all of you .

You all are my first priority and thats for sure .
I know i've been going out alot since after N level has ended and keep coming home late .
i admit , im in the wrong .


But al least please please please , don't say that i prioritize my friends more than all of you .
NO ! , thats not true .
Yes , i treasure my friends too .
But they're at least my 2nd top priority ...
Everyone needs friends and so do i ..










I know we family have been drifting apart since after hari raya ..
I really don't know why is this happening ..
Perhaps , when abg is home , ii shall talk to him and will do something bout this .


There's no way i want my family to break apart from one another .








sigh :{

received a bad news from brotehr bout the condition at taiwan yesterday .
just got to know it today when i went geylang with mother .
haiya .
my stomach are having butterflies and can't stop worrying bout brother .



please save my brother if anything were to happen . Please god :{
i love my one and only brother ..

was webby-ing with this minachi above .
as well as bf .
that girl above was so hyper ^^
-cam nk sehati sejiwe nan pujaan hatinya luh tu kan .
hahah !



bf is out of town . he's over at m'sia now with his uncle .
aww man .
woke up 10 plus , went out to the hall and watch Die Hard with family .
after that mother watched Robin Hood and i feel asleep watching that .
Went inside my room and decided to sleep .
seriously , i'm not tired at all . Its just that the weather is making me wanna sleep .
a few mins after i got on my bed , bf called .
talked to him fr while and we put down coz he has to get ready and stuffs .



i woke up around , hmmm , 5pm ?
yeahh , i think so lah eh .
bathed and whatsoever , watched encore telecast of the S.I .



I'm seriously F*kin bored being at home doing nothing .
when the hell are they gonna call ?!!
plsss laaaa , aiyerr !



&& yeah ,
Have a safe journey home baby (:

In the end bf and i decided to watch this .
i rate it 4/5 .
not that really funny but it's a very good story which in the end you learn the importance of spending time with your kids and not always focusing on work .


Since baby treat me movie and snacks , i treated him for lunch cum dinner .
after movie we went out to take some puffs for while .
then bf was craving for pizza hut .
but idk whether town has .
maybe have but not sure where .
so , we headed off to marina .


Then bf led the way .
Finally reach pizza hut and we settled down .
ordered our foods .
we ordered 2 sets of 5 course dinner meal .
baby ate the baked rice while i ate the pasta .
we had ice-creams for dessert !


while eating , me and bf had a great talk .
we talked bout the times before we were together and stuffs .
bout my past , and his past .
i love our conversation !
he always makes me blush whenever he stares at me .
am not sure whyyy .
hehe .


paid the bill and we met bf's friend .
headed to esplanade .
i mean , the singapore river there .
sat down by the river and watched the night life .
it was beautiful .
the sinapore flyer was lightened up with wonderful neon lights , the construction of the I.R , the concert held at the center stage .
WONDERFUL !
damn it , i forgot to bring my cammy .
had charged it and forgot all bout it when i left the house .




reached home at 9 plus .
bathed , spend time watching tv with mother .
hmm , mom got emotional , thats why .







awh man , i wish the time i had with bf never ends .















ily , baby ! ;D

eh yo .
as soon as the clock strikes 2 , i'm offfff from this house .
catching a movie with bf later onzszs .

perhaps will be watching sorrority row at cineleisure .
yeay !
counting the days and months , it has been 5 months and 3 days since the last time i watch the movie the uninvited .
yikes !
okay so , i seriously need help in what should i wear for today .
i was thinking of my silk blouse .
how bout thattttt ?


k whatever , i'm confused looking at my wardrobe .
maybe .... i should blindfold myself and pick any one of them .
let seee what i'll pick later on .











k ciaooozsz !

It's been years since i last saw that guy up there .
and so , this post will be dedicated to my childhood friend , Shareezat {:

It all happened when he actually told me he wanted to o for a job hunt at woodlands .
Thus , i told him that i wanted to find a job too .
Therefore , i told him i wanna tag along .
So does mai and efa .
We finally met at the Cathay Cineleisure around 3 plus .
God knows how delighted i was .

We had so much to share and to laugh .
Oh well , obviously it's been so long since i've last disturbed him . haha !
But it was all just playing a fool lahhh .
I spent my time and day wisely by talking to him all day .
I wouldn't want to waste even a single second when i know that was a reat opportunity for me and him to catch things up .

