I'M TOTALLY DIGUSTED , SERIOUSLY .





As for now , i just wanna spend most of my time with aidil .
and hopefully with my precious 4 (mai,ffe,zan,efa) someday too .
coz to me , they're the one who makes me cool down and make me happy .
unlike being at home , MY EAR DRUMS FEELS LIKE AS IF IT CAN BURST ANYTIME AND I CAN GO MENTAL HOSPITAL ANYTIME TOO ~!



been spending most of the days this week with bby .
i feel happy and he makes me forget bout everything for a moment not till i get home and the fucking topic will pop up in this house . thats when my good mood sinks .
so baby , you gotta tahan with me for 3 years like this till the fuckers gets married -.-



i had fun with bby today .
we had lunch at far east and it started to rain cats and dogs .
fucked up , both of us were drenched ! sigh . but it made us laughed like hell .
right bby ? ^.^
we had nth to do so we bth decided to play nintendo wii at EMAX2 .
fun lah but kite abit belo uh coz first time play wii luh kan . jakun skit .
LOL !




and aidil said " we must have nintendo wii console in our future house uh ! it'll be our family entertainment . " FUH ! senyum lebar ! hahahah !










just to add some random post but i'm dedicating it to aidil of course at the same time :


you know , when i know aidil back then in sec sch , i thought he's that type of person who's very naughty and a ladies man and not serious in r/s ..
but now soon to be 7 months knowing him much more in person as his partner , now i know what kinda guy he is .
All those ladies who actually got a chance to be with him , i gotta tell ya ladies that you're such in a loss .
i seriously count myself lucky to have him .
he makes me feel that he's the only guy i ever had in my whole life .
makes me feel like as if i've got no ex's at all .



It's like as if god sent me an angel from above to be part of my life , to be with me throughout my thick and thin .
Thanks for being by my side always ..
I appreciate it baby .



YOU'RE THE BEST .
love you .

if you understand this than thats the meaning of life .

i know having a 'soon' sister in law which you dont favour at all seems to be driving you koo -koo

but,

stop me if im saying anything wrong ....

i 'm trying to understand you and doing all the best of making you cheer up okay !

ily;)

and ;

and ;

today was super - duper best best sekali kasi 10 finngers and 10 toes up !

ahahahha . . ..

got to do that again !!!

hey i know exactly what will cheer you up , you think about this memorable day and the talks we had .

that will most certainly cheer you up .

syg you ;)

On monday , had some good times with aidil .
everything was on him . 'cept for the big puzzle .
the puzzle is cool . something different .


what's even more cooler ?
of course , its the Ben&Jerry+Movi'e treat+kfc treat .
but what's the coolest ?
Having to spend my day with aidil .
thats the coolest .



Thanks for the day and the treat babe .
Shall do this again soon .
love you .





















I'm not happy with you , brother ..
i don't wish to have that bich & family to be part of us .
go to hell .
yes go .

Sempena Hari Raya niy kan , on behalf of aidil also , we would like to wish every muslim a SELAMAT HARI RAYA , MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN ;D
forgive us for all our wrong doings .
buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih . true ? {:






this year , AT LAST gitu kan , i get to celebrate with that kentot aidil .
didn't managed to raya wih him for the past few years .
this year , i feel its a special year .
surprisingly , i feel excited ya know .
i guess , having him in my life now make a huge difference in my life .
but one thing thats making me feel so lazy to go out for raya tmr ...
its just that ... I'M SO FREAKIN' FUCKIN' TIRED TO THE MAXIMUM !
cannot tahan .
but hopefully , i won't get a fever tonight coz i alr feel feverish .
sigh .
















k lah , once again , SELAMAT HARI RAYA ! ;DDDDD

Raya is just round the corner and im not sure whether i'm excited bout it eh .
i miss my childhood times when my late grandmother is still around .
all my msian relatives will gather here in spore and play bunga api together .
but now , things are different ..


since after my grandmother left us all , i don't feel the excitement of raya . not until i hear the takbir on air .
In fact , sometimes when i hear the takbir , i dont feel excited at all but i feel sad .
Sad as in like , " sigh , another year of raya without my grandmother .. "
it saddens me looking at other who still have heir grandparents around them ..
but me , i don't have any grandparents left .
i only managed to spend a few years of my life with my grandmother on dad's side .
only 1 that i've spent some years with but the rest , i didn't managed to even meet them ..
allah loves them more .
I redha .


Well to my Tok Mak/Tok Ayah , Nenek/Atok , Selamat Hari Raya {: ...






I wish you all could watch me grow up ..
but sigh ..
as i've said , Allah loves all of you more than i do ...

I'm really missing aidil now :[
very badly .



Anw , i just wanna dedicate this post to my dearest aidil ...


Hey babe , life has been very great with you .
No matter whatever the situation is , i still love you the way i do .. ALWAYS ..
Tho things might sometimes go the wrong way , i will always forgive ya sincerely .
Nothing will ever change anything in this r/s .
I love this r/s and of course i LOVE you the most .
It's a lie to think you are not good enough , it's a lie to think you are not worth anything . We're all good , we're all worth it .
I know sometimes i hurt ya deeply , love . I'm sorry ..
We must rmb one thing , after all our pains and tears , look at the rainbow of our life together . It’s totally worth , baby .
I realized that apologizing does not always mean you're wrong . It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego ...
Whenever we fight/argue , i never wanna give up coz if i give up , i will never have the chance to experience it . Life is valuable , & i don't wanna waste it .

I LOVE YOU , MUHAMMAD AIDIL .
Let's make this r/s work .


Breakfast in bed everyday in the future okay with a lil sweet note to top it up ;D




















"I have a hand, and you have another, put them together and we have each other."

♥♥♥