Raya is just round the corner and im not sure whether i'm excited bout it eh .
i miss my childhood times when my late grandmother is still around .
all my msian relatives will gather here in spore and play bunga api together .
but now , things are different ..


since after my grandmother left us all , i don't feel the excitement of raya . not until i hear the takbir on air .
In fact , sometimes when i hear the takbir , i dont feel excited at all but i feel sad .
Sad as in like , " sigh , another year of raya without my grandmother .. "
it saddens me looking at other who still have heir grandparents around them ..
but me , i don't have any grandparents left .
i only managed to spend a few years of my life with my grandmother on dad's side .
only 1 that i've spent some years with but the rest , i didn't managed to even meet them ..
allah loves them more .
I redha .


Well to my Tok Mak/Tok Ayah , Nenek/Atok , Selamat Hari Raya {: ...






I wish you all could watch me grow up ..
but sigh ..
as i've said , Allah loves all of you more than i do ...