Never have i thought that i would meet him again the next day .
We went for an interview together and prayed we got to be placed at the same outlet .
I REALLY HOPE SO !
from there we became close like how we were in our primary school days .
I really thank god for that .







Like what the social interview in facebook asked me ,

"If you could tell Mohamad Shareezat one thing right now, what would it be?" I answered: "I'd tell him that he's my very best childhood buddy in the whole world ! ;D"

really he is .






oh well , i promised him smthg .
tskkk !
we made a deal actually .
if i were to ever stop one of my habits , he'll blanja me makan !
ZAT ! I WILL ALWAYS RMB YOUR DEAL !
huahahah !
meet ya soon , buddy !
<3

slept at 4am firstly ytd night .
why ? was happily otp with bf and didn't check on the time .
i'm always swayed away with the time whenever i'm otp with bf .
felt lke there no tmr .
hahaha !


oh well , TODAY WAS MY LAST PAPERRR !
IS ALL OVERRR !
i felt like screaming the minute it striked 11am .
that was officially the end of our suffering moments .
and so , shareezat told me he wants to go job hunting at woodlands .
told him that im in .
since mai too want to look for a P.T jobby , ask her to tag along .
skali bukan die sorang je , efa pun join .
haha !


finish paper , straight home .
rest for while .
tried calling that gf for several times and she didn't answer .
janji kol 1 jumpe . but she woke up late .
but somehow , i was late to meet her .
hehe !
trained to bradd to meet efa .
so , bought ciggies skali .
dpt lepas lah siot . huahahahahha !
i purposely made myself look exotic the moment i stepped in the shop .
perhaps thats why i got it .
after , trained to town .
walked around with the girls while waiting for shareezat to arrive .
went cineleisure and bumped into AUBREYYYY !
hahah !
so checked out the cathay whether they have any vacancy .
alhamdulillah , there was and on that day itself , me and mai had to o for the interview .
the manager was super friendly .
i had butterflies in my stomach man .
i was kinda nervous .
but in the end i was the one who answered alot of questions .
hopefully i get it .
though , me and mai tried others .
went to paragon's toys'R'us .
then got this girl who was at the counter serving the customers kept on looking at me .
after we finish filling up the form , we handed to the girl .



THE GIRL: mira eh ?
ME: (shocked face) err yeah ?
THE GIRL: (smiled)
ME: (confused look) , uhmmmm . dian eh ?
THE GIRL: (nodded and smiled)


lerr , dian rupenye . first time nmpk die and i don't knw how she recognized me eh .
haahhaha !
after handing in the forms , we headed to the mrt statioon to train to woodlands .
skali terserempak with ffe !
terperanjat giler !
he taged along with us since he was so free .
go woodlands , headed to banquet first .
saw bf working .
i ordered spicy seafood soup .
but in the end , didn't managed to finish up .
bf joined us at the table .
seems like he was so blardy f*ked up with work .
didn't talk much with him though he was just sitting beside me .
mostly mai and ffe talked to him .
perhaps i was too tired to talk .
or maybe my mood swing striked me .
oh whatever -.-


after , went around c.p to hunt for more jobby .
it was seriously so kecoh having to go out with my pri. sch friend , shareezat .
honestly , it was the very first time i get to go out with him like this .
haha !
we talked alot , talk shit alot .
really , i am so glad i could meet him after so long !



soon after , trained back to amk to find more jobby .
around plus , me and shareezat made a move while the rest followed mai to hunt for more.
my leg couldn't stand it anymore .
zat sent me home as he's gonna take 853 near my block .
talked alot again , laughed like crazy people .
hahaha !




somehow , i feel restless and moody .
why ?
:{

Justin Bieber .






eh he's rated #2 top in mmy list eyh .
yeah yeah , i know i've told efa and mai that he sounded soo like a girl .
-oh maybe he haven't break his voice or whatever .
but still !!!! he's hot lah kan .
except that jocob black is still on my #1 list though .



I got myself addicted to Justin Bieber's song , ' one time ' .
its f* nice and i melted looking at his music video since i don't have anything to do .
cept that perhaps i'm gongg for the wedding ceremony on the irls side later .
or either , family timeeee .





Oh well , thinking bout tomorrow , ITS MY LASTTTT PAPERRR !!
oh my god oh my god !
standy bilik berserak ah sok !



tuesday i've promised mai to go for job interview since our exams finish alr .
hehhhhhhh !
not sure where eh .
hopefully can get a.s.a.p .

i was browsing thru google and i saw this .
kiwak , hot kapppppeeee !
ugh bella you lucky shit . hahahah !
cair siul aku tgok ...


he looks so 'yummy' .
HAHAHA !
k mepek . i know .



i seriously can't wait for 20.11.09 !




i'mma at home for while since later at 6 like that i gotta go to yishun for my cousin's dinner wedding ceremony .
tskkk .
had a ggreat talk with sarah just now while eating .
seems like we have alot to talk about later at night .

it was a hell wearing my black batik kebaya .
jalan like itekk , just like what bf said lahhhhh kannnnnn .
haha !
will be changing to my green songket .
probably will be much more comfy .

monday , last paper lah siul !
happy ahhhhhh !!!!

those are my 2 lovely babies now .
i bought that mp3 due to offer . if not i won't have bought it .
the mp3 do come with an earpiece .
but the earpiece like so uncomfortable .
so i went down to amk hub myself to get that audio technica earphones .
believe it or nt , i took pink .
oh yesssssssss , shockin eh .
tsk .
no green . thats why .
i mean , there is but left side is pink and the other side is green . and what made me not buy it was the colour of the wire . which was black .
so aiyah , take pink aje lah .
ask the sales person for its specifications .
what i bought was more to bass power .
after , i saw this audio teachnica headphones limited edition which was silver and gold .
mekkk , classic gilerrr !!
cair tau tgk !


anw , i've decided to join nuffnag since mai ajak me join that site .
kinda interesting .
do help me by clicking it okay , sayangs ;D !


tmr will be ahving my cousin's wedding ceremony at yishun i supposed .
aiyah , baju kurung and high heels lah makne nyeeeee .
bf said he may be working .
it nearly turned me down .
BUT ! in the end it didn't coz i don't wannna whine and complaint .
coz , if i were to work too after my N's are over on monday , will be busy too and won't be contacting him that much rightttt .
seee , meeera is soooooo Understading eh .
hahaha !




i wanna go date with bf la .
i wanna go chalet with my cliques laaaaa .
aiseh , so lambat ah for monday to come .
mai , efa , ffe can horray2 alr .
left zan , me , rash and wan , who has to endure till monday .
tskkkk !




Sec 4N chalet on 19,20,21 !
i wanna go !
pls , i hope momther has no holiday plans on that dayyyyyyy :{

on tues , brother was free .
he fetched me from school and mai hopped in too .
dropped me off at amk hub since mom ask me to buy some things .

mai walked me home and i told her somethings ..
' don't needa feel like your a bitch kay , my dear . as i've said , no humans in this world can never ever make mistakes .. i forgive and forget , thats my way . '

i was actually damn restless and moody .
idk why .
that __ has been always talking to me bout __ .
i'm fuckin frustrated and annoyed .
but alah , lynkan jek lah kan .


at night after brother finish with his raya outing , i msed him whether wanna go on a night ride and since i was damn f* hungry .
so he fetched me around 1am .
before that i was like otp with bf .
in the car , talked to him and i told him me and brother going to beach road to makan .
then he was like " eh amek kite ah . kite laparrrrrr . "
so i put the call on hold and told brother bout it .


ME: eh abg , my 'friend' sham and epul lapar . can they tagged along ? pls ?
BRO: where are they staying ?
ME: sham is sleepin over at epul's crib so that will be Jurong .
BRO: wah ! takd jauh lagik ke ! haha ! k ah anything ah .
ME: thank yyyyyyyyyyyyyoooouuuuu !! ( big smile ) !


so i resume my call and told bf that we're fetchingg them and he went ,



HIM: eh b ! i play2 ajeee !
ME: ehhh ape seh . i tell him alr . he's goin in the highway alr . you guys better get ready .
HIM: (talking to epul) , EH EPUL , ABG DIE NK AMEKK KITE !
EPUL: EH KO TKM MCM2 SAKKK !
and it went on .


but in the end they ot ready and brother and i fetched them aat epul's crib .
at that point of time brother doesnt know yet that i'm with shammm .
so they all peng alot of sotries when borther chit chat with them .
i just sit in front smiling all the way .



in the end we didn't go beach road but instead we went to the boon lay nasi lemak there .
i treat all of them inc. my bro .
it was a sincere treat ya know !
ehehe .
bf got questioned alot by brother .
hahahah !


around 2am plus , brother sent them back home .
i slept on the back .
was so sleepy .
while walking from the carpark to the lift , i had a 'talk' with brother .


ME: eh abg , i wanna tell you a secret but i'm not sure whether i can trust you anot .
BRO: tell lah .
ME: sure can trust you ah ?
BRO: yes laaahhh .
ME: actually to be truthful , i'm in a r/s with shamm ..
BRO: i knew it ! (gave me a grin) . step you guys know from the same school only . (smiled)
ME: (gave a bi big wide smile )


somehow brother seems to like him as both of them are IT freaakkkzssz .
so obviously they have something in common ehs .
haha !


but i feel relieved after telling that to brother .
i know i shuold be gald to have a brother like him .
love you lahhh , brudddddddddddeeeeeeeer .
hahaha !



bf fetched me from school today .
chilled and he sent me back home .







i'm sleepy . i wanna go take a nap first lah kay ;D

Open house and Raya outing pictures with ♥ and friends .












life has been super great with my cliques and ♥ around .
had open house on Sat , 3rd October .


it was a blast yet a tiring one .
woke up as early as 6 plus am on sat just to get the help mom out to prepare all the foods and stuffs .
i made cappuccino puddings .
from 6 plus didn't sleep till 4 am i think .
coz at night i was otp with ♥ .
he actually attend my open house despite he himself having his pwn open house on the very same day .
but i couldn't attend his .


♥ gave me smthg when i picked him up at the bus stop .
it turned out that he bought me a couple teee .


cliques except for rash went off around 4 plus .
rash accompanied ♥ at my house till 5 plus gituk .
i lyn them all the way .
my puddings laku lah siot !
happy aku .
hahaha !



then at night , me and my cousin got bored .
so we decided to go to amk hub since i wanted to hunt for ♥'s pressie .
bought him a medal .
its very nice and unique .



after everyone left , i spend my time writing a letter to go with the pressie .




monday , after exam , rush to amk hub to buy mai's earpiece and a giftbox .
then rush back home coz afternoon i was supposed to meet ♥ .
he finished work at 4 plus and met him in the train at bout 5 like that .
he taught me maths algebra sums .
then go smoke .
study again .
then 9 plus made move.


reach home at 10 plus .
rest .
firdan called after that .
talked to that bacin for an hour and we put down .
he played me a song " more than words " on his guitar .
it was beautiful .


then ♥ called pulak .
talked for while .
said some serious things .
then skali he tibe2 said " crispy chicken " .
i laughed my ass off .
lol !





he's over-nighting at epul's houseyy .
and i'm in no mood not because he's over-nighting there .
but i'm just restless and in no mood all of a sudden .
hai .







to you : take care sudah lah ehhh , __ .
aku harap kau akan brubah prangai kau lau kau da pat dlm skrng .
jgn uat hati pompan cam kertas .
dah conteng , buang .
brubah ah kay , pls ah eh .

i seriously have alot of photos and stories to tell .
i'll just put up a few photos first .
the rest i'll upload later on k ;D



today went out jalan raya with bf and his friends .
tho it's my first time GOING out with my bf's friend which i have never done that before with my previous ex's , i got along well with them .
they're super friendly and they made me feel welcomed .

they're not the sombong2 ones .
they're kecoh , thats what i loike .
but ! nothing can be compared with my friends like lagik kecoh kan kan kan !
hahaha !
still , bf's friends were really great .



today was my most tiring day .
go out as early as 9 plus , as they're meeting at 10.30 .
i was so panicked that i was running late to meet bf .
so i took cab .
cabbed to bedok to pick up bf and headed straight to the first house at pasir ris .
skali check2 , we're the first to arrive .
we had to wait for quite some time so both of us kill mosquitos for while .
then i go and betolkan his smping since he said it was selekeh . haha !





anw , to bf's friends , thanks for the warm welcome you gave to me yeah .
the ride in the van , was very fun and very the kecoh . hahaha !
thanks once again .
all of you are so nice and friendly ;D
sorry e and sham had to go off first as i was in the hurry to go school .
i hope , we'll meet again some other time {:




i'll update more when i'm reeaaallly not tired and free .
i really really have alot to say ;D






&& before midnight strikes , i wanna say ,


Happy 2nd Monthsary , ♥ !
syg kau banyak-banyak lah oi !
haha !












- you whispered saying that you wanna be with me till whenever .. how can i really assure it's true ? what if i'm being fooled again ? ... :